my hands in the cookie jar

>> Friday, February 27, 2009

it's friday. i love fridays. not just because it's the end of the week day and a start of the weekend but it also means that i can sleep late or early or do whatever i want on friday nights.

today is friday. we had vetting this morning and will continue in the afternoon. but by 1130 i already had headache and rase nak muntah (uwek).. i had anticipated this, so I prepared my famous KEK BATIK for all the Statistics lecturers to makan - makan while vetting (takde la lapar sangat jadinya). And I had my first KEK BATIK order too today! So now, I have decided to start a KEK BATIK business. hehe.

For 300g of Marie Biscuits

RM 25.00


Moga - moga business lebih berkembang dan maju, insyaAllah.

Plans for tonight : Drive Subang Parade after work (if larat).

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my forwarded email : Allah hanya memanggil Kita 3 kali saja seumur Hidup.

>> Thursday, February 26, 2009

I got this in my email.. and it hit me.. just thought of sharing with all of you...

Allah hanya memanggil Kita 3 kali saja seumur Hidup.

Renung-renungkan Dan selamat beramal..

Saat itu, Dhuha, Hari terakhir aku di Masjid Nabawi untuk menuju Makah....... , aku bertanya pada
Ibu, Ibu adalah pemilik Maknah Tour Travel dimana saya bergabung untuk Umrah Di Bulan July 2007 yang lalu.

'Ibu, kataku, Ada cerita apa yang Menarik dari Umrah....? ( Maklum, ini pertama kali aku ber Umrah). Dan Ibu,
Memberikan Tausyiahnya.

Kebetulan umrahku dimulai di Madinah selama 4 Hari, baru ke Makah.
Tujuannya adalah mendapatkan saat Malam Jumat di depan Kabah.

Ibu berkata...' , * Allah hanya memanggil Kita 3 kali saja Seumur hidup*

Keningku berkerut.... ....'Sedikit sekali Allah memanggil Kita..?'

Ibu tersenyum. 'Iya, tahu tidak apa saja 3 panggilan Itu..?'
Saya menggelengkan kepala.

'Panggilan pertama adalah* **Azan*', ujar Ibu.

'Itu adalah panggilan Allah yang pertama. Panggilan ini sangat jelas Terdengar di telinga Kita, sangat kuat
Terdengar. Ketika Kita sholat, sesungguhnya Kita menjawab panggilan Allah.
Tetapi Allah masih fleksibel, Dia tidak 'cepat marah' akan sikap Kita. Kadang Kita terlambat, bahkan tidak sholat sama sekali karena malas. Allah tidak marah seketika. Dia masih memberikan rahmatNya, masih memberikan
Kebahagiaan bagi umatNya, baik umatNya itu menjawab panggilan Azan-Nya atau Tidak. Allah hanya akan membalas umatNya ketika Hari Kiamat nanti'.

Saya Terpekur.... .Mata saya berkaca-kaca. Terbayang saya masih melambatkan sholat Kerana meeting lah, mengajar lah, Dan lain lain. Masya Allah.......

Ibu Melanjutkan,Panggilan yang kedua adalah Panggilan* Umrah/Haji*

Panggilan ini bersifat halus. Allah Memanggil hamba-hambaNya dengan Panggilan yang halus Dan sifatnya 'bergiliran' ..
Hamba yang satu mendapatkan Kesempatan yang berbeda dengan Hamba yang lain. Jalan nya bermacam-macam. Yang tidak punya uang Menjadi punya uang, yang tidak merencanakan, ternyata akan pergi, Ada Yang memang merencanakan Dan terkabul.
Ketika Kita mengambil niat Haji / Umrah, berpakaian Ihram Dan melafazkan 'Labaik Allahuma Labaik/ Umrotan',
Sesungguhnya Kita saat itu menjawab panggilan Allah yang Ke dua.

Saat itu Kita merasa bahagia, karena panggilan Allah sudah Kita jawab, meskipun panggilan itu halus sekali..

Allah berkata, Laksanakan Haji / Umrah bagi yang mampu'.

Mata saya semakin Berkaca-kaca. ........Subhanal lah....... .saya datang Menjawab panggilan

Allah lebih cepat dari yang saya rancangkan.. ...Alhamdulill ah...

'Dan Panggilan ke-3', lanjut Ibu, 'adalah* KEMATIAN*.

Panggilan yang Kita jawab dengan amal Kita. Pada kebanyakan kasus, Allah tidak Memberikan tanda tanda secara langsung, Dan Kita tidak mampu menjawab Dengan lisan Dan Gerakan. Kita hanya menjawabnya dengan amal sholeh. Karena Itu , Manfaatkan waktumu sebaik-baiknya. ..Jawablah 3 panggilan Allah Dengan Hatimu Dan sikap yang Husnul Khotimah.... .......Insya Allah Syurga adalah Balasannya.. ...'

