I have been pretty occupied with a lot of stuff this whole month. I didn't have the time nor the passion to write as much as I used to..
Anyways, hope this phase will end. I really hate the fact that I lost the passion to write. Maybe the next entry will be a good one.. Hopefully.. Possibly.. Maybe..
Salam Eid Ul Adha to all Muslims all over the world.
I have an announcement...
This is my 500th post! woohoo! Thank you thank you.. (angkat tangan to the crowd)..
Yes, if only I could devote my time to really writing something, say, a novel, perhaps I could publish one already (if its worthy enough to be published)..
I want to make this special. I want to make my 500th post something that is very 500-y. ok.. nothing 500-y comes to mind.
Its a warm sunday afternoon and I just finished my zohor prayers. Its somesort of a lazy sunday. I woke up significantly late and did all the things I had to do. Yesterday Ikhwan shared with me how he cleaned up his house (kudos bb!) and it triggered me to do the same. I rearranged the furnitures in my room and it looks abit spacious now compared to before.
Other updates, starting this month, I am seriously serious about being more serious. I just realized that I am in my LATE 20s.. (gasps) oh dear. But why dont I feel so? apa masalahnya ? I guess its good to feel young and vibrant (ok, you can puke now) since most of the time, I am surrounded with young and vibrant people (my students). sometimes the guess the lecturer's age game would be playing in their minds and the numbers that they come up with could be flattering. of course some knows my real age lah.
I used to start my mornings with '$h!t Im late.. again!' Now I am abit more relaxed and organized. It was my new year's resolution.... back in 2004. haha.
Its good that time is flying fast. Its already november and the year it about to end. Time flies fast when you have a lot of things to do. Especially if you have to travel almost 70 kms for almost 2 hours to get to work in a ghetto area, it can be tiring. But fulfilling and rewarding.
I spend my weekends with my husband (im not used to referring him as hubby.. i dont know why) online, time for myself and for my family and friends. Recharge my batteries as I need to use maximum and optimum energy for work and study.
Today my facebook status reads 'late 20s huh?'
Really... seriously ?
I am thankful to be alive, happy and healthy and I do feel young and vibrant :)
alhamdulillah
I was driving to work today and put on ROCK BAND CD compiled by my husband. It keeps me awake in the morning and also get the momentum going. So I was listening to Chris Martin singing shiver and I thought, ape lagu ni ? I think if anyone else singing it, it would be sooo damn sumbang. Do you notice the rhythm ??? but somehow Chris and all the coldplay band members did a great job in making the song quite a hit (sampai boleh masuk Rock Band tuuuu)
The weekend went by nak kata cepat pun tak, nak kata lambat pun tak. It went by like it was supposed to go by. I spent the Saturday hanging out at home, studying and cleaning up my room. And on Sunday I woke up supermorning (for a sunday morning) and headed out to The Curve (sepatutnya nak beli kasut and singgah Habib Jewel) but I ended up at Ikea queing up to pay things that I planned to buy later on, but since it was on sale of I swiped up the old card ;) hehehe
After the unexpected shopping spree, I did like other long distance marriage daughter in law would do. Visit the in laws. I had ayam percik sedap jugak cooked by my brother in law and hung out for awhile.
After that I hung out with my family and then chatted with Ikhwan. I told him my upcoming project and he gave me some ideas (brilliant ones actually) and I am now in the midst of starting it. So there will be less posts in here till the end of the year. But since Ikhwan enjoys reading my blog (ye ke b? ;) ) hehehe I will update once in a while.. Maybe the both of us will be occupied working on our new project jugak.. he will be assisting me la of course ;)
What project ? u might be thinking... well.. time will tell ;)
[me like me mystery]
Tschussssss! :)
Dora's back people :) I am blogging from Ikhwan's house in Mannheim, Germany.
Yes, alhamdulillah we are now married after 3 and a half years of long-distant relationship.
Thanks to the Al-mighty Allah, my husband, Ikhwan lafaz his akad with one lafaz at 1104am on 13th June 2009. And after that, it rained for abit at Masjid Ar-Rahman, Kg Tunku. Hujan rahmat :)
The walimah too was a success thanks to my family, especially Mama & Papa and of course my wedding planner, KakWar who did a superb job! May Allah bless my family and everyone who helped..
