L.U.C.K.Y

I am loving this song by Jason Mraz and Colbie Caillat. What a great combination.. Ok, have so many things to blog about tapi banyak bende nak settle at the office.. will put on my blog cap later when i am abit more free.. (dah mc 3 hari kena kejar masa) just thought of pasting this cause baru je dgr lagu dia tadi on the radio... lovely lovely... lovey lovey...

Do you hear me,
I'm talking to you
Across the water across the deep blue ocean
Under the open sky oh my, baby I'm trying

Boy I hear you in my dreams
I feel your whisper across the sea
I keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets hard

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Oooohhhhoohhhhohhooohhooohhooohoooh

They don't know how long it takes
Waiting for a love like this
Every time we say goodbye
I wish we had one more kiss
I'll wait for you I promise you, I will

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
I'm lucky we're in love in every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

And so I'm sailing through the sea
To an island where we'll meet
You'll hear the music, feel the air
I'll put a flower in your hair
Though the breezes through trees
Move so pretty you're all I see
As the world keeps spinning round
You hold me right here right now

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
I'm lucky we're in love in every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

Ooohh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh
Ooooh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh

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kenapa bila bergambar....

I was browsing through some pictures inside facebook.com earlier today. I noticed something about some female friends' pictures and wonndered...

"kenapa bila bergambar kena tundukkan kepada sedikit,dan sengetkan ke kiri atau kanan, mata dibulatkan dan memandang ke atas (camera), senyum tertutup atau kalau terbukak dicontrolkan dengan merapatkan gigi dan bibir dekat2 dan bersandar pada seseorang (if not alone) ? "

i'm a newbie in this photography thingy.. especially portrait pictures.. but it kinda looks planned and not carefree... perhaps i might have some of those shots as well.. tanpa disedari kot.. izzit some girl thingy ?

don't you think so ? have a look at some of your friends' pictures... seriously...

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pills, the secret, viral fever.

I look out the window and it's a sunny day. I could hear the birds happily chirping and the cool breeze of fresh air on a saturday morning. I just lay on my bed, thinking about the Malaysia Year End Sale. Gaji dah dapat. Budget ok ok. All I had to do was just get up, get ready, get going and get it done with.

But no. I couldn't.

I suffered a massive-excruciating-5-days viral fever complete with the 40degrees temp, dry cough, and running nose. the whole package. Only this time, i took my meds, on time, with discipline and everything. I did as everybody told me. I kept on hearing this..

"Makan la ubat.."
"Rest properly.."
"Minum air"

I kept on saying in my heart, "dah.. dah.. and dah..." but i just kept quite.. sbb tak larat nak ckp apa..

See, when i am sick, i have this BIG problem of taking meds. I CAN'T take pills. I simply CAN'T. What i'll do is i'll just pecah2 kan the pills into smaller pieces and swallow it with some juice or air yg bukan kosong i.e milo, teh or whatever it is.. as long as it's not air kosong..

So this time i really followed everything since day 1. only that my sakit became worse.. till on sunday i said to myself, "that's it. i have to do something about this. i can't take it any longer." so i terpandangkan buku "the secret" on my bookshelf and i had an idea.

by 10 am, i pulled my blanket and kept on saying this "By 2 pm, i'll be healthy again... no.. by 2 pm today, i'll be healthy again.." i kept on repeating the sentence over and over till i dozed off... when i open my eyes it's 1230 but i was still sick.. my mom called me for lunch, had some bubur and was in bed again by 1.. i said the sentence again and again kononnya dgn power of the secret i can recover from my sickness..

i open my eyes again and i look at my pink motorola razr and it's 230pm... "i'm still sick!"

i decided to stop taking my pills. the damn anti biotics just won't work with me. never did. and the ubat selsema and batuk just makes me feel more sick and i just can't stand it. I HAVE DECIDED TO STOP TAKING PILLS. IT'S TOO PAINFUL AND I DOESN'T WORK ON MY BODY. (at least for now)

and you know what. after i stopped taking them, i felt healthier.. but just not fit enough to go to work today.. so i went to the clinic (Young & Newton kat PJ Newtown) to take a blood test and get an MC. and alhamdulillah i am denggi free.. just a viral fever.

guess shop till i drop will just have to wait..

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I am 16 going on 17

I was watching this with my nephew, Ashraf and it was nice. This was and still is one of the best movies i've watched. and i am a sucker for musicals...

Oh yes, i have a post on musicals. I'll post it tomorrow.. Enjoy this.. Feels like 16 again :) and Liesl have the most lovely green eyes don't you think ?

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hair-spray

I am looking at my hair and thinking how fast it grows. Since I cut it in March till November, that's 9 months. Ever wondered why your hair is tak rata ketebalannya.. like how thick it is at the roots and how it jadi nipis at the end? do you have that ? or am i the only one ?

Tbh (ayat ikhwan ni), I am abit obsessed about my hair. i think that's the best part of me kot (cewah, citer pasal aurat nih). I guess there is something about your hair that makes you who you are.. it's a big portion of your personality. And i think that is why as a Muslim woman, Allah made covering your head as a must. and i think there is something beautiful about it..

