sounds like a Micheal Jackson song

The conversation with Sheri made me think for abit. Apakah masalah mereka2 yang diberi peluang untuk melanjutkan pelajaran di luar negara menggunakan duit kerajaan, duit yang rakyat kita membayar tax - tax tu sebagai biasiswa and dengan selamba nyer menyalahgunakan duit itu ke arah - arah perkara yang tidak berkaitan dengan pembelajaran ?

I mean really..? Sometimes terfikir jugak.. Ok, so they're lucky to get scholarship since they worked hard for it. I don't really mind if they came back and give back to society.. jadilah seorang manusia yang berguna.. There are some who went there, dengan harapan mak bapak yang menggunung, anak.. jadilah seorang anak yang baik.. belajar lah rajin rajin.. tapi ada yang terkandas.. dan pulang tidak menjadi apa2... burn duit rakyat begitu sahaja.. just because you concentrated too much on online games and didnt bother to go to class.. or you were too hooked up with your virtual girlfriend that you forgot to study for your finals..

ada yang lagi best.. pergi travel sana sini dengan menggunakan duit rakyat itu.. duit yang diamanahkan untuk belajar.. dah round satu europe and proudly post it online putting comments like "yeay! we just got our scholarship! lets do some crazy $hi# and finish the money that the government gave us for free before coz we don't have to pay back!"

ok. honestly, i really dont mind the travelling bit. but if you put comments like dat, really pisses people off.. you haven't even started working and earning money. wait till you have to pay tax till about RM700 a month and you see some one posting it online, call me and tell me how you feel..

ooh and how about those who just decided not to work after graduating.. because i just dont feel like it.. ooo.. mase interview berkobar2 yer cakap.. bila dah dapat, dilupakan..

so why am i posting this post at the middle of 930 when i could just sleep or do something better? because... here is the because...

1. i thought about those who really needed $ for education.. and the ones who will appreciate it because they have worked hard enough and they deserve it.. and because of those people who got the opportunity first and wasted it, the ones that really deserve it don't have this opportunity

2. i thought about how people forget to appreciate what they have in front of their eyes while chasing something that is not certain.. and ended up regretting..

3. i thought about those who complain about every single thing when they are the lucky ones, they might just run out of their lucky stars soon enough if Allah says that's it for you.. try looking at some students who really wanna learn.. regardless.. writing on broken flip chairs, having calculators and pencils falling down everytime you flip a page.. and studying in a room with a dripping aircond.. but because they appreciate the knowledge and the opportunity, they accepted the environment

4. i thought about people who wants to learn and has the determination but because of the acts of these selfish ungrateful people, they decided that it's best if they just let go of their dreams because they are afraid they might turn out to be like them..

5. i thought about my future.. how it's difficult to get scholarship now since i wasn't the smartest kid during my degree. although i improved a lot during my masters but because the government thinks that with my degree results i will just throw the opportunity away just like those 'smart' people. so, i sigh..

this is also a reminder to myself.. bulan Ramadhan ni bnyak kesedaran melanda.. i've decided to complain less and i wanna listen to less complaints.. because all these negative statement is really not healthy.. i want to be around positive vibes and release positive energy to people so that somehow, the world can be a better place (i know it sounds so like a Micheal Jackson song but, really... ) although kadang2 ada gak terkeluar some negative posts.. but secara positively, its just as a reminder and a stress relief kinda thing.. nothing more..

but, when there's a will, there's a way..
seek and you shall find..
my semangat nak sambung blajar terpaksa ditangguhkan buat seketika till i am ready again..
mentally, physically and financially..


kepada whoever who might read this, if you terasa, im sorry it was intentional.. please wake up and don't waste the opportunity that has been given to you..

this coming from once a student and now a teacher.. merasa dan melihat from two different angles..

this is not just about overseas students with government scholarships.. this is about not appreciating opportunities..

to my students if any reading this, please appreciate the knowledge that has been given to you.. ilmu itu adalah berharga.. you might not see it now but one day you will realize..