So this is marriage life. Sharing, caring, loving and everything. The past is the past and the present is where we are. And for me, personally, I want to focus on the present and plan for the future, insha Allah.
I think that is enough for now.. The flight was a bit bumpy and I slipped and fell right before boarding the plane (yes, that's me, clumsy dora hehehe). I think I'm gonna rest forabit more. We're gonna go grocery shopping later to stock up food for us to cook.
I'm thinking that I will write less and post more pictures.. since pictures can tell you a thousand words :)
Yes, you can be sure there will be loadsssssssssss of pictures :) Salam
I turned 18 on 6th may 2009.
my family did a surprise celebration for me together with mother's day.
It was a nice surprise.
Im happy, people say I dont look my age (ye saya tak tipu)
Alhamdulillah I feel younger. Hopefully this feeling will last for quite some time.
I have a lot of things in my mind.
A lot of things to blog about.
But i cant blog about it. I have my reasons. I am now learning to be a private person. That's one of my resolutions.
But maybe blog more when Im less busy. Coz I love to blog :)
Here's to you kid, You turn 18 :)
Happy Birthday Dora!
counting days..
I like this pic because of the effectWe woke up as early as 6am for Subuh prayers and had heavy breakfast. My friend Michelle came over to see me for the last time before her wedding next week. As usual, we had our hoo-haa jokes and the usual berterabur laughs.. and then, i watched her as she drove off with her fiance's Gen2. There goes my friend, dah nak kahwin dah kau ye..
I quickly had my shower and we picked up my cousin Mimi and headed to KL. Specifically, Chot Kit. "Ooooooo.. sini la Chow Kit Road eh?" ... I said while watching out the window macam tourist dari German. Hehehe..
"Dora!! tak penah gi Chow Kit ke? " my cousin asked.
"Dia mane penah pergi area2 nih.. " Mama replied.
Yup. I know. I've never been to Chow Kit Road. For (COUGH) 2* years of my life, that was my first time. To be honest, it didn't look that scary at 10am. We got a nice parking and headed to our destination. Mencari barang - barang perhiasan dan keperluan.
But, things got really freaky when we walked at Pasar Chow Kit. Fuiyoo.. I've been to a lot of markets.. But this pasar, the way the penjual mempromosikan barang - barang dia, mcm nak cari gadoh.. And my cousin brought us to places yang macam ghetto jugak lah.. hehehe but it was one experience la for me.. hehehe
Later on, we headed to Jalan TAR. I felt a lot safer there.. We reached home at 3..
Suddenly, even at this time, its still sunday, i am already having my Monday blues..
The weekend went by just like that. I got what i wished for. I wanted time to move fast. And it is moving very fast.
Can I wish for happiness, success and Allah's protection and blessings for me and my family?
my name in Greek means 'present' or 'God's gift'.
my name in Japanese is apparently a name of a famous cartoon character.
my name in United States is also a famous cartoon character who likes to explore.
my name in Arabic means 'pearl' or 'precious stone'.
my name is Phychological field was apparently used by Sigmund Freud as a famous case study.
what's in a name ?
it represents a person, an identity, a human being.
my name is always spelled wrongly.. letih la nak cakap banyak kali.. :(
I was really hyped up about going to Kuala Lumpur (KL) today. For someone who works in a ghetto place, going to the city for the weekend is like a big deal (even when I live in PJ). There were some change of plans so I decided to go alone. I could use this time to think and reflect (again) and perhaps enjoy the city alone. Usually I would prefer driving cause it's less hassle, takde tolak tolak, I feel safer, senang nak park. I don't mind paying for parking fee and fuel for a little bit of comfort and it's easier if it rains. However, semenjak $ banyak disalurkan kepada perkara2 lain, and since I was going there alone, I hit the city using public transport. I wore like a schoolkid / uni student, took my small backpack, wore comfy sneakers and brough my DSLR in a small bag.