I am now slowly changing my image. I wear hijabs once in a while. Kinda like it. takyah gosok and pusing jer.. takpakai banyak pin and tak bnyk citer..

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ich mag tempe!

I slept early last night. 930 pm ok. After having dinner and cleaning up, I spent some time with my niece, Izzah zuza and Fahim Chikedee (their nick names). Sedar2 je it my eyes just could not open anymore and I smsed him and slept. 1240 I terjaga from my sleep and got 3 missed calls. Made a phone call and slept again.

Wow. But why was I so tired yesterday? I drove to work in the heavy rain in the morning, invigilated my Stats paper for 3 hours, did some massive-yet-headachable (is there such a word) exam paper marking and went back home at sharp2 5.15. sounds like a normal day.

Anyway, the weekend was very fruitful i guess. Spent the saturday meeting up with Niza and Shaz at Starbucks KL sentral for breakfast, the evening with my sis in law, planning and planning to execute the plan this weekend and next month. did some studying (cewah) and also cleaned up my room (like totally clean up), masak sket, cuci2 kain sket, and some other domestic stuff.

So I'm hyped up for tomorrow cause its pay day.. woohoo~ kalau masa kerja bank, saat ni la paling genting.. orang excited nk dpt gaji, for me, i'll be nervous sbb takut2 ada tersilap key in gaji orang (Kerja HR payroll dulu)..

Okla, i'm ok now cause my 'pain' dah alhamdulillah hilang. me happy. me ceria.
so people since i learned to say this last weekend, just wanna write it here:-

ich mag tempe! (i like tempe)

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Apakah perasaan seorang guru?

Apakah perasaan seorang guru?

Apakah perasaan seorang guru apabila dia sedang mengajar dan pelajar berbual2 di dalam kelas sambil bergelak ketawa? Dia hanya berkata di dalam hati kecil nya "ah, biarkan lah mereka, nanti mereka akan berhenti bercakap. kalau menegur, nnt mereka yang akan kecil hati."

Apakah perasaan seorang guru apabila dia sedang mengajar dan melalukan sedikit kesilapan dan membetulkannya di whiteboard dan pelajar mengeluh dan berkata, "alaa...dah salin dah". Dia hanya berkata di dalam hati kecilnya, "ketika kau membuat kesilapan, aku hanya bersabar dan menunjukkan kamu jalan yang sebenarnya."

Apakah perasaan seorang guru apabila dia sedang mengajar dengan penuh semangat selama hampir dua jam berdiri dan bercakap, dan pelajar yang duduk dengan penuh selesa menguap sekuat hatinya dengan sengaja bagi menandakan masa hampir tamat. Dia hanya berkata di dalam hati kecilnya, "Mungkin mereka sudah penat kot. tak apalah"

Apakah perasaan seorang guru apabila memulangkan markah ujian pelajar dan pelajar hanya menanya balik padanya "kenapa markah saya sikit sangat??" Dia diam seketika dan berkata di dalam hati kecilnya, "mungkinkah aku yang tidak cukup bagus mengajar mereka?"

Apakah perasaan seorang guru apabila dia mengajar di dalam Bahasa Inggeris bagi menghormati pelajar bangsa lain dan mereka hanya bergelak ketawa di belakang kerana merasakan pelik apabila seorang Pensyarah Melayu berbahasa Inggeris dengan pelajar Melayu. Dia berkata di dalam hati kecilnya, "Tidak apalah, asalkan aku menjalankan tanggungjawabku untuk menyampaikan ilmu itu dengan jelas dan nyata."

Apakah perasaan seorang guru apabila dia menyediakan nota dan membuat salinan untuk pelajar itu dan dia pada akhir kelasnya melihat kertas itu melayang di atas lantai dan dipijak2 oleh pelajar lain dan akhirnya dimasukkan di dalam tong sampah. Dia berkata di dalam hati kecilnya, "hmm, tidak apalah, mungkin tercicir agaknya.."

Apakah perasaan seorang guru apabila melihat anak muridnya dapat menjawab dengan betul soalan - soalan peperiksaan ? Dialah yang berasa paling gembira di hatinya.

Apakah perasaan seorang guru apabila anak muridnya masih mengingati padanya apabila terserempak di mana mana? Dialah yang berasa paling terharu.

Apakah perasaan seorang guru apabila anak muridnya naik di atas pentas dan mendapat sekeping ijazah dengan senyuman yang sangat gembira dan melambai - lambai pada ibu bapanya ? Dialah yang berasa paling gembira.

Terima kasih kepada semua guru - guru yang telah mendidik saya selama ini sehingga saya menjadi seorang pendidik kepada generasi baru ini.

Maafkan cikgu2 saya sekiranya ada yang saya lakukan di atas, kerana pada ketika itu, saya tidak matang dan kini, saya tahu apakah perasaannya guru..

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-written by dora.j-

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Sayang kan ?

Starts : 1025 PM

Someone once said to me, "Live your life without any regrets".

