my kiasi kiasu

There's nothing like a relaxed Sunday morning with a cup of nescafe and listening to my YM plus-ins. yes, now im tuning to POP 80s HITZ station on my plug-ins. And i have Debbie Gibson's Only in my dreams song running.. catchy..

Yesterday i wasn't feeling well (again). Been meaning to reply Din's SMS yesterday "Ko nak gi tak pulau perhentian bulan 4?" yes, i want. cuma i have this one constraint. $. I wanna save up to go to Germany somewhere in May. How yea?

Last night had a short chat wif Ikhwan (2 jam kire short la tu coz sambil2 tu dia tgh study and I was surfing around). So I was telling him how I felt like Im abit of a kiasu. Semua benda nak buat rasanya.. Guess I am a control freak jugak la.. tapi kadang2 tu tak terlarat.. So I asked him,

Dora : "Izzit good or bad?"
Ikhwan : "What?"
Dora : "Wanting to do a lot of things?"
Ikhwan : "Wanting to do a lot of things for yourself is not a bad thing. I think its a good quality.. wanting to do a lot of things.."
Dora : "ye ke?"
Ikhwan : "ye le :p"
Dora : "So can i take that as a compliment?"
Ikhwan : "Bole laa.."

Haha... of something like that laa our conversation on YM..

So back to the persoalan... if i should go to perhentian? Mcm nak.. but bulan 4 tu agak hardcore la.. i have about almost 200 scripts to mark.. and do a report on student's performance.. kena jaga periksa and mcm2 lagi ... and i can foresee that i will be agak busy during that time.. dgn azlina nak kawennyer time tu..

Speaking of kawen.. i have a wedding to attend to later... tp... takde geng nak gi... i dun wanna go alone.... Si izam pendek gave me a msg on friendster saying this, "kalu hang/adina kawen dulu, tak bole la korang gi wedding same same lagi" agak siut jugak la statement dia.. always being sarcastic. haritu pergi wedding yani dia ckp apa tau, "aku nampak ko pakai baju sebijik sama kat wedding budak batch kan?? takde baju lain ek?" padahal, baju tu i tak penah pakai.. mcm haram gak laa.. ntah, tiba2 rase irritated lak.. [pms kot]

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my friday at shah alam

I was surfing around today. Oh yes, the meeting wasn't that bad after all. So lepas ni kena discuss dgn boss about any changes to be made in the report. So i thought, takpe la.. lps ni i ada some exposure on this quality assurance and problem based learning thingy.. its quite interesting though.. bole la masuk dlm CV.. hehe..

anyway, i found this when i was surfing around...

Professor Arsham's Statistics Course. Your mind is what your brain does. Self-consciousness is self-knowledge. The process of becoming conscious distributes what you know throughout your brain via the brain neural network branches, unlike memorizing, which connects only two nodes of the network. The availability and expansion of what you know throughout your neural network branches make the information processing of your brain accurate. Thus, you possess a reflective, brilliant knowledgeable mind.

Nice

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my mcdonald craving that never was..

today's german word of the day "manchmal".. meaning "sometimes"

ok. so i was driving back home from work today. do you know that feeling when sometimes (manchmal) when ur driving back home from work, and u suddenly feel like eating an ice cream sundae cornetto at McDonalds? well, today i didnt feel that. i guess something else was in my mind. like what?

yeah, coz tomorrow is the Quality Assurance meeting in shah alam.. and suddenly, shah alam was just not my favourite place anymore..

so kena la study2 sket.. despite the one whole day that i was kelam kelabot and doing the report the whole day sampai terlupa makan (seriusly), i still feel like im not fully prepared.. all those who are in the committee are Prof, Associate Prof, Dr., Deans, head of program, head of all heads.. and suddenly.......... there's Miss Dora...

so tonite i gotta crank it up abit.. study like mase zaman2 blajar dulu.. only that takde exams.. coz exams u'll b graded.. but when it's work.. you'll be degraded..

perhaps.. one day i will be at par with those people... oh tak tak.. perhaps i will be at par with those people.. but with more empathy.. and down to earth.. and perhaps i hope i won't look down to other people JUST BECAUSE I HAVE A TITLE IN FRONT OF MY NAME...... (ok speaking in general ya).. let's not be those kind of people...