Yes. Public transport. I haven't used that for quite some time. A year, maybe? My brother dropped me Taman Bahagia LRT and I went straight to Masjid Jamek. Travelling was easier since I reloaded my Touch & Go. The city looked pretty much the same. Dusty and jammed and everyone seems to be heading to the same place as I was. PWTC.
See, there's a travel fair going on and people are just flocking in to PWTC. Macam nak kejar apa je. Takut tiket habis kot ? For me, I had a very specific objective, so I went straight to the appropriate place. MAS. I wasn't looking for some holiday package. I was looking for a ticket. A return ticket. And when I saw the destination and the price, I smiled and actually jumped a little. Murah bangat! Anxiously, I qued while biting my fingernails waiting for my turn.
Cust Serv : Yes Miss how may I help you?
Me : Hi. Can I know the exact price for flight to ________ on ________ ?"
Cust Serv : (Looking into computer clicking here and there) Ok... travelling alone or 2 people?
Me : Alone
Cust Serv : Ok.. For flight to _____ return it's RM ****, all inclusive. You have 30 days from departure date to return to KL.
Me : Oook.. Do I book first now? Are there any booking charges?
Cust Serv : Sorry, you have to pay and I give you the tickets right away.
Me : (gulp) Oo.. but I'm not sure of the return date yet.. Can I change the return dates?
Cust Serv : So sorry.. once you've purchase the tickets, no changes can be made..
Alamak. Susah la pulak. Even though murah GEGILE but.. alot of factors I need to consider first and I need to talk to someone first. I didn't buy the tickets today. I still needed more time. However, I purchased a headphone for my mp3 player instead since there was a Digital Fair too. Singgah juga Canon nye kedai but no wide eye lenses around for sale, just body + kit set jer.
Buntu la jugak for awhile. I searched for Lufthansa but no other airlines were there. Just MAS. I walked back to LRT Star and sat for awhile. 3 trains passed. I still couldn't decide on what to do next. I took the 4th train and headed to Pavillion. I changed to Monorail at Titiwangsa where I got a nice seat before the monorail was sandwiched with many many kiasu people. AAh! I exhaled when I reached Bukit Bintang.
Yup. I looked at Menara Genesis. It was the building where I used to drag my feet to go to work. For me, the sounds of techno music with Chinese salesman/salesgirl with blonde-rebonded hairdo and long fingernails is Bukit Bintang's true identity. Not to forget the salesperson who sells moving toys at RM 10 in front of Maybank. Youngsters (sadly Malays) who hangout in groups are completely oblivious at the fact that precious time is lost just by enduring this lepaking culture.
Like a schoolgirl who just entered the city, I innocently walked towards Pavillion. This would be my second time visiting this gah place. Watching yuppies with their cup of coffees discussing projects and clicking at their PDAs reminded me of the lifestyle I had before becoming an academician. (only, i didn't have PDA, just.. had a lot of coffee and no projects :p still drink coffee now too though). Comparing this scenario with the lifestyle I am leading now is like two different universe.
Finally I reached my destination. I stood still and looked up as everyone was walking. Wow. So this is PAVILLION. but.. It looked just like any other shopping mall to me. Except the COACH store by the side, which you rarely see in KL. But one thing you see a lot in KL is that the youngsters, specifically, mat rempit kinda or gothic chic kinda, they like to hang outside of the mall. I felt a big difference when being outside of the mall and inside. There was a whole different crowd inside. How freaky!
Pavillion reminded me a lot like Singapore. As usual, I took my time looking at the Directory (its a thing that MSO and I do when we are at shopping malls), at that time, I missed him. A lot. I acted cool since I had my mp3 player on. I was bopping my head a little (padahal lagu slow masa tu) cause I didn't wanna look like I was really lost and scared. I didn't know where to go really. But I was hungry. Nando's. Okla, so I had my lunch there. Alone. Yes, I was there alone. I took my time eating my Mild Peri - Peri with Garlic sauce. I didn't wanna look like a complete loser so I took out my planner and started to scribble notes while eating (yes, it did feel like a yuppie at that time). I took out my phone and started SMSing and calling people. I really did look busy when in actual fact, I felt lonely in a middle of a busy city. How is that possible?