When I was much younger (mcm dh lame jer hehe), biasalah, budak2 mmg nakal sikit. Sikit jer. I like to try new things (konon experiment) and just break the rules (abit) once in a while (biasalah kot). So, when my students do crazy stuff or just trying to be the young ones they are right now, I kinda know some of their tricks (been there, done that).

However, I do not regret how I lead my life. I am what I am today because of what I was yesterday. So, alhamdulillah. Whatever mistakes I have done before is a lesson for me to learn, probably some bad experiences, or unwise decisions, I have dealt with and learned to live with it. I have never blamed anyone for what had happened to me.

Why this sudden post? See, I am working as an academician. And as an academician, I deal with a lot of people. And most people might say that my work is easy because I just teach. See, that is where people who assume that are wrong. I do not JUST teach, I believe that my responsibility goes beyond that. I am responsible to shape a person, academically. and I believe that I take my job very seriously. I have been a lecturer for about a modest 1 year and 3 months to be precise. And as far as I can remember, I have never regretted venturing in this line.

I always tell my students. "Please, do as I tell you. Don't have any regrets when you see your marks. Don't blame others for what you are responsible for. You have a big responsibility, to learn. and my responsibility is to teach and to guide you. So I take this big task seriously. and I hope you do too." Some take it seriously. Some just don't bother. Some want to but just do not have the strong willpower to do so. Whatever it is, I hope that my students will not have any regrets.

"If only I studied harder"
"If only I submitted my assignments"
"If only I paid attention in class"
"If only.... "

I remind my students and myself as well and the fellow readers.. Please.. have no regrets.. just live your life.. or just.. embrace life.. and just live.. Cause your life is a too precious and a beautiful gift for you to waste..

Please throw away all your regrets.. your negative vibes.. your anger.. your hatred.. your jealousies.. your sadness..

Wouldn't it be a waste if one day you wake up and you realized that all your life has been filled with all those feelings.. and you are old and have lived your life but was never happy.. never vibrant and never lived? Sayang kan ?


Ends : 1045 pm

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Pain

I'm in pain.
Pain.
Pain.
Pain.

Why must I be in pain ?
Every time..
Every month..

I am not shy. It's a natural process. I am in pain.
Help me.. :(

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PAKU

I got this email from a friend and i thought it was very well said... Listen to the moral of the story.. maybe we could all learn from it...

Ada seorang pemuda yang sangat pemarah. Dia tidak dapat mengawal
kemarahannya walaupun ianya hanya satu masalah kecil sahaja. Pada suatu
hari, bapanya telah menghadiahkannya dengan seguni paku. "Untuk apakah
paku-paku ini ayah?" tanya pemuda tersebut. "Setiap kali kamu marah,
kamu pakulah tembok batu di hadapan rumah kita ini, bagi melepaskan
kemarahan mu" jawab ayahnya. Pada hari yang pertama sahaja, pemuda itu telah memaku sebanyak 37 batang paku pada tembok batu tersebut. Selepas beberapa
minggu, setelah dia dapat mengurangkan kemarahannya, jumlah paku yang digunakan
juga berkurangan. Dia mendapati, adalah lebih mudah mengawal kemarahannya
dari memukul paku menembusi tembok batu tersebut. Akhirnya tibalah pada
suatu hari, dimana pemuda tersebut tidak marah, walau sekali pun. Dia pun
memberitahu ayahnya mengenai perkara tersebut dengan gembira. Bapanya
mengucapkan tahniah dan menyuruh dia mencabut kembali paku itu satu
persatu, pada setiap hari yang ia lalui tanpa kemarahan. Hari berganti hari, dan
akhirnya dia berjaya mencabut kesemua paku-paku tersebut. Pemuda
tersebut lantas memberitahu perkara tersebut kepada bapanya dengan bangganya.
Bapanya lantas memimpin tangannya ke tembok tersebut dan berkata "Kau telah
melakukannya dengan baik, anakku, tetapi lihatlah kesan lubang-lubang
di tembok batu tersebut, tembok itu tidak akan kelihatan sama lagi seperti
sebelumnya. Bila kau menyatakan sesuatu atau melakukan sesuatu ketika
marah, ianya akan meninggalkan kesan parut dan luka, sama seperti ini. Kau
boleh menikam seseorang dengan pisau dan membunuhnya. Tetapi ingatlah, tak
kesah berapa kali kau memohon maaf dan menyesal atas perbuatam mu, namun
lukanya masih tetap ada. Luka di hati adalah lebih pedih dari luka fizikal.

Sahabat
adalah permata yang sukar dicari. Mereka membuatkan kamu ketawa dan
menggalakan mu ke arah kejayaan. Sahabat juga adalah seorang pendengar,
berkongsi suka dan duka dan sentiasa membuka hatinya kepada kita.


Maafkan saya sekiranya saya pernah meninggalkan kesan berlubang di dinding hati
anda....


It’s better to be silent & be thought a fool, than to speak & remove all doubt.. -Abraham Lincoln-

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