** Mata saya basah di dalam Masjid Nabawi , saya sujud bertaubat pada Allah Karena kelalaian saya
Dalam menjawab panggilanNya. ....Kala itu hati saya makin yakin akan KebesaranNya, kasih sayangNya Dan dengan semangat menyala-nyala, saya mengenakan Baju Ihram Dan berniat..... ....Aku menjawab panggilan UmrahMu, ya Allah, Tuhan Semesta Alam........ **

*Huraisy*

*Pada Hari Kiamat akan keluar seekor binatang dari neraka jahanam yang Bernama 'Huraisy'
Berasal dari anak kala jengking. Besarnya Huraisy ini Dari timur hingga ke Barat. Panjangnya pula seperti jarak langit Dan bumi.

Malaikat Jibril bertanya : 'Hai Huraisy! Engkau hendak ke mana Dan siapaYang kau Cari?'
Huraisy pun menjawab, 'Aku mau mencari lima Orang.'

Pertama, orang yang meninggalkan sholatKedua, orang yang Tidak mahu keluarkan zakat.
Ketiga, orang yang durhaka kepada ibu Dan Bapaknya. Keempat, orang yang bercakap tentang dunia di dalam
Masjid. Kelima, orang yang suka minum arak.'*


Sampaikan pesanan ini
Biarpn 1 ayat.. Wallahualam*

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my pay day.. and other days..

>> Wednesday, February 25, 2009

Tanpa disedari, today is already pay day.. Woohoo! dat would mean, pay bills, reload touch and go card, give $ to mom and dad, do minor shoppings, do major shoppings, save some for rainy day, save some for sunny day etc etc..

Tanpa disedari juga, (after not checking my pay slip for quite some time) today I realized that my income tax telah pun dipotong dengan banyak sekali! Damn it tol. I would be very much pissed with this income tax issue. [hmm, malas la nak citer pjg..]

Anyways, I'm glad I am still able to have pay days.. Thinking about those who got laid off by their companies due to the economic slowdown, I'm thankful I am in this industry and still have a steady job to go to despite having to wake up at 530 every morning and leaving the house when most people are still in deep slumber.. siap bole tido balik lepas solat subuh.. and now subuh masuk 610.. (takpe takpe.. saya pergi mencari rezeki... early bird catches the worm.. heheh) I hope that our economy will recover soon.. merisaukan lah.. and don't get me started on politics.. yikes!

Ye, kepala saya bengong la semenjak dua menjak nih (that's why this post ada banyak bahasa Melayu.. coz it's better to write in BM when you're in that state.. or at least, that's me lah). I've been very much absent minded and sometimes just.. absent. I'm there but I'm just not there, get it? So many things in my head at this moment I need to put every detail into a proper folder and rename each file (macam dalam computer jugak). I have about 3- 4 notebooks (as in, buku nota kecil, bukan notebook laptop) that I jot everything or anything that comes into mind. I bring those everywhere I go. Unlike MSO, I am not much of a PDA person, I like writing and scribbling.. like the old school style.. In the book, sometimes you may see formulas scribbled at the sides, unsolved integration problems, sketches of funny faces when I'm bored, signatures and notes, receipt numbers, quotes, thoughts, reminders, numbers, car plate numbers.. weird stuff.. that's me for ya..

And dikala masa ini, tiba - tiba rasa teringin sangat nak pergi on a holiday. I'll be going to Kuantan in early April for Michelle's wedding. We're gonna stay at a fancy hotel by the beach and treat ourselves lavishly macam orang kaya (konon) macam dalam citer Gossip Girl, Laguna Beach, The OC or One Tree Hill and worry about our credit card bills later :p . Wait, One Tree Hill citer orang kaya ke? I'm gonna do some serious photography session there ditambah dengan model - model yang sangat rajin bergambar.. It's gonna be fun in the sun!

oh, the meeting on friday was cool (in shah alam, of course).
Prof SK whispered to me nicely, "makan guna tangan kanan.. itu sunnah.."
WPM and I looked at each other and I said, "saya kidal Prof"..
he replied "sunnah Nabi tu makan pakai tangan kanan"...
so I smiled weakly and said slowly to WPM when Prof SK was not looking "but I've been using left hand bila pakai sudu since at least 20 years ago"
WPM said "you pandai lukis tak ? lukis cantik2 ? slalunya orang kidal ni artistic"
for 2 seconds I thought for a while. I know the answer is a big NO but I didn't wanna sound like such a loser so I said this, "erm.. I can play Music..? does that counts?"
WPM comforted me , "haaa see!"

He He.

oh ye, when I was busy doing my final exam questions, House called me to the office and said this,
"I like the slide presentation you did... You pandai la buat.. Betul, I really like it"

Suddenly, just like an eclipse, those negative vibes about House hilang buat seketika...

Sigh, camne?

** MQA coming next week. Wish me luck, wish us all luck. We're gonna need loads of those **

Funny from Desperate Housewives episode yesterday

Edie's Husband : You need at least an engineering degree to do that..
Mrs. McKlumsky : Oh yeah ? you got one of those?