Lunch was done. As a normal teenage girl (ewah) , shopping was next in the list. I remembered Tangs had a MEGA sale so I headed there. Malangnya, takde ape sangat. The shopping vibe in Tangs, Pavillion was not like the shopping vibe I had in Singapore. I walked around here and there. Stopped by at Crabtree, Braun Buffel, G2000, Soda, Parkson, Sembonia, Charles and Keith and a few others I can't remember. I decided to buy a pair of Soda Jeans and Soda Blouse to go with it. And I bought a pair of Sembonia shoes (FINALLY!). To kill time waiting for the rain to stop I bought some stuff in Parkson.
It was almost 6. I walked out of Pavillion. I walked by at Lot 10 and of course stopped by for an Iced Blended Chocolate at San Francisco. This place is a very meaningful place for me. It's where MSO and I had met for the first time after 7 years. Everytime I'm at Lot10, pasti akan ke San Fran :) It's like my thing :)
Mama called cause she was worried. Apa la jadi kat anak aku sorang2 jalan di KL.. "Kol berapa nak balik ni ? Dah kol 6.. "... "ok ma, dah on the way ni" (pdhal singgah Lot10 dulu on the way tuh).. hehe. I was too tired to shop. After looking at some shirts, I headed to the train station. Seperti gadis kampung, saya terkejut dan takut melihat begitu ramai orang (esp mat rempit) at Bukit Bintang. I wanted to go home so badly cause it was just too scary. I was holding a lot of things but lucky for me, I got a seat. I reached KL sentral. I bought 2 pair of hijabs (like the one I mentioned before) for RM 30. A fair deal.
Lastly, I waited for the LRT train. I headed to Taman Bahagia again. Finally reached home safely at 730.. that's how I spent my time alone in the busy city, kuala Lumpur... very much different from kuala selangor, kan ..?
Bunyi macam tak pernah gi KL kan ? hehehe.. Lamenya x gi kl...
** post ini akan diedit lagi ye. Nanti nak bubuh some pictures I snapped.
Isnin pagi. Kesejukan pagi ini membuatku sukar untuk bangun. Anak saudaraku, Farhan yang sibuk mengetuk pintu bilik dan memanggil-manggilku "Cu, bangun!" akhirnya berjaya membuatku keluar dari bilik.
Setelah selesai sarapan, aku terus ke computer. Hati ini sungguh merindui arwah Amir Yusuf walaupun tidak pernah berjumpa. Terus klik kepada blog saudara Fajar yang kulihat terdapat update "Untuk Terakhir Kali". Sebutir demi sebutir aku mendalami ayat - ayat yang disampaikan oleh saudara Fajar yang penuh makna. Jelas sekali kasih sayang ibu dan ayah tiada bandingannya. Tanpa disedari, air mata deras mengalir seolah - olah diri ini sememangnya berada di hospital menyaksikan saat - saat terakhir Amir Yusuf. Hujan diluar turut menemani diri ini menangis. Anak saudaraku Farhan yang berumur 2 tahun setengah melihat dengan pelik mengapa Cu sedang menangis di depan computer. Aku hanya melihatnya dan mengucupnya di pipi. Anak kecil yang tiada dosa, tidak mungkin dia merasai kesedihan yang dirasai.
Sabarlah wahai saudara Fajar sekeluarga. Ini semua ujian Allah. Teringat kepada anak saudara, Arwah Rafiq yang juga pernah berada di ICU bertemankan wayar dan suction yang dilakukan setiap 2 - 3 jam. Dan setiap kali suction dilakukan, setiap kali itulah aku kan menangis melihat insan kerdil yang terpaksa melalui semua ini. Ujian Allah cukup hebat sekali. Walaupun diri ini masih belum mempunyai anak, tapi diri ini juga rasa sedih mengingatkan apa yang telah dilalui oleh arwah Rafiq dan juga arwah Amir Yusuf. Allah lebih mengetahui dan Allah lebih menyayangi mereka.
Be strong, saudara Fajar. Janganlah bersedih dengan pemergian Amir Yusuf, tetapi ingatlah saat - saat indah bersamanya. Perpisahan ini hanyalah untuk sementara..
Al - Fatihah.
