my challenging challenge

Semester has just begun.. Students are.. ok la this semester (so far). A senior lecturer said once,
"when you are a teacher/lecturer, you are responsible to shape/teach your students at your level best so that they can be at their level best. if you fail to do so, you have failed. itu amanah kita."
being a teacher/lecturer is not an easy job, you have 40 sometimes 50 or even more pairs of eyes looking at you and listening at you, if they listen.. if they don't you have to make them listen to you.. and if they fail, you answer.. you are responsible.. really ?
not quite.. if they fail, it's partly your responsibility.. but mainly it's theirs.. but if you have students who score with flying colors.. how can there be people who fail? so mostly, it's their own actions that led them to their failure..

my challenge is to teach two foreign students.. the challenging part is not teaching them.. the challenge is to make them understand and make them answer the questions according to the time given.. Accuracy and Time.

wish me luck.. i will take this challenge and make the best out of it.. hope both parties can learn something out of the teaching and learning process...

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apabila muka orang cuak..

I said earlier this year 2008 is going to be a great year. So far, it has been great alhamdulillah. There has been a lot of events that had contributed to the greatness of 2008. There are some ups and downs of course.. Tetapi Allah itu maha adil.. Everything is a test for you from Allah.. However, it's not a great a year for our politicians. Mainly Pak Lah lah. And DSAI also.. Juga ujian Allah for them.

But if I could capture the faces of people yang cuak, when they see other people progressing, or moving on or having good things going on for them, I could really make money with that portfolio.

The expression on their faces, PRICELESS.

Kenapa orang cuak apabila orang lain progressing ? What is actually in their minds ? Kenapa ada orang wonder how much you take home every month, where you get the $ to live the lifestyle that you're living in right now? Kenapa ada orang tanya those kind of things ?

For me, easy. i know its mean, but i just couldn't help but to see their cuak faces. So i make them cuak a little bit more. Kejam ? yes. But for them to make speculations about me? Kejam? Definitely.

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ustat pernah cakap..

When I was in boarding school, in one of the classes yang period yang last tu... pukul 130 - 210 petang.. yang mane semua orang dah lapar and tak sabar2 nak lari ke DS (Dewan Selera) sebab haritu the menu was Nasi Ayam, dikala everyone's mind was visualizing Nasi Ayam DS sementara budak2 kelas lain yg balik cepat and lalu our class and gave us that "Haha beratur panjang la kau kejap lagi!! Hahahaha.. dapat ayam kecik2 la ko nnt.. hahahaha", dikala ketika itu, ustat pernah cakap.. "Persiapan untuk kahwin adalah 20 tahun.. percaya tak.. nak kahwin punya pasal... persiapan dia jer dah 20 tahun"... and then everybody started to pay attention again.. including me.. and then he said.. "kita belajar berjalan... bercakap... menulis... semua utk juga adalah persiapan utk kahwin... "

And then i thought. how about those who got married before 20 ? and he answered my question.. "maka, umur yang paling afdal untuk berkahwin adalah lebih daripada 20... dah cukup matang.. dah bersedia untuk memikul tanggungjawab... "

yes i know. interesting topic. so now, i am 21.. (cewah hehehe).. okla.. so now im 20 plus.. almost reaching 30... does that mean, i am dah 1o tahun lebih matang daripada the expected age to get married? something to think about..

but what i know is that, i want to be, i try and i hope that :-

I want to be what I want to be now and live my life as happy and as freely as I want to be. I am thankful that I can do what I wanna do now and I have the freedom to do what I wanna do now.

I try to spend time with my family as much as possible. I try to hangout with my friends as much as possible (yang sesiapa masih sudi dan ada mase utk spend time wif me now). The quality time with the ones that you care about and cares about you that really matters. I try to make time for myself, like learning to take pictures, read books, spending my money for myself and my family, saving money for a rainy day, doing business just for the fun of it, learning new stuff everyday. meeting different type of people from different walks of life, talking and exchanging ideas with whoever I feel comfortable talking to and they reciprocate.

I hope that when I settle down, when I am married and have my own family, I will not regret. and not question, "why didn't I do this ? why didn't I do that? now I can't do this. now I can't do that." I hope that I won't say "ko senang la. ko takde commitment. ko takde laki nak jaga. ko takde anak." (believe me, i have heard that plenty of times and i wonder what had cause them to say that? what happened to the beauty of marriage? where are all the flower2 and butterflies? kenapa kena ada banyak bende negative? why? why? i really don't know why. and i wish I know and comprehend them NOW so that i can do something about it LATER.) and I hope, although there might be restrictions or as I always hear people say susah nnt bila dah kahwin I hope i still have some space to do the things i want. or even if i can't for some reason, at least, I have done it.. and not regret.