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my freakin' urrggghhhh sigh sugh saaahh DAY

had a freaking uuurrrgggghhhhhhhhhh aaaaarrrrrrgghhhhhhhhhhhh sigh ...
just a freaking bad day :(

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my mondays in shah alam

Today's German word for the day is 'geradeaus' and mcmne nak pronounce it goes like this 'ge-rha-de-aus'.
'ge' as is 'ge' in getah.
'rha' is in mcm huruf rghin yg lepas huruf 'ain' tu..
'de' as in 'de' in takde.
'aus' as in 'aus' in australia..

The meaning is 'straight ahead'.. mcm if someone asks u in german of course 'eh, nak pergi ke main road ikut jalan mana?' so you answer 'geradeaus'.. clear?

ok monday.. i thought i wont have such a bad 'monday blues' this semester cause every month i'll be stationed in shah alam to teach biotech students statistics.. so bole la bangun lambat sket and bertolak for work about 930 and leave earlier.. ok bukan sebab curi tulang, tp cause in shah alam takde workstation..

but i guess i thought wrong.. the shah alam students memang menguji my patience kot.. sampai sakit dada dibuatnya.. they purposely talk LOUDLY when im explaining in class.. they laugh berterabur about whatever they were talking about when im talking in front of the class.. tak salin notes and tak salin examples.. calculator tak bawak.. and act very immature and they have very little respect for me as their lecturer.. and takde tokoh2 budak2 university yang nak blajar langsung.. well, being a lecturer mmg la kena sabar and stuff... but a person can only take so much of patience...

so i gave them LOTS AND LOTS AND LOTS of assignments and they have to submit within one week. lambat je dapat ZERO.. and im very strict at marking.. so, too bad la.. then they complained, "alaaa miss banyaknyer kena buat......" easy answer for that "if you taknak buat, tak payah buat.. lagi sikit saya kena mark paper and your carry mark is 0%.. its your choice.. "

they think im small and skinny and im just a lecturer.... but if they still buat perangai dalam class lagi i swear i will never help them for their coursework marks.. not even one bit.. i'll be damn strict and they'll be so sorry if they have to repeat such an easy subject..

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my muffins

I'm gonna try this perhaps this weekend.. or maybe one of the workdays to cover up for the previous week that I did not cook.. Jom try ni?
Sources : http://allrecipes.com/Recipe/
Chocolate-Chocolate-Chip-Nut-Muffins/
Detail.aspx

INGREDIENTS

• 2 cups all-purpose flour
• 1/2 cup unsweetened cocoa powder
• 1 1/2 cups white sugar
• 1/2 teaspoon baking soda
• 2 teaspoons baking powder
• 1/4 teaspoon salt
• 1 1/4 cups milk
• 1 egg
• 2 tablespoons vegetable oil
• 1 teaspoon vanilla extract
• 1 cup semisweet chocolate chips
• 3/4 cup chopped walnuts
• 1/3 cup whole almonds
• 4 tablespoons white sugar

DIRECTIONS

1. Preheat oven to 350 degrees F (175 degrees C). Grease muffin cups or line with paper muffin liners.
   
2. In medium bowl, Sift together flour, cocoa, sugar, baking powder, baking soda and salt. In large bowl stir in milk, egg, oil and vanilla. Mix dry ingredients to large bowl; beat well. Add chocolate chips and walnuts, stir well.
3. Fill muffin cups 3/4 full. Poke almonds into tops of unbaked muffins. Sprinkle muffins with sugar.
4. Bake for 20 to 25 minutes, or until toothpick inserted in center comes out clean.