I saw the comments on saudara Fajar's blog. There were 72 comments and it says "takziah". I was confused and scrolled up.
There was a comment from one of the followers that he received an SMS from saudara Fajar. I broke into tears when I read this :
Amir Yusuf kembali kerahmatullah jam 12.51pm waktu galsgow sbtr tadi. Alfatihah!
My deepest condolences to saudara Fajar and family.
I am out of words.
I wish I could visit them.
I want to blog about it but I am in a state of shock.
Al - Fatihah to baby Amir Yusuf~
I love red. I just bought this new hijab which has a great combination of Black and dark Red. From Syria (katanya). It's RM 16. So I bought two. The other one is dark green and a bit of cream.
This hijab is the ones yang masuk satu yang kecik and the other one outside. Why I like this ? Because I don't have to iron it and it's great for those who are lazy to gosok tudung (just like me) hehe.
No ironing.
No pins.
No hassle.
But its hard to find nice ones. I saw a few in KL Sentral but the designs are too plain and the colors are dull. For people who have my skin color (coklat -> ke arah gelap) sesuai pakai dark colors so that you look garang.
Cikgu nampak garang lah.
If you wanna go for a fancier look, wear a pin by the side as accessories.
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the two days of MQA visit is finally over. i reached home at 9pm last night. it kinda reminds me of the time i used to work in the bank only this time my journey is almost 2 hours. my parents are out of town since yesterday visiting my uncle in taiping who is in a critical condition after the operation.
although i was very extremely super busy (banyak kata penguat tu), it was a valuable experience for me and i learned a lot of things throughout the process. of course i am one of the important but not urgent people.. the photographer. sure, i got access to places that important people go to, i can walk around and not have people looking at me weirdly cause it's the nature of my job as a photographer, and the usual question, "eh, berapa you beli camera ni eh?" and have them give me that very long "oooooOOooooo" look after i tell them the price. i kinda got used to it already.
and of course being the committee of Academic Quality Assurance (AQA), i had goosebumps and butterflies in my stomach everytime the panel commented on quality of education per se. luckily the head of AQA was there to justify things without being biased and giving responses that were realistic and made some of the audience nod with agreement.
tiring but priceless experience.
i am officially wiped out. how to teach my beloved students today ? mata pun susah nak buka..
"Tak pergi kerja ke harini?" my dad said to me as he entered my room while I was in the middle of my weird dream (which I do not want to blog about because it was just too freaky).
I opened my eyes in confusion and looked at my motorola razr, 6:18.
"$h|t! ". Yup. I started the day with a bad word. my bad. Its ironic that on Saturday and Sunday morning I was paranoid when I woke up because I didn't want to be late for work.
Today was our first day of MQA visit and I was assigned to take pictures of the event. Since I woke up late, I missed the bus. So I drove to Btg Berjuntai. Left the house at 7:01 and reached office at a solid 8:15. Alhamdulillah.
How much I wish I could write about the visit but I better not. I am not sure if it is P & C. But what I can conclude for today is I had a busy day. And my room mate said to me this, "you look very tired la Dora"
In my heart and outloud I answered, "yes, I am very tired actually.. bukan saja pasal MQA ni tapi macam2 lah.."
In the previous post, I blogged about changes and that I had change the color of my blog, I forgot to mention that I changed the position of my table in the office too, and it looks nice and spacious now. I also decided to change my current handbag because I got bored with the previous one. I do that sometimes when things get crazy and I laugh all by myself for comfort.
It's March already. So fast. I remember counting down the new year just recently on the internet with MSO and also having that Black & White 2007 Affair event.
Well, just felt like blogging since talking needs a lot of energy and at this moment I have very little of those (I am a lecturer, I talk alot).
Right next to me, Fahim (2 years and 6 months) is switching on the computer by himself and singing to Rossa's Ayat - Ayat Cinta almost 8 times already (really smart boy).
Suddenly rasa sayu and diri ini sungguh kecil and kerdil. MasyaAllah, the effects of good movies.
Tanpa disedari, today is already pay day.. Woohoo! dat would mean, pay bills, reload touch and go card, give $ to mom and dad, do minor shoppings, do major shoppings, save some for rainy day, save some for sunny day etc etc..