I have never been on the other side of the grass. I have no idea how it is. I've heard stories and seen with my eyes. But it's not the same as experiencing it yourself, I guess. They say it's always greener on the side that I am standing right now.. perhaps.. so i'm just gonna make it as green as possible.. at least when I look back, it will make me smile.. perhaps...

my chemical romance will be landing on Tuesday.. Can't wait :) How izzit being in a long distance relationship ? well, it's challenging at times. But as long as both parties are willing to give space, trust and understand each other, insyaAllah it will be fine. If you ask me, i'd say, the best part is meeting again after months of only listening to each other's voices and reading SMSes and YM msgs. The hardest part is parting again... but with those 3 vital ingredients, your recipe will be sweet, sugar and spice and all nice.. However, there may be times that you have misunderstanding and stuff.. Hence, the understanding each other part will play its role.. But who am I to give advice on long distance relationship (LDR) ? I've only been in LDR - inter-region with 6 hours time difference for 3 years only.. . i didn't say being in a LDR is easy. its a tough job. believe me. its not easy. but itulah dia i try to share my experience and thoughts.. it may be helpful.. it may not.. but its okay.. its my blog. HA HA.. hehehe.

Good night people. I had a very interesting / very not the routine / out of the ordinary day. Pray for me. Pray for me to hop on the other side of the grass soon. InsyaAllah :)

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28 darjah selsius

Why the title ? I dunno. I am at the office right now with my aircond temperature running at 28 darjah selsius (as they always say in RTM news). My room mate has gone to Shah Alam for some university matters.

I have this business maths text book in front of me to be read, studied and digested. Tp agaknyer sbb 28 darjah selsius maka dia punye processor is running slowly now.. oh well, i can just walk a few steps forward and change the temperature.. or i just sit here and continue blogging..

Gaji is coming soon WOOHOO! why am i so happy ? yes. next week, i will be taking the whole week off! the whole week you! before the semester starts.. needs some refreshing to do..

my significant other will be flying back to KL on Tuesday.. So i am planning to pick him up.. i have some surprises tapi tak bole la ckp sini.. kot kot dia baca kang tak fun la.. heheheh

yup2.. so random dora.. takde ke topic yg mcm thought provoking, mind stimulating sket ? well, actually no.. sorry..

i browsed through facebook and friendster tadi.. so im abit FACEBOOKED and FRIENDSTERED la.. alot of ideas alot of ideas.. but my thinking cap is left at jalan tebrau and im gonna have to pick it up there la kot before i can start blogging secara betul betulan again...

BTW, where is jalan tebrau ? and why did i say that ? must be the 28 darjah selsius kot..

[CHANGING TEMPERATURE TO 25].... aaaaaaahhh.. much better.. oh well, will blog again later..

=xoxo=

PS : did u see gossipgirl last night ?????? mygod.. suspen2

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-isms

According to dictionary.com >>

-ism (noun) : a distinctive doctrine, theory, system, or practice.

I told my room mate, i have a very provoking topic to blog about. and she asked, "Thought provoking or provoking?" and i said "provoking."

so what's up with the ism? what im gonna blog about is EGOism. what had triggered my to write about this topic is because of several incidents that has been occurring around me.. not to me.. but just surrounding me..

kalau orang melayunya ada sebut, bodoh sombong . Dia bodoh tapi sombong nak bertanya.. or minta tolong.. but sampai bila ? if orang mat salleh sebutnya as egoism..

tapi ego ni ada beberapa kategori..

Kategori 1:
Ego yg hot. ego yg orang suka.. kategori badboy.

Kategori 2:
Ego yg biasa2.. normal ego..

Kategori 3:
Ego yg nampak mcm dia tau apa nak buat.. tp sebenarnya doesnt have a clue.

Kategori 4:
Ego yg nampak superior tp sebenarnya dia inferior...

Kategori 5:
Ego yg snyap2... ego yg tak nak ditunjuk.. ego yg tak nampak sangat..

See, i have encountered all these type of people.. and i wonder.. do they know that they are being egoistic?


Share with me the types of ego people that you have encountered...

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SpiderWeb

Teaching and Learning.. and Sharing.

I am sorry for not updating my blog. It seems like this blog dah ada spiderwebs dah kat tepi tepi dia. Reason being is that I haven't had the time to really sit and blog. And I didn't want to blog about some trivial and random stuff.

My last blog was somewhere in the middle of June. Filled with some disappointments and anger. And as many of you know, our VC was told to leave our institution within 24 hours. He had called for press conference however did not say much. We still wonder why was the conference held. Anyways, I can't say much.

