my lil secret

Someone said to me and i'll never forget this:-

"Bila berdoa, kena specific. Bila berkata, kena berjaga - jaga. Sbb kata - kata itu adalah doa."

I said to myself, this year is going to be a great year...
No, I said to myself, this year is going to be a great year... InsyaAllah.. Ok, i'm not that pious but i know what i'm supposed to know to make me a better person.. So, as a start of 2008 and also Awal Muharram, i read The Secret by Linda Bryne [highly recommended]. Ada la some parts tu mcm abit merepek but what is says ada jugak parallel dgn ajaran Islam..

For example, the moment u wake up in the morning, be thankful to God that you're alive..
Yes. I guess things that happened in 2007 has taught me to be thankful to Allah for what i have.. After watching my nephew Rafiq struggled to breathe, and how he suffered everyday when he was still with us, i believe that we should not complain and just be thankful that we are alive.. and healthy..

The month of January also has brought a pleasant surprise to me which i don't think i can disclose yet here for now.. let it be just my lil secret hehehe..

There was one day, i decided that i need to save up $ for something.. i thought about travelling to Europe which i have been dreaming of doing since... well... since 2005.. i had that plan till.. well... till the pleasant surprise laa.. then, alhamdulillah la so now im saving up $ for a SLR camera either nikon or canon.. masih belajar and nak explore dulu.. so sementara that wishlist sampai, im learning laa sket2.. and cikyah sebagai my sifu..

Freaky thing happened on monday. see, i've been sorta helping out some uitm masters student s doing their dissertation/thesis and explaining to them dari segi segi statistics nyer.. so then, they recommended me to their supervisor.. and their supervisor gave me a set of data to be analyzed! how cool is that! hehehe and they were discussing and then decided to invite me as a speaker for a workshop! nice ay!

see, i believe in the good... i believe that Allah will help u.. i believe that Allah heard my prayers.. so, when u pray, be specific...

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my 3rd week of february 08

Alright, to those who are dying to know how my Monday class went (yes, that means u Mangchik.. hehe), i'll summarize my whole week in this update ok? :)

Ok, my previous post ada banyak salah eja. probably i was writing it dalam keadaan menggigil kelaparan and plus, there was abit of a crack on my head due to vetting of examination papers.. yes.. 10 statistics papers [english and bm] to be discussed and corrected before we submit the final paper to the examination unit...

Ok ok, so monday.. as usual, almost everybody talked while i was teaching in class.. i guess they think they are already smart since they scored my paper.. oh well, so i gave them really difficult and challenging [to their level] random variable questions.. and ada yang tak bole jawab.. i guess now i feel like mcm ni biarlah.. u nak dgr, dgr lah.. if ur not interested, dont bother.. sampai ke tahap tu.. i have like just another 2 more topics which can be covered in 4 classes, so im ahead from the syllabus... then i gave this statement, "make sure i dont see u again next semester".. ok, when a lecturer says that, it means, "don't fail my paper" but some take it that i mmg tak nak jumpa diorg dah.. then ada some who could read between the lines said "weh, miss ckp mcm tu maksudnyer dia tak nak kita repeat laaa... ape la ko..."

then one guy said, "miss ajar subject lain la kat kitorg bole ke?... miss ajar bestla .. saya faham.."
yeah... then i remembered why i took this job.. despite all the challenges and the tensyen-ness.. i guess it pays off when u realized that u've made a difference in someone's life.. u've made an impact in someone's life... although people say kerja jadi lecturer senang... relax.. well, i can't say its all true.. it may be difficult to work with machines.. but at least u can control it.. but working with humans... it's something that takes a lot of time, effort, passion & understanding..

[itu baru hari isnin jer] .. other days went okay.. tp this week mmg super busy.. i returned the results for degree students... 49% failed which almost brought tears to my eyes.. aduh... maybe i'm not so good of a lecturer kot? or is statistics really that hard? it's one of the easiest subjects to score.. i mean, seriously.. lain la calculus.. itu mmg kena kaw kaw terer maths.. statistics is not entirely maths.. its more like.... yeah... statistics is more like.. life... kot?

maybe i should reconsider the ones who answered this question during TEST 1

Question 1 : What is the definition of Statistics?
Answer : ......Statistics is life... statistics is numbers...

i think i'll never forget that... heheheheheh

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my update

UPATES JER : yesterday was Cap Goh Mey (not sure of the spelling).
Its a chinese valentine where chinese gurls throw oranges into the river with the hopes of getting their jodoh. this event is originated from Penang, so it's a chinese Malaysian ritual.. so sempena this festive event, marks the end of chinese new year celebration.. and i finally got the chinese songs that i've been searching for years!