Tanpa disedari juga, (after not checking my pay slip for quite some time) today I realized that my income tax telah pun dipotong dengan banyak sekali! Damn it tol. I would be very much pissed with this income tax issue. [hmm, malas la nak citer pjg..]
Anyways, I'm glad I am still able to have pay days.. Thinking about those who got laid off by their companies due to the economic slowdown, I'm thankful I am in this industry and still have a steady job to go to despite having to wake up at 530 every morning and leaving the house when most people are still in deep slumber.. siap bole tido balik lepas solat subuh.. and now subuh masuk 610.. (takpe takpe.. saya pergi mencari rezeki... early bird catches the worm.. heheh) I hope that our economy will recover soon.. merisaukan lah.. and don't get me started on politics.. yikes!
Ye, kepala saya bengong la semenjak dua menjak nih (that's why this post ada banyak bahasa Melayu.. coz it's better to write in BM when you're in that state.. or at least, that's me lah). I've been very much absent minded and sometimes just.. absent. I'm there but I'm just not there, get it? So many things in my head at this moment I need to put every detail into a proper folder and rename each file (macam dalam computer jugak). I have about 3- 4 notebooks (as in, buku nota kecil, bukan notebook laptop) that I jot everything or anything that comes into mind. I bring those everywhere I go. Unlike MSO, I am not much of a PDA person, I like writing and scribbling.. like the old school style.. In the book, sometimes you may see formulas scribbled at the sides, unsolved integration problems, sketches of funny faces when I'm bored, signatures and notes, receipt numbers, quotes, thoughts, reminders, numbers, car plate numbers.. weird stuff.. that's me for ya..
And dikala masa ini, tiba - tiba rasa teringin sangat nak pergi on a holiday. I'll be going to Kuantan in early April for Michelle's wedding. We're gonna stay at a fancy hotel by the beach and treat ourselves lavishly macam orang kaya (konon) macam dalam citer Gossip Girl, Laguna Beach, The OC or One Tree Hill and worry about our credit card bills later :p . Wait, One Tree Hill citer orang kaya ke? I'm gonna do some serious photography session there ditambah dengan model - model yang sangat rajin bergambar.. It's gonna be fun in the sun!
oh, the meeting on friday was cool (in shah alam, of course).
Prof SK whispered to me nicely, "makan guna tangan kanan.. itu sunnah.."
WPM and I looked at each other and I said, "saya kidal Prof"..
he replied "sunnah Nabi tu makan pakai tangan kanan"...
so I smiled weakly and said slowly to WPM when Prof SK was not looking "but I've been using left hand bila pakai sudu since at least 20 years ago"
WPM said "you pandai lukis tak ? lukis cantik2 ? slalunya orang kidal ni artistic"
for 2 seconds I thought for a while. I know the answer is a big NO but I didn't wanna sound like such a loser so I said this, "erm.. I can play Music..? does that counts?"
WPM comforted me , "haaa see!"
He He.
oh ye, when I was busy doing my final exam questions, House called me to the office and said this,
"I like the slide presentation you did... You pandai la buat.. Betul, I really like it"
Suddenly, just like an eclipse, those negative vibes about House hilang buat seketika...
Sigh, camne?
** MQA coming next week. Wish me luck, wish us all luck. We're gonna need loads of those **
Funny from Desperate Housewives episode yesterday
Edie's Husband : You need at least an engineering degree to do that..
Mrs. McKlumsky : Oh yeah ? you got one of those?
MONDAY :: *MC [class canceled]
TUESDAY ::*MC [class canceled]
WEDNESDAY
:: Morning - Briefing for 2 hours [class canceled, tapi buat quiz 45 minutes]
:: Afternoon - Briefing for 1 hour [class canceled, tapi buat quiz 45 minutes]
THURSDAY
:: Morning - Class ok, alhamdulillah. harini students baik2
:: Afternoon - Class NOT OK. Cikgu kecik hati pada student lagi :(
FRIDAY :: *MEETING dan MEETING lagi (in Shah Alam). Suddenly Shah Alam is wayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy better than Btg Berjuntai.
