my perhaps perhaps perhaps

When you are in love, or in a state of loving someone (which actually is the same thing.. or is it?), you hear people saying, you make me feel like i can be myself when i'm around you. Like Antoine de Sains says, Perhaps love is the process of my leading you gently back to yourself.

Perhaps, what he says is true. People can mean a lot of things when they say something. Or maybe at times, don't mean anything at all. Shooting blanks. Just like politicians who says a bucket of promises to burn the fire inside your heart, feeling all patriotic and nationalistic.. But how sincere is the struggle of today's politicians? For what? to prevail power and money?

Winston Churcill once said, perhaps it is better to be irresponsible and right, than to be responsible and wrong. I guess being a leader needs a lot of responsibilities. Even in Islam, you will be asked in the afterworld of your responsibilities and how well you perform your task. Sure you question your leaders, of course, you voted for them. With all the chaos and misleading information going around the country, I sometimes mengeluh at what has happened to us? After 50 years of independence, we are still dijajah. Even worse, not by the brits, but by our own people. And for what? For power? And after they have the power, the struggles are for the nation? And if so, why do we still have a huge gap between the ultimately rich and the devastatingly poor people? Of course, the talking, the discussing is always mind stimulating and also heart wrenching. We as observers can only observe. or can we? so we complain about how life is unfair. Oscar Wilde says "Life is never fair, and perhaps it is a good thing for most of us that it is not". Yeah sure.. People have better things to do such as discus really thought provoking issues. Why argue about AirAsia stewardass who wears unimaginably low cut uniforms till the lady-politicians feels so threatened by it? Aren't there any other BIGGER issues to be addressed in such a BIG event? Well of course the jokes about marrying another woman is so funny (har har) when you can discuss about the safety about women walking around, children safety. What are they really discussing? Wanna wait till something like the NJJ case or Altantuya strikes again? then only worry? Are our struggles done after we reached 50 years of independence? Have we done everything we could to be a developed country? Is this the end for our generation? In the words of Winston Churchill, "This is not the end. It is not even the beginning of the end. But it is, perhaps, the end of the beginning".