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my reason for being TOTALLY not myself at this moment

>> Thursday, February 19, 2009

MONDAY :: *MC [class canceled]

TUESDAY ::*MC [class canceled]

WEDNESDAY
:: Morning - Briefing for 2 hours [class canceled, tapi buat quiz 45 minutes]
:: Afternoon - Briefing for 1 hour [class canceled, tapi buat quiz 45 minutes]

THURSDAY
:: Morning - Class ok, alhamdulillah. harini students baik2
:: Afternoon - Class NOT OK. Cikgu kecik hati pada student lagi :(

FRIDAY :: *MEETING dan MEETING lagi (in Shah Alam). Suddenly Shah Alam is wayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy better than Btg Berjuntai.
Reason : HOUSE, MQA, HOUSE & MQA, people and JUST HOUSE.

At this moment, I am serabut (meja office), kusut (rambut), kelam kabut (if you can see me, you'd know how). I'm trying so hard not to lose my patience, my mind, my cool and (meminjam ayat cikyah sebentar) my mojo. I talked to my ex-boss and she believes that I can pull everything off (somehow it's comforting to know that), "you kan memang selalu macam tu .. bising tu kejap jer.. lepas tu u mesti cakap.. lek lek.. I can do this.. at last ok nyer.. " kata - katanya itu selalu membuatku tersenyum... she still remembers how i used to say it with the hand gestures and all "lek lek.. don't worry.. no problem". Yup, that was me then kot. sekarang kan dah garang.. hehe..

Early of this year, I mentioned in one of my posts. So little time, so many things to do.. I wish I hadn't said that.. cause it's becoming to materialize.....


Ya, Allah.. I need time.. Give me abit more time...

FRIDAY NIGHT ESOK ::
Agenda : Laze around on my hard earned queen sized bed either finishing off Alek Wek autobiography or watch Weeds till Saturday morning.
Reason : Cause this time, I deserve it.. yeah!
(wah, what a productive week)
Soon, this will be over..

Note : House disini bukanlah bermaksud rumah.. of course, rumahku syurgaku.. House di sini merujuk kepada cerita House MD


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my tribute : kissing an angel

>> Tuesday, February 17, 2009

Today I feel a little better compared to yesterday. In fact, I feel much much better, even. Alhamdulillah. I will think more than 100 time before complaining about my health nowadays since I consider myself lucky.

Today for the first time, I saw the face of baby Amir Yusuf in one of the blogs that I avidly follow. And the writer has written it so beautifully, he never fails to make me shed a tear every time I read it. Amir Yusuf is not just like any other angels brought to earth.. He has special powers. The power is his strength. Everytime I read it, I will think of my late nephew, arwah Rafiq who had special powers too...

Arwah Rafiq left us on the 5th of Ramadhan in 2007. It has been 18 months since he had left us but sometimes I feel his presence. Baby Rafiq suffered from Spinal Muscular Atrophy Type 1. But he was strong from the very first day dat I met him in Miri, Sarawak. Baby Rafiq also had special powers. He was very very strong.

When both he and me were admitted to the hospital in 2007, while he was covered with wayars and suction machines, I, on the other hand complained about how I wished to be at home where it felt much more comfortable and I hated having to face the nurses and doctors waiting for me to swallow pills as big as an eraser which I really hated to do. But I guess for Rafiq, comfortable to him was just being able to breathe normally even having wayars all over his body. That was good enough.. After watching how he suffered and still able to smile even on the last day when he was with us, made me realize how fragile life is and how we should not take things for granted..

Everyday I am thankful for being healthy and alive.. Even when I get sick once in a while.. I am still able to breath normally, alhamdulillah.

After watching baby Amir Yusuf, it made me miss the little times I had spent with baby Rafiq who is at the gates of heaven waiting for his parents while listening to all Allah's secrets.. He is simply terlalu istimewa..

Al Fatihah to my dear late nephew, Rafiq Danish Amir

** Kepada Saudara Fajar, if you happen to stop by my blog, I sincerely hope Amir Yusuf will recover soon. I guess now you know why I always follow your entries and how much I can relate kot.. Even though I am not a parent (not just yet), I've seen how strong lil angels can be.. So, have faith to Allah and be strong during these hard times.. it may be weird that we have never met and probably staying continents apart, but the its amazing that the internet had led me to your blog so I guess there must be a reason for it.. my thoughts are with you and your family, insyaAllah.. kisses for baby Amir Yusuf who has such a wonderful name and an amazing strength..

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my night cruise

Almost everyday now, after coming back from work and having my bath, I would take one of my twin nephews for a little night cruise, either Fahim or Farhan depending on who's turn to stay in PJ (they're twins and take turns staying with their Opah i.e my mom, every week).

Today I took Farhan. I love the feeling of being fresh after a good mandi manda and driving at night (around 810am) when the roads are less jammed and people are not so kiasu to reach their destinations. I tuned to mixfm cause I like to listen to it at night, their songs are mostly from the 80s or at least soothing to hear. So while passing through Taman Bahagia and almost reaching the junction to my house, Roshan (my favourite DJ in mixfm) played this song by Lenka, an Aussie singer, which happens to be Ugly Betty's promo song. And I thought, hmm.. this is nice.. So I took a turn to another junction so that I can drive a little bit more and listen to the song till it finishes. Farhan, being a smart 2 year old looked puzzled at the fact that I didn't turn into the junction at our house. And when he looked at me turning the volume up, he sorta understood why I didn't that and did the cutest laugh.. hehe..

