my 26th May 2009

>> Tuesday, May 26, 2009

FASM (Faculty of Applied Sciences and Mathematics) is now known as FAculty Suka Meeting.. Or in BM is FSGM (Fakulti Sains Gunaan dan Matematik) = Fakulti Sangat Gemar Meeting. Hehe~

Yes, meeting meeting and meeting. Bila meeting sometimes ada makan, sometimes takde makan.

Tomorrow we will be meeting the new intake for May08/09 semester. As usual, saya sebagai photographer kehormat perlu lah bertugas..

Every new semester will mark a new chapter, a new beginning, azam baru, to be a better lecturer and stuff.. Only this new semester, Ms.D won't be around.

Yesterday i saw MSO for the first time this year..
the feeling is unbelievable...
sukar nak diungkapkan..
After 9 months plus of being continents apart, I finally get to see his face again in person..

Jatuh cinta untuk kali kedua.. ;)
(blush)

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my poem at 429pm

>> Thursday, May 21, 2009

then and now..

what i had then, was there and was gone
what i had then, i knew it won't be for long
what i have now, is here and will be dear
what i have now, is here and it will be forever

what i had then, it had been
what i had then, it will be
what i have now, it has been
what i have now, it will be

what i had then, i had all
what i had then, i couldn't have all
what i have now, i have it all
what i have now, i couldn't have it at all

if then was now and now was then
if what was then what could have been
if it was then, if it will be
if i had it me it, i have it in me

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my tribute : selamat hari guru

Ok selamat petang ye. Tajuk saya harini adalah berkenaan dengan teaching & learning.

I am an academician. And as academicians, sharing and dissimenating knowledge runs in our veins. My mother is now a penchant teacher, she still carries that teacher vibe. My dad used to be a teacher also, also carries the same vibe. And I followed their footsteps venturing in this field. MSO says that I am very patient, that's why I can become a lecturer (tapi adakalanya hilang jugak sabar or paling tak pun, rase nak cubit cubit je).

The places that I went to study contrued very positive teaching & learning experience. In elementary school, I cried when my standard 1 teacher, Mrs. Chong decided to leave the school. I felt a very big loss when our practical teacher, Ms. Aida, left us after she completed her training. The teachers who taught me is a part of MY teaching and learning process. and they have contributed to what I am today. In form 3, I remember I failed my history Mid Term test and teacher made me stand up in class and every body knew I failed the test. Yes, it has effected me so deeply (memalukan weh, dah la 15 years old, baru kenal erti puberty, peer pressure and all those teenage angst). But I studied really hard and I improved a lot. The embarrasment I had to bear resulted in getting straight As and landed me to a very good school. (Terima Kasih Cikgu)

In boarding school, I wasn't the smartest. I was a mediocre, in fact, sometimes I feel like I don't deserve to be in that school and it was just luck who had brought me there. Everybody studied like mad and wanted to be a doctor and score 4.00. they walked really fast cause nak kejar masa. And everyone would check on everyone else to see how much they have studied, and if they see me just chilling, they would think that I have studied and would be worried (I really hated that).

My addmaths teacher showed me that maths is very interesting and really easy to understand. and there's always a logic explanation to everything. My physics teacher shared that the subject is in fact a very intriguing phenomenon.. and that every action has an equal an opposite reaction. We had the best Chemistry teacher who always use different colors for different equations. and she will give us motivational quotes and read the do'a before lectures for Allah's blessing. My English teacher, Sir Kamil (Haris, aku tau ko sure tergelak terbahak bahak bila baca ni.. jahat la wei) He still remembers me when I go back to school. He's very genuine and loves to talk. He will talk and talk and talk and laugh by himself. But it had made the class enjoyable. Last but not least, my homeroom teacher. The one everybody feared most because he was the strictest. The one and only computer teacher, En. Fauzi. At 17, we learned a lot. Not just books, but also about life. (Terima Kasih Cikgu)

This is very mean, but I have erased most of the memories during my matriculations. It was when I hated chemistry, loved Physics, discovered Biology but became really bad at maths. (Terima Kasih Cikgu)

In university, we had THE BEST actuarial science lecturers. The coolest and mind blowingly smartest maths and statistics lecturers. They treated us like adults. When they teach, you can see that they are genuine and that they want you to learn.. and when they scold us, is not because of they want to feel great, but because it's for our own good..

But of course, the ones that had accepted me even when they know that I am average, I am truly grateful.

There's a saying in academics, "when you accept a student, you accept the responsibility of not only teaching but helping to shape a human being to be someone better in their future. and this responsibility is in your hands from the first day you see them. you might not see them again, but whatever that they practise of what you teach, you will be rewarded, insha Allah"

These people, inspired me to be a good lecturer / teacher..
I know it's abit late, I only had the time and feel to blog today..

TERIMA KASIH CIKGU.. Jasamu akan dikenang selalu. Tanpa tunjuk ajar dari cikgu, saya tidak akan berada di sini harini..

Selamat Hari Guru to all teachers / lecturers

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my senses

>> Tuesday, May 19, 2009

I had a very general status on my FB that has nothing to do with my upcoming wedding. And suddenly, came this person (who I don't know tapi I added je, sbb saya ni kan baik orangnye) said this on my wall,

Sara Ridzwan life as a wife is not as easy as u think. be prepared...

Yes, ada berbaur baur perasaan yang negative. But why ?