1. Beyond's Hoi Fut Tin Hong (susah gile nak dpt lagu ni ok)
2. S.H.E's Superstar (lagu glemer)
3. S.H.E's Tong Quai Qi Ai (pun lagu glemer)

i got it from my students.. coolness...

anyway, it has been a pretty hectic week.. and i realized how precious time is.. yes, i had to complete my final exam questions > translation, kelas tidak boleh dicancelkan so i gave them exercises to do [smart move kan?] heh hehe..

we had vetting today.. and believe me, lepas vetting, mmg lapar giler nak mampus.. ada crack sket la kat kepala.. memandangkan semua lecturer statistics mempresentkan final question diorg.. and i realized my questions agak susah.. so hmmm mcmner yer? what if ramai tak score? i think ramai tak score is still ok.. what if ramai FAIL? gosh!

good news though, i managed to call almost 30+ people to go for the photography session.. yeay! and another good news.. claim baru sampai tadi.. i dunno how much though.. well at least RM 20 - RM 30 tu ok la jugak.. i guess im starting to value money... mcm... RM20 tu bole buat mcm2 tau actually... seriously...

another good news, a lecturer requested for me to do a research on her data.. cool... means [$] and.. of course experience and ilmu yang berharga :) .. on top of that, she also requested that i give a talk on a workshop that they will be doing soon for their students on SPSS... mean [more $] hehe.. yer laa nak kompol duit.. for my wishlist :)

hey freaky, Chap Goh Meh falls on the day of the eclipse of the moon... nice~

ok.. tulisan mcm merepek2 sbb tgh lapar giler.. waiting for my friend dia belikan nasi... oooh dah sampai.. later people!

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my wishlist

my wish list.. is to get myself an SLR camera.. and of course learn more about photography.

sorry readers/silent readers.. tak sempat nak mengupdate sbb bz menyiapkan final exam questions...

in brief : Adik Adi Putra yang genius tu will be enrolling to unisel in may07 session.. and guess what... dia kena amek foundation dulu.. means, he'll be our stundent.. [SCARY OK]

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my ASTRO weekend

on friday, after my anak2 sedara tidor, i sat in front of the tv.. i flipped through the channels and only to find nothing good on ASTRO.. starworld had TNA wrestling.. and semua citer boring2... till i clicked on PRIMA... and guess what was on tv.. PRamlee's Labu Labi...

dalam bnyak2 citer, citer pramlee jugak yg best.. ever green.. and you'll never get bored of it..
so in one of the scenes, mase labu labi was imagining themselves as magistrate and doctors.. they showed a scene in a night club... and there was a fashion show from multiracial ladies.. ada cina, indian, mat salleh, orang melayu... and i thought, wow.. this legend... it fascinating how he portrayed a muhibbah country.. and even though his jokes are the ones that you'll just laugh even though you've seen the movie a hundred times...

and how ironic, when i switched on the BBC tv today, we have hindraf as the highlights of the news...

and another ironic part, in that exact scene, PRamlee as labi said "aku harap PRamlee tu mati masa muda dan cepat2... "
"kenapa?" labu asked
"supaya aku bole kahwin dgn itu saloma... hahahaha"

aint it freaky?

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my aperture snaps in Port Dickson

tangan si kecil mencari makanan dikala bilik yang gelap bertemankan cahaya yang sedikit

cupcakes yg kakfarah buat

joy yg sedang njoy minum air teh bunga or krisentimum tea yg susah nak sebut

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1000wajah.com

orDear all,

1000wajah.com is on a nationwide search for good looking Malaysian females from the age of 18 - 50 to be photographed. The judging is exclusively confined to facial beauty and does not include other parts of the anatomy. The best judged 1000 beautiful faces will then adorn a high pictorial book on commemorating our 50 Year Golden Merdeka Jubilee.
If any of you who are interested or know someone who might be interested please contact me (Dora) at lyricaldj@yahoo.com (phone number takut nak diiklankan sini) for a photography session at their Kelana Jaya office. You can set a date for an appointment even on weekends.

There will be 2 types of photography session

1. individual (approximately 10 pictures)
2. by groups of 4 or 5

The search is on! Come! It'll be fun :)
The website will be officially launched in March 2008.

JOM KORANG?

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my 'small heart'

after one week of semester break, it's back to school. so as usual, mondays i'll b in shah alam. so after not meeting the shah-alamers for quite some time, they had to menghadap Miss Dora semula.. i reached there early (dengan penuh smgt