P/S: I'm soo looking forward to watching Ugly Betty and Desperate Housewives tonite on 8tv. Mujurlah ada 8tv di dalam bilikku~

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my 2 days of MC

Monday 2am. I suddenly woke up feeling a terrible stomach ache (aduh). The whole family has been having stomach aches and it was weird that I didn't get it.

"Perut Dora kebal kot". Tu la cakap besar lagi. Amek kau..

That had resulted in me getting 2 days of MC from Dr. Murali from Klinic Rakyat SS 3. Although Monday morning I really wanted to go to work (terbayangkan muka budak2 yang excited nak ambik quiz. I promised to give them quiz on Monday) I had my working attire on even my hijab skali dah ambil kunci kereta dah. It was 8am and if I drive, I'll reach there at 9am at least but there's a big possibility that I might feel like vomitting and going to the toilet every now and then..

"But I promised I'd give them a quiz today. Takpe la I'll drive to Btg Berjuntai kot.."

"Which is more important? Quiz or ur health?" my dad's statement left me thinking for half a minute and made me crawl back to bed feeling all sick and painful. See, when I am sick, I am really really sick. Tahap dewa.

So I received a lot of phone calls and text msgs from people who wanted to see me and looking around for me. Suddenly I felt important when the Deputy Dean called me (a rare occassion).

Today I feel a lot better. At least I can get out from my bed and walk around the house and blog too sikit sikit. Of course I still feel loya and nak muntah and everything else. But not as bad as yesterday. The call from House left me feeling nauseous again after giving me a task that I still wonder at this moment, "why me?"

So, lesson learned : Where I work, being vocal and extrovert is NOT necessarily a good thing.

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my holiday plans

>> Saturday, February 14, 2009

Googling a place to go for a holiday. I know I want to feel the sandy beach in my feet and swim the deep blue ocean and take pictures of sunrise and sunset (note to self: need to buy an extra memory card and extra batteries for my SLR), drink fancy drinks with little umbrellas by the side of the glass, wear pareos and flip flops with my aviator sunglasses.

So these are my final options :-

Krabi (Phi Phi Island macam cerita The Beach.. Fabulous)
Pangkor
Redang

Or if I decide to be more adventurous, I'll add in Cambodia (gile adventurous).

Any other suggestions ?

*Mama watching Isteri Untuk Suamiku.. Cerita yang asik asik menangis dan muka terkejut yang kesian~~ tak larat..

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my friday the 13th of February

>> Friday, February 13, 2009

I wish I could be as charismatic, calm and reserved just like J-Lo in Shall We Dance. It amazes me how she can dance using those heels (love the shoes) with that perfect posture. Firm yet graceful. The movie is nice and the ending is not so cliche'. I like. Plus, I've always been a Richard Gere fan. My favourite scene would be when Richard Gere was holding a rose wearing a 3piece suit on the escalator.. (Very romantic.. Aduh... Lemah...)

Today I chatted with 3 of MSO's siblings. The youngest one was really cute. She is the same age as Izzah. The 2nd youngest is like a photocopied image of MSO and the 3rd youngest is abit laid back..

I am very disappointed with Astro. It hasn't been working for almost 2 weeks now. And I missed the last episode of Alexander Bukan Zulkarnain (sorry Syirfan. But I will definitely get the original CD, do update me). Luckily Cikyah SMSed me at 11pm with the conclusion, "At the moment we settle for cyrus as iskandar". I thought so. Since Alexander's features were the total opposite of Iskandar Zulkarnain in the Quran, Surah Al-Kahfi.

On a brighter note, I finished the first chapter of the autobiography of a supermodel Alek Wek while riding in the bus to work. I thought it was beautifully written and as usual I am taking my time reading it and indulging myself through some creative writings. I try to put myself in her shoes but it doesn't seem to fit. Some of the things that were described were beautifully arranged that I wish I could watch it in the movie. I've always loved to go to different countries and learn their cultures and histories. Perhaps I will one day, insyaAllah..

Oh yes, and I soo don't believe on Friday the 13th. 13 is my significant lucky number. Like seriously.

A cool incident happened today before leaving work. All I can say is that cantik is such a beautiful word :)

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my spectrum of life

>> Thursday, February 12, 2009

My ex-student, a part time model hung out with me today and lend me her book titled Alek (From Sudanese Refugee to International Supermodel). As she walked out from my office she said this,

"Takpe, take your time.. Bila I baca, I felt so inspired.. If dia yang susah susah boleh jadi supermodel, I pun boleh.. ahahahahahah"

Yup, that's right. She's considered quite close to me and calls me babe. Weird ? I know.. Takpe lah, since she is my ex-student and just 2 years younger than me, I'm okay.