Some updates about myself. I bought a new camera. It's a DSLR Canon 400D with 18 - 55 mm. It was my birthday present. (NICE! Thanks a lot I LOVE IT, you know who you are). That's why I have been quite occupied lately. Work is OK. The system is now closed. Therefore, the students will be getting their results pretty soon. Can't comment much about that either. Business is not bad. Moving but moving slowly la sket. But at least it's moving. Alhamdulillah

This week has been a very interesting and refreshing week. I went to the SAS Forum and met some people from various industries. We exchanged ideas and information. It was an eye opener and truly interesting. Today we had our QUALITY Assurance meeting. It was nice and refreshing as well. I guess being in the committee can be sometimes overwhelming however I feel that I am somewhat significant to the society.

Life has been up and down within this one month. Some good news, some bad ones, some exciting ones, some so-so ones. Reality is, life is never dull. A lot of self-realization thingy happened. I will blog about it one day. I LEARNED what life has TAUGHT me. and I wanna SHARE with some of the readers in my next post.

Tonight I will be going for some night shots. Wish me luck.

=xoxo=

GG (gossip girl hehe) @ dj

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my new toy

my new toy

my dad's only toy

hehehe.. experimenting my newly arrived Canon 400D.. (FINALLY) Truly fascinating..

PS: Shaz, go buy one..

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magical bubbles

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love this pic

Yup. First State University.
I have some really juicy news tapi tak bole nak disclose lagi.
I love this pic.

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extreme value

The past few days or weeks has been quite full for me. The first week of June we had ICE (industrial career exhibition) which in my opinion was a complete flop (sorry, i just had to say it). I mean really... I think many would agree with me on this.

I have been observing and thinking a lot lately about the things that has been happening around me. Work especially. Last two days i almost literally had a heart attack when i saw our poster written, "TOUNGE TWISTER".. see, even as i am writing this, blogger indicated that the spelling is wrong.. Is there a new thing that's called TOUNGE TWISTER ?? I mean, seriously.. how can you make such a MAJOR mistake ?? ok, i am not perfect, i guess humans make mistake.. but that's when your superior comes in, to check and counter check on your subordinates' work. sigh.. i might be condemned for writing this.. but i just had to.. even if someone might read it.. this is just my point of view.. of course.. i am just a lecturer.. i am not a head of program, i am not a dean, i am not a Professor or Doctor .. yet.. but i am just a lecturer.. who could see this mistake..

Monday was a big shocker to me. a memo came in. "Meeting for ....." aduh malasnyer aku... see, i feel so small when i am sitting with heads and big big people with big big minds.. and titles. its a good exposure i agree.. so i had two choices..

1. be all negative : "eeee malasnyer... tak suke nyerrrrr.. oh mannnnn"
2. be all positive thinking : "orait.. its okay.. i love going to meetings"

Guess what? i choose to be negative.. and i got exactly what i chose... the whole week was full of negativity..

and things got even worse when on thursday, each and every form of communication was down.. the phonelines, faxes, internet, handphone reception were all OUT OF SERVICE. that's how bad it was.. i was going crazy..

the best part was, at the end of the day we received a memo.. kena bayar RM 100 monthly that will be deducted from our salary for staff bus service.. "oh things are just getting better and better... sigh"

i felt like screaming.. i recalled how the day went. i met with my superior trying to get the juicy details about what was happening to our faculty... sedih sedih.. i can't write it here though

I realized this. I understand that we are a business entity. And in the education line, education is our product.. I remembered my old colleague said, the best business to venture into is education business. Education is always valuable.. everywhere.. That explains why tuition teachers are earning big bucks. Part time lecturers are always doing part time everywhere and anywhere possible.

So in education business line, students are our customers.. The fundamentals in business is, you aim for profit of course.. even a 9 year old can tell you that. But sometimes, when we stop and stare at the whole scenario in education business line, it's sad to see the that the institution refuse to invest in long term.. "So we offer programs that are cheap and not costly. Program yang tak payah pakai lab besar2.. Because science labs are expensive. Satu bikar yang pecah je dah RM 2 - 3 ." yes. oh, so you can forget about having computer labs. computers are obsolete. computers are big and bulky and once ada virus jer, that's it. "softwares? tak payah beli software mahal2.. download jer from the internet yang free2.. or just buy kat low yat ada banyak" I have to stop now. i am being too extreme and emotional.. i am afraid that i might just jeopardise my work.

But the week ended with something nice and pleasant.. sometimes a cup of coffee with some old friends helps.. and a 2 minutes talk with ur significant other is another bonus.

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