Someone told me this,

"When you get married, you are completing half of Islam. Allah will send angels from heaven to protect you in everything you do.. Because you are getting married.. its a beautiful thing."

I was deeply touched when I heard this. And suddenly, this comment from Sara Ridzwan ??

Yes, I dont know how to be a wife, just yet. Perhaps it is NOT easy. But why must u scare the people who wants to build a family, a beautiful relationship ? Aren't there nicer words to say ? like,... congratulations ???

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my heartbeat

I am at home in front of my desktop listening to Jose Gonzales's Heartbeat. See, I have a very great imagination, and when I have a picture in my mind, it is very specific. The trees, the cars, the leaves, the surrounding.. everything..

Heartbeat... I am imagining being at a place, maybe a wide field at its 11 pm. A car (not my myvi but a very old BMW macam kereta perang warna hijau plat number like BA 33) parked at the wide empty field. The radio is on playing an oldie, The Platter's Blue Moon. I am just laying on the car amazed with the stars and the moon. The wind is blowing gently. I pull my blanket and wrap it on myself. I have a cup of coffee maybe next to me. (tiba tiba.. biar la its my imagination) and just talking and laughing and making silly jokes.. reminiscing the old times.. and thinking about the future.. how we will be in 10 years time.. thinking will we ever have the luxury of this freedom... independence.. or will we be like adults, tied down with responsibilities.. will we ever have this moment again.. to feel.. to be.. free... ?

perhaps just for a second.. perhaps just for one heartbeat.. i want to be like the kite. flying freely, proudly and beautifully in the open sky.. and someone will pull me down when the time comes for me to hit the ground..

this song.. took me there.. But maybe sometimes, when u take a trip to the atmosphere and sail across the sun and around the milky way, though is beautiful, you will realize that the real world is a much better place..

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my pinky cheeks

>> Monday, May 18, 2009

my cheeks are pinky now. no, not because i am blushing nor i am wearing a blusher. u know when ur gonna be sick, that pale look kinda, and when u always go in an out of an air cond room, u will have this, pinky cheeks (btw, it matches my pink sweater).

i am abit clueless now. (i mean, at this very second, i am clueless). i hate this feeling of cluelessness, blurness and absentmindedness. time is moving very fast. like, very very fast.

i hate this feeling of mcm nak demam tapi tak berapa kinda.
wish me well.

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my current fave song

>> Sunday, May 17, 2009

Song beneath a song. Every song has it's own story. This is my favourite song at this moment. And I will definitely remember this song.....

(I'm not proud of the lyrics though)


"Thinking Of You"

Comparisons are easily done
Once you've had a taste of perfection
Like an apple hanging from a tree
I picked the ripest one
I still got the seed

You said move on
Where do I go
I guess second best
Is all I will know

Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes

You're like an Indian summer
In the middle of winter
Like a hard candy
With a surprise center
How do I get better
Once I've had the best
You said there's
Tons of fish in the water
So the waters I will test

He kissed my lips
I taste your mouth
He pulled me in
I was disgusted with myself

Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into...

You're the best
And yes I do regret
How I could let myself
Let you go
Now the lesson's learned
I touched it I was burned
Oh I think you should know

Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Oh won't you walk through
And bust in the door
And take me away
Oh no more mistakes
Cause in your eyes I'd like to stay...







alamak terbesar lak...camne nak kecik kan?????

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..among us..

>> Wednesday, May 13, 2009


wow 4 visitors at 220 pm today. and penambahan followers! yippie!!!!

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i turned 18

I turned 18 on 6th may 2009.
my family did a surprise celebration for me together with mother's day.
It was a nice surprise.
Im happy, people say I dont look my age (ye saya tak tipu)
Alhamdulillah I feel younger. Hopefully this feeling will last for quite some time.

I have a lot of things in my mind.
A lot of things to blog about.
But i cant blog about it. I have my reasons. I am now learning to be a private person. That's one of my resolutions.

But maybe blog more when Im less busy. Coz I love to blog :)

Here's to you kid, You turn 18 :)

Happy Birthday Dora!

counting days..

I like this pic because of the effect

**Note : i was not smoking, nor i was feeling 'high'. coz the picture looked like i was doing either one of it.. or maybe both.. i never have, and never will.
i was just playing with the lighter after lighting the candles**

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mother's day

To all the mothers in the world. u rock..really

and especially to the best mom in the world, my mother.
a super mom.
a super grandmom.
a super woman.

every day is a mothers day. we love u :)

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my brief post

>> Tuesday, May 05, 2009

We had 4 hours of meeting.

4 bloody hours.

I think I wont be able to sleep tonight.

And I don't feel well.

And I turn 18 tomorrow.

Yes. 18.

Brief.

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i didnt realize i have 403 posts! hey, that's my class name..

>> Monday, May 04, 2009

Mari buat tag yang sempat dalam masa 5 mins jer [4.28]

" If I can ....(fill in the blank with something impossible)....
I will NOT .....(fill in the blank)....
because ....(fill in the blank)....."


My ANSWER will be this :

" If I can pull the plane using my hair like that one Indian guy back in the 80s
I will NOT need to do rebonding
because it's gonna be a waste of RM 150" heheheh (it took me awhile to think of an answer for this tag)

I would love to see how these people answer this one..hehe

1) dyanna
2) sheri
3) shazzain
4) sue
5) soraya
6) nisa
7) wanie

end [4.33]

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