Earlier this morning, my current student came by to see me to ask me questions. A very hard working guy and very sincere at heart. Somehow I could see it that he really wants to succeed. Unfortunately though, he is quite weak. I was filled with mixed emotions. I felt that even though he is hardworking but he doesn't know the proper technique of studying. Tapi dia nak berjaya. And at that very moment as I sat there watching him with full of determination trying to redo the question we discussed and trying to comprehend it, the images of Prof SK suddenly popped in my head in a black and white screen and he was saying this,

"It's our duty to guide them.. Not everyone is born smart and brilliant but we can help to shape them to be a successful person. Itu amanah kita.. Sometimes what we do that we might think is a small thing, could mean a lot to them.. "

He told me his CGPA and I could see that he is scared that I might judge him. But I made it clear that he has to work hard to improve on his CGPA. And he will succeed if he has the determination and willpower.. I felt sad when he said this,

"Saya memang tak pandai Maths Miss.. Terus terang saya cakap.. Tapi saya yakin Miss.. Saya akan usaha Miss.. Saya akan buktikan kat Miss yang saya boleh.. Tapi Miss kena tolong saya.. Saya mungkin akan tanya soalan bodoh sebab saya kadang - kadang memang tak paham.. tapi saya malu nak tanya.. nanti orang cakap.. eh dia ni, benda ni pun nak tanya?"

"Takpe.. Senang je, you jumpa saya personally and nak tanya apa - apa pun tanya je.. insyaAllah saya akan tolong"

"Terima kasih miss.. Ni dah citer kat miss ni saya rasa lega sket"

Why do I feel sad ? I wonder who had made him feel scared of asking. When you make them feel scared of asking, you make them feel scared to learn. I feel that no one should feel scared of asking questions..Sayang sekali..

Looking at him made me remember vividly the first time I met with my mentor aka my morrie Prof Aziz when I came to see him telling him my intentions to register for postgraduate school back in 2005.

"Saya memang nak sambung blajar Prof.. Tapi saya bukanlah pelajar yang cemerlang sangat Prof.. Saya average saje.. But I want to be an academician.. Prof rasa saya boleh buat ke ? "

He smiled and said this, "If you betul - betul nak, memang boleh.. saya takde masalah.. Saya memang akan accept student.. Setiap orang tu patut diberi peluang.. kalau ada keinginan.. memang boleh berjaya..."

A few simple words and with that I had the light of confidence to register for my post graduate. Yes, I was not the brightest students. I blame myself for not practising the proper technique of learning. But at least I learned from my mistakes and I can tell my students not to do the same. I was given a second chance in learning and worked hard for it as I know I wasn't the brightest. Pastinya tak tidor malam and literally crying while doing assignments and drinking bottomless coffee almost every night which had made me a coffee addict now. Everytime I always tell myself, "I will get through this... I will get through this.." I am fortunate to have wonderful family members who supported me and friends who fought the battle together.. Those are beautiful memories. I am lucky enough to have the opportunity to learn and thankful for that. The song that had helped me through would be Taylor Hick's Do I make you proud? and everyday before class, I would imagine my parents waiting for me outside the hall with a scroll in my hand.. I always envisioned that.. I guess it's true.. The mind is a very powerful tool..

My room is being visited by students almost everyday. Why ? Because this semester, I have become less garang. I guess to reach out to them, ada cara nya kot.. And I finally found out how..

With all the things happening around me makes my life more colorful nowadays, insyaAllah :)

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my groove

>> Wednesday, February 11, 2009

Driving back from work today, for the first time I heard JT and TI's new song that they sang on the Grammys / Emmy (I still get confused) 3 days ago. [ Boring~ ]

I changed the station and this song got me groovin'..

Yes, I am DJ.. I am from the block..( I am from the kampung.. Kampung Tunku (KT) y'all)..
Don't be fooled by the rocks that I got.. (rock apa ni? tak pakai rocks pun ?)
I'm still I'm still DJ from the block.. (KT)
Used to have a little now I have a lot.. (sama je)
No matter where I go I know where I came from.. (yes, I go to btg berjuntai, I know I came from KT)
THE KT!

hehehehe totally random post...

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my chats

Title : my mom goes IT savvy

Mama : D, Macam mana nak check stock market from the internet? Kat sokkabar dah takde..
Me : (in front of the mirror taking out contact lense belah kiri) Kejap eh.. (walking to the PC followed by Mama) Mama masuk www.osk188.com... tak tepi ni "Get Stock" tulis la stock nama apa mama nak and tekan "Go".. Mama nak check apa?
Mama : Cuba tengok GCORP
Me : (typing GCORP) Mama type je GCORP
Mama : Uishhhhh turun....
Me : Nape? Mama beli berapa haritu?
Mama : adoi.. jangan tanya laa....
Me : Mama tengok la dulu.. Dora nak bukak contact lense belah kanan ni pulak..

3 minutes later, I saw Mama typing away a few stocks and looking at their last price.. Hehe..


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Title : my niece learns a bit about life

Me : Izzah tolong cari uban Cu..
Izzah : Bayar.. satu uban seposen
Me : Beruban la lagi kepala Cu..
Izzah : Takpe.. nanti Izzah kaya..

3 minutes later..