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i spy with my eye... and camera...

In my previous post, i was blogging about 'The Secret'. I actually wanted to write longer but tiba2 mama asked me to buy tepung jagung and french bread cause mama is cooking beef stew today and needed those. Yes, I know, I am supposed to be cooking tp I wasn't feeling well today. So my 2008's resolution tak dilaksanakan on the 2nd week of 2008. Takpe.. I'll try to cover for next week. So coming back from Giant, I saw 2 cats acting weird. I know, it may sound abit vulgar. Tp this is what I managed to capture which I think is pretty cool.. hehhehehe


If you can see there are 2 cats satu warna orange belang2 putih on the left of the tiang, and hitam belang2 putih & kelabu on the right side of the tiang hitam tu.. see?

Perhaps you can see clearly here right beside the bushes, the hitam belang2 putih kelabu was looking around to see if there was anyone watching.. completely not aware of me standing right there capturing them.. hahaha..
So the black belang2 putih kelabu cat masuk into the bushes and the orange belang2 putih saw the sign and ready to follow..
See, tu dia dah sampai...

Ahahahah.. don't take this personally... they're probably just playing around with each other.. saje je nak buat cerita.. jahatnyer i nih...

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my secret, your secret

Today's German word is lediglich (cara sebut: lady-glish) which means 'merely'.

Ok so, this morning i woke up at 645.. (sunday tu) i was feeling abit under the weather since thursday.. tp now dah alhamdulillah okay.. Not much update. I finished reading 'The Secret' by Rhonda Bryne and it was very inspirational. Thanks to Kamal Azra who recommended it to me.. and thanks to azlina's friend's friend who lend it to me.. Well basically what 'The Secret' says is that you can have anything you want in life if you just focus and think about it all the time. It also explained the theory that what & where you are now is actually a dream or vision you have before. Therefore if you want more in life, you have to envision yourself living that life everyday. And that there is nothing that can stop whatever you want in life. You cannot even have one single doubt that you will have it. It true though.. I guess..

So I started 2008 by reading 'The Secret' and thought about what I want in life and have starting applying 'The Secret' in my daily life routine. So of course if you think about it, in Islam, we pray 5 times a day. So when we pray, Subuh, pagi2 tu kita doakan apa yg kita nak.. 'The Secret' says, when you wake up, be thankful that you are alive. Show gratitude. So kita ucapkan alhamdulillah.. So there's actually no secret in 'The Secret'. We already know what 'The Secret' is cuma tak praktikkan aja.. So let's praktikkan 'The Secret' and live the life we have always dreamed of..

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my first attempt at photography?

Hey hey, check it out.. this is what i did when i was feeling abit feverish and tak larat.. so i main2 wif my camera.. and i discovered this...






See the difference? cool huh? well, maybe most of u dah discover bende ni dah lame, but im a newbie.. just wait till i get my hands on one of those SLR cameras.. habis laa...

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my varsiti

this morning, all the time.. i had this song in my head...


Varsity anthem

Varsiti Kita
Lihat Kampusku yang tenang
Paduan Ilmu dan keimanan
Amal dan jerih digabungkan

Lautan Ilmu kita harumkan
Sumber Ilmuan berkembangan

Inilah Varsiti kita
Ditengahkan hasrat rakyat kita
Dari mula untuk semua
Bagai tanda perjuangan kita

Bangun berbakti membela
Memupuk Insan jiwa bertakwa
Memimpin manusia semua
Kenal akan adat unggulnya

Membina Negara senantiasa
Maju berilmu dan bahagia

Inilah Varsiti Kita
Ditengahkan hasrat rakyat kita
Dari mula untuk semua
Bagai tanda perjuangan kita


What could it mean? Tiba2 rindu kat ukm ker? or was it because i read Atik's blog and suddenly semgt ke-ukm-an tu muncul? Well, mase convo, mmg rase sebak bila dengar lagu ni...

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