Reason : HOUSE, MQA, HOUSE & MQA, people and JUST HOUSE.
At this moment, I am serabut (meja office), kusut (rambut), kelam kabut (if you can see me, you'd know how). I'm trying so hard not to lose my patience, my mind, my cool and (meminjam ayat cikyah sebentar) my mojo. I talked to my ex-boss and she believes that I can pull everything off (somehow it's comforting to know that), "you kan memang selalu macam tu .. bising tu kejap jer.. lepas tu u mesti cakap.. lek lek.. I can do this.. at last ok nyer.. " kata - katanya itu selalu membuatku tersenyum... she still remembers how i used to say it with the hand gestures and all "lek lek.. don't worry.. no problem". Yup, that was me then kot. sekarang kan dah garang.. hehe..
Early of this year, I mentioned in one of my posts. So little time, so many things to do.. I wish I hadn't said that.. cause it's becoming to materialize.....
Ya, Allah.. I need time.. Give me abit more time...
FRIDAY NIGHT ESOK ::
Agenda : Laze around on my hard earned queen sized bed either finishing off Alek Wek autobiography or watch Weeds till Saturday morning.
Reason : Cause this time, I deserve it.. yeah!
(wah, what a productive week)
Soon, this will be over..
Note : House disini bukanlah bermaksud rumah.. of course, rumahku syurgaku.. House di sini merujuk kepada cerita House MD
I wish I could be as charismatic, calm and reserved just like J-Lo in Shall We Dance. It amazes me how she can dance using those heels (love the shoes) with that perfect posture. Firm yet graceful. The movie is nice and the ending is not so cliche'. I like. Plus, I've always been a Richard Gere fan. My favourite scene would be when Richard Gere was holding a rose wearing a 3piece suit on the escalator.. (Very romantic.. Aduh... Lemah...)
Today I chatted with 3 of MSO's siblings. The youngest one was really cute. She is the same age as Izzah. The 2nd youngest is like a photocopied image of MSO and the 3rd youngest is abit laid back..
I am very disappointed with Astro. It hasn't been working for almost 2 weeks now. And I missed the last episode of Alexander Bukan Zulkarnain (sorry Syirfan. But I will definitely get the original CD, do update me). Luckily Cikyah SMSed me at 11pm with the conclusion, "At the moment we settle for cyrus as iskandar". I thought so. Since Alexander's features were the total opposite of Iskandar Zulkarnain in the Quran, Surah Al-Kahfi.
Oh yes, and I soo don't believe on Friday the 13th. 13 is my significant lucky number. Like seriously.
A cool incident happened today before leaving work. All I can say is that cantik is such a beautiful word :)
My ex-student, a part time model hung out with me today and lend me her book titled Alek (From Sudanese Refugee to International Supermodel). As she walked out from my office she said this,
"Takpe, take your time.. Bila I baca, I felt so inspired.. If dia yang susah susah boleh jadi supermodel, I pun boleh.. ahahahahahah"
Yup, that's right. She's considered quite close to me and calls me babe. Weird ? I know.. Takpe lah, since she is my ex-student and just 2 years younger than me, I'm okay.
Earlier this morning, my current student came by to see me to ask me questions. A very hard working guy and very sincere at heart. Somehow I could see it that he really wants to succeed. Unfortunately though, he is quite weak. I was filled with mixed emotions. I felt that even though he is hardworking but he doesn't know the proper technique of studying. Tapi dia nak berjaya. And at that very moment as I sat there watching him with full of determination trying to redo the question we discussed and trying to comprehend it, the images of Prof SK suddenly popped in my head in a black and white screen and he was saying this,
"It's our duty to guide them.. Not everyone is born smart and brilliant but we can help to shape them to be a successful person. Itu amanah kita.. Sometimes what we do that we might think is a small thing, could mean a lot to them.. "
He told me his CGPA and I could see that he is scared that I might judge him. But I made it clear that he has to work hard to improve on his CGPA. And he will succeed if he has the determination and willpower.. I felt sad when he said this,
"Saya memang tak pandai Maths Miss.. Terus terang saya cakap.. Tapi saya yakin Miss.. Saya akan usaha Miss.. Saya akan buktikan kat Miss yang saya boleh.. Tapi Miss kena tolong saya.. Saya mungkin akan tanya soalan bodoh sebab saya kadang - kadang memang tak paham.. tapi saya malu nak tanya.. nanti orang cakap.. eh dia ni, benda ni pun nak tanya?"