Izzah : Cu, nape haritu mase kita pergi umah Uncle I***** ayah dia pakai apron ?
Cu : Ye la.. ayah dia yang masak..
Izzah : (Pause) Mana ada lelaki yang masak.. Orang pompuan la selalu masak.. Lelaki mana boleh masak..
Cu : (mula membebel tentang lelaki dan perempuan) [tak perlu lah diblog di sini nnt jadi isu yang kontroversi lak.. hehe]

* Izzah is 10.

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Title : my recent comment

Me : Papa tau.. yang penerbit citer Alexander Bukan Iskandar tu commented on my blog.. (yes yes, i know.. I am gelabah.. hehehe)
Papa : ye ke ? apa dia cakap?
Sis : (screaming from the living room) OMG puhlezz la Dora, that was not a comment okay!
Me : (screaming back) Ala, yong jeles tuu.. tak puas hati.. hehehe

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Title : my student's problem

student : Assalamualaikum Ms. Durrah
Ms.D : Walaikummussalam, yes (nama student).
student : I was just on my way to see you
Ms.D : I was just on my way to lunch
student : I wanted to see you.. I am not ready for today's quiz coz I have some problems
Ms.D : What problems ? But I told the class the other day, we have quiz today.. Will you be coming to class ?
student : Yes, I know. I will come.. It's just that I have a problem.. [menceritakan problem dia. masa ni tepi tangga kat faculty dikala orang lalu lalang].. So, the whole week I can't study.. I just.. I can't concentrate (muka serabut)
Ms.D : (kesian tengok muka serabut + tengah lapar gile) Ok, we discuss later in class. But I want you to come for class today. You must come to class today
student : Yes, yes, I will come. Thank you Ms. Durrah. Assalamualaikum.
chik : Ape dia cakap Do ?

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Title : my unenthusiastic class

Ms.D : Ok, class.. are we ready for Quiz today (dengan penuh semangat) ?
Class : hmmmmmm... (muka toya) ..
Ms.D : (?? sigh) Why ?
Class : (menceritakan masalah masing2..everyone starts to ramble and cooking up stories so that I will postphone the quiz)
Ms.D : (geleng kepala) Ok ok.. since 'student A' is on MC today, quiz is postphoned till next Monday..
Class : (bersemangat tiba - tiba) YESS!!! yeay! Thank you teacher.. alhamdulillah..
Ms.D : (sigh.. budak budak ni)

Title : my student's SMS

student : Miss, camne ah nk cri pnyelesaian 9! bahagi 3!4!2! = 1260. I try already bt stil x dpt jwpn 1260. plz gimme guidance.. rply is must...
me : (eh, saba je aku) Siapa ni? Kelas mane?
student :Claz mislah BT 6 student BIM, A****.. no ni n**** yg bg...
me : Jumpa saya nnt saya explain. Mcm ne nk cerita dlm sms ? Alamat habisla credit n jenuh nak menaip.
student : Wat time mis fre ? sorylah.. sy igt bley explam mlalui sms je
me : Jumpa saya esok sebelum 10am
student : ok..


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Title : my significant other (MSO)

me : happy anniversary bb!
MSO : happy anniversary :)
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me : OMG ada berita hangat! yg lakon grey's anatomy tu nak quit from the cast!!! (bercerita pjg tentang grey's anatomy) ... tapi i tak dpt baca sbb office ni block site yg i nak tgk tu.. u tau cerita tak ?
MSO : (long pause) .. about what b?
me : about grey's anatomy ? (thinking jap) ke... i rase ur not interested heheh :p
MSO : heheheh haah.. i dont even watch the show..

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my bus ride home

>> Tuesday, February 10, 2009

its funny that whenever i take the bus ride home, i must have that almost-1-hour nap since I wake up at 530 every morning to go to work, the nap sorta compensates the tiredness of the day.

and what makes it funnier that whenever i take that nap in a sitting position, there will come a moment that my head or sometimes body will kinda fall to the next seat. and lagi best is that i will come to realize that my body is falling and yet will still continue having that nap! and then same thing will happen sampai lah dah sampai ke destinasi..

the bizzare thing is that almost everybody in the bus will experience that.. perhaps it's a 'thing' that happens in the bus kot ? or sometimes, LRT ?

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my facebook status says

>> Monday, February 09, 2009

my facebook status says "______ is happy and fascinated by Allah's gifts.. masya Allah"

I have changed to a new syampoo to resolve my hair fall problem.. Alhamdulillah right now my hair is smooth and they look relaxed.

Will return and blog about some heavy-mind-stimulating stuff next week.

Brief updates :

1. The presentation went well alhamdulillah. Me happy.
2. Starting to look around and thinking about my career and where it's heading to..
3. Check it out, the penerbit of my favourite documentary at the moment, just commented on my blog post. I'm like OMG!! [sila lihat pada recent comments sidebar, hehe] (ya, saya memang gelabar.. hehe)
4. Going through this phase.. yang sukar dikongsi disini.. which is very very personal to me.. Perhaps one day I shall write about it.. Jgn risau, its benda yang baik, insyaAllah :)
5. Loads of pix to share.. one day will post it ok :)

Take care my fellow followers/readers/silent readers. Have a productive week ahead.

- who am i -

Salam

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my successful kek batik

Yeay... looks nice.. feels nice.. it is nice.. my successful kek batik.. nyummy!

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Tags Kedai

>> Sunday, February 08, 2009

Soalan: Nyatakan 5 kedai yang anda pantang jumpa mesti nak masuk dan beli barang

1. Petronas
Yup. Gotta get em fuel to keep moving..

2. AVON
Sudah pasti.. I am an avon dealer.. so kalau masuk saje saje tu macam baik takyah gi rite.. heheh

3. Giant
Wajib wajib. Especially beli barang groceries.. kadang - kadang just to get a tissue pun yer

4. Kinokuniya
I love books. Love to read em.. If I masuk and tak beli, I'll masuk again and at least buy DCM (Digital Camera Magazine)

5. Stationary shop
Err.. i have this thing.. I must buy something at a stationary shop..at least a pen.. hehehe

Done! I sedang membuat semua tag tag yang terKIV since early this year..

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my Google Tag by Sheri

>> Saturday, February 07, 2009

The rules are simple. Use Google Image to search the answers to the questions below. Then you must choose a picture in the first page of the results, and post it as your answer. After that tag 6 people.

I'm

I really want to go

and


My fav place


My fav thing


My fav drink


My fav food



My color




I live in


I was born in

My college


My favourite story


My hobby


I wish


You've been TAGGED! hhehe.. do it.. its fun!

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my international class

>> Wednesday, February 04, 2009





One female student, one female lecturer.This was after a struggling-almost-3-hours of crazy Statistics workout.

btw, ana ashtaqtu bb.. ich vermisse bb.. :(

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my subject matter..matters

Ya Allah! Please give me the strength and patience and perseverance..

I am right now taking a break from marking my students' assignment. There is a mixture of emotions. Sad, happy, confused, amused..

I literally have a headache. Literally. I do not know is it because I woke up at 5 am today, or I didn't have enough sleep or from thinking to much. I am in a desperate need of a panadol. How do I deal.. How do I deal with this predicament?

Yes, I know, I won't give up. I can't give up. This is my challenge.. I remember the words from one of my students:

"But we want this. We choose this. So help us.. Please.. "

Macam drama kan ? Back to work now..

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my recent comments

To accomodate Haris's request on having dates on comments at my blog, I have added a widget called "my recent comments" at the sidebar.. with dates..

You can download it at blogger buster.

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MasyaAllah

>> Tuesday, February 03, 2009

I have this thing that I like to relate an event with a certain song to describe a mood or a feeling. For this semester, I am teaching four different groups. I will sometimes have My Chemical Romance's Teenagers or Kurt Kobain's Smells Like Teen Spirit song played in my head. And when I am in a hopeful mood, my mind will change to Twista's Hope track.

Every time I walk down the stairs for class, after reciting some prayers, my heart will start pounding thinking if my students can cope with the day's class. I have a mental target in my head, at least the whole class must understand 70% of the day's lesson.

No, I do not have a proper lesson plan i.e ice breaking, introduction, first 10 minutes and so forth. That's because I do not have an education diploma. I just jumped into this field after completing my post grad. Not that it is bad, I get to experiment what kind of methods to use to teach these kids and different groups have different level of understanding and different people in each group has a different pace. It very much varies according to strata and cluster (ok dah keluar statistics terms la pulak)

Last Friday's meeting in Shah Alam (sigh) was okay I guess. I pointed out about having the appropriate pace in teaching. I was surprised that some lecturers finish their syllabus after week 7! Ape ni ? Gila ka?

So as usual, I did tutorials for degree class and taught a new chapter for Foundation. Measures of Dispersion. See, I managed to resolve the problem about having to wait for them to copy the notes from the white board. I gave them photocopied notes intead and left some places blank and discuss in class. Spoon feeding ? Well, I have to say, to a certain extend, yes. But you have to be in my shoes to comprehend my situation and my justifications on why I did that. I am chasing time. We all are. But I am not crazy enough to finish ALL my syllabus at week 7. That is just simply demented and I would say, melepaskan batuk tepi tangga.

Since I am under the Academic Quality Assurance committee, I have learned a lot about things like continuous quality improvement, life long learning, how to improve the quality of teaching, the quality of academics, problem based learning, bla bla (boring stuff you might say) but I find it to be a wonderful experience.

And also, Since I am under the Academic Quality Assurance committee, the Dean has asked me to present a Seminar on this. Scared? Yes. Its a tough task and I am scared that I might dissimenate the wrong information. But it's an amanah that I have to fullfill. I hope the faculty would take this as a continuous quality improvement thingy, and not think of me (who has merely 1 year and a half experience) berlagak bagus nak citer pasal mengajar. [yup, sadly some people has this mentality "alah, ko macam bagus nak cakap2 nasihat2 orang, tengok diri sendiri la.."] I think if everybody has that thinking, humans who serve as khalifah on this world can never advise people. because we are only humans who make mistake. And it is our duty to remind each other. If I forget, please remind me.. and I will do the same. I believe that is how we make this world somehow, a better place.. However, sadly, there are people who are so negative and somewhat egoistic and can NEVER take advice from people. They tend to think they are right when sometimes they are very wrong. They make assumptions about other people, they blame everyone else but themselves for everything. These type of people, I would say, are very bitter and they will never see the cup as half full. What a pity..