"Takpe.. Senang je, you jumpa saya personally and nak tanya apa - apa pun tanya je.. insyaAllah saya akan tolong"
"Terima kasih miss.. Ni dah citer kat miss ni saya rasa lega sket"
Why do I feel sad ? I wonder who had made him feel scared of asking. When you make them feel scared of asking, you make them feel scared to learn. I feel that no one should feel scared of asking questions..Sayang sekali..
Looking at him made me remember vividly the first time I met with my mentor aka my morrie Prof Aziz when I came to see him telling him my intentions to register for postgraduate school back in 2005.
"Saya memang nak sambung blajar Prof.. Tapi saya bukanlah pelajar yang cemerlang sangat Prof.. Saya average saje.. But I want to be an academician.. Prof rasa saya boleh buat ke ? "
He smiled and said this, "If you betul - betul nak, memang boleh.. saya takde masalah.. Saya memang akan accept student.. Setiap orang tu patut diberi peluang.. kalau ada keinginan.. memang boleh berjaya..."
A few simple words and with that I had the light of confidence to register for my post graduate. Yes, I was not the brightest students. I blame myself for not practising the proper technique of learning. But at least I learned from my mistakes and I can tell my students not to do the same. I was given a second chance in learning and worked hard for it as I know I wasn't the brightest. Pastinya tak tidor malam and literally crying while doing assignments and drinking bottomless coffee almost every night which had made me a coffee addict now. Everytime I always tell myself, "I will get through this... I will get through this.." I am fortunate to have wonderful family members who supported me and friends who fought the battle together.. Those are beautiful memories. I am lucky enough to have the opportunity to learn and thankful for that. The song that had helped me through would be Taylor Hick's Do I make you proud? and everyday before class, I would imagine my parents waiting for me outside the hall with a scroll in my hand.. I always envisioned that.. I guess it's true.. The mind is a very powerful tool..
My room is being visited by students almost everyday. Why ? Because this semester, I have become less garang. I guess to reach out to them, ada cara nya kot.. And I finally found out how..
With all the things happening around me makes my life more colorful nowadays, insyaAllah :)
Title : my mom goes IT savvy
Mama : D, Macam mana nak check stock market from the internet? Kat sokkabar dah takde..
Me : (in front of the mirror taking out contact lense belah kiri) Kejap eh.. (walking to the PC followed by Mama) Mama masuk www.osk188.com... tak tepi ni "Get Stock" tulis la stock nama apa mama nak and tekan "Go".. Mama nak check apa?
Mama : Cuba tengok GCORP
Me : (typing GCORP) Mama type je GCORP
Mama : Uishhhhh turun....
Me : Nape? Mama beli berapa haritu?
Mama : adoi.. jangan tanya laa....
Me : Mama tengok la dulu.. Dora nak bukak contact lense belah kanan ni pulak..
3 minutes later, I saw Mama typing away a few stocks and looking at their last price.. Hehe..
my facebook status says "______ is happy and fascinated by Allah's gifts.. masya Allah"
I have changed to a new syampoo to resolve my hair fall problem.. Alhamdulillah right now my hair is smooth and they look relaxed.
Will return and blog about some heavy-mind-stimulating stuff next week.
Brief updates :
1. The presentation went well alhamdulillah. Me happy.
2. Starting to look around and thinking about my career and where it's heading to..
3. Check it out, the penerbit of my favourite documentary at the moment, just commented on my blog post. I'm like OMG!! [sila lihat pada recent comments sidebar, hehe] (ya, saya memang gelabar.. hehe)
4. Going through this phase.. yang sukar dikongsi disini.. which is very very personal to me.. Perhaps one day I shall write about it.. Jgn risau, its benda yang baik, insyaAllah :)
5. Loads of pix to share.. one day will post it ok :)
Take care my fellow followers/readers/silent readers. Have a productive week ahead.
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Salam
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