Yes, why suddenly lashing out all these point? I guess experience has taught me a lot. Yup, I dare not say I am pious but I appreciate if people remind me things that I might forget because sometimes I do.. And I believe it works both ways.. Unfortunately, people misconstrued the message..

After class, I met up with some students and this made my day:

Me : How are you guys coping up with class?
Student : Alhamdulillah okay teacher. The way you teach is.. Masya Allah.. everyone is talking about it.
Me : (MasyaAllah katanya? Teruk sangat ke aku ngajar?) Why? Is there anything wrong with the way I teach? What did they say?
Student : No no.. we understand. They say you teach very good. We understand. We enjoy your class.. Is Alhamdulillah.. Statistics is okay..
Me : Really? Alhamdulillah.. Well, please come and see me more often if you don't understand so that I can help you.
Student : InsyaAllah teacher.

MasyaAllah. And that is why, I never give up teaching.

*Note : I came to know that MasyaAllah can also be used to describe good things.

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my cousin .. may he rest in peace

>> Sunday, February 01, 2009

The day started with a paw. It was Wednesday and I remembered clearly what I wore. A red shirt and a black vest kinda. While listening to my MP3, I tried to search for my hand phone to see if there were any missed calls.

Kalot kalot.

Damn it. I forgot my hand phone .. again. And I am sure my father will give me the same lecture on putting everything that I need at one place before leaving for work (I always leave things behind).

It was the first day after a long weekend and everybody was still on their weekend mode mood. But not me, I was hyped up to go to work already. I had everything planned out. What to do and what I must accomplish for that day.

After the 1030 class, we went to lunch. Most cafes were still closed due to the long weekend. So we headed out of our faculty to search for food. We kinda lost our bearing for a minute. We headed to Engineering Faculty. Rumour has it that the cafe is good. Unfortunately it was closed. So, makan nasi ayam kat PP which was equally good. Must be thankful that we still manage to find food.

"Taktau nape, harini rasa macam..... lost" Suddenly the words came out of my mouth without knowing why I said it and what me say it.

Before 2pm class, as I was taking my wudhu', at the 3rd time I wanted to wash my left feet, the water suddenly stop dripping.. and we had no water for the day.. aduih..

At 2pm class, a glitch happened at class (ok, tak bole elaborate).

After 2pm class, as usual, students came to see me to ask questions for clarifications and had a sesi luah perasaan kejap.

Without realizing, I glanced at my watch and it was 5pm. Alamak, kena gi toilet hujung nak amek air smbhyg nih. So I asked Chik to accompany me to the toilet hujung... Malang sungguh tidak berbau... I cannot explain how.. but I lost my watch.. the watch that MSO gave me 3 years ago when we first started dating.. the watch that he mailed from Europe.. I had lost it.. Little that I know, the last glance at my watch was at 5pm... I cried.. During prayers, I still cried.. and on the bus, on the way back.. i cried.. I cried hard till I almost lost my voice.. And I couldn't SMS him about it because I left my phone at home..

While driving back.. I felt something that I haven't felt for quite some time.. I felt.. something which I cannot explain.. It's just this feeling..

The moment I reached home, I went straight to my mom and said,
"Ma, jam Dora hilang.. masuk kat dalam... "

My mom just looked at me and said, "Abang Sopie baru meninggal... "

Just those few words, I felt my heart stopped beating for a solid 5 seconds. I just stood there and said, "Innalillah.... " My mother explained how he passed away. I was still at a state of shock when she was talking.

He had lung problems but he never told anyone about it. He was in Terengganu with his family for a holiday and suddenly he suffocated and had breathing problems and just like that.. his life was taken away..

I thought about how the day went. And how weird it was when I said "Harini rasa macam... lost", perhaps pintu langit terbuka and those words that I uttered unintentionally became a prayer that was answered by Allah. It's scary when I think about it. I should really be careful of what I say. I didn't know that I could lose my watch.. and also my cousin.. Losing a watch was a very sad event. I am still sad everytime I look at the time, I would remember the times that I had glanced at that watch.. But after getting the news, I realized that losing a person is far more devastating which can never be replaced with any amount of money..

My cousin, Ahmad Suffian Othman, 43, was a father, a husband, a son, a brother, a cousin. A very happy man, always smiled and people loved to talk to him.. His presence has always made people feel at ease. I remember he used to tease me "Dah pukul 15?" because I used to hisap susu botol at 3pm sharp (punctual). He still teased me the last raya that we met.. But unfortunately, the recent raya, we didn't meet up. Takde rezeki.

At his tahlil, somehow, I could feel his presence. I could feel how much he was loved by everyone..

Words by his father who was smiling when he said this: "I love my son. He was a good boy."

Al- Fatihah to Arwah Abang Sopie.. You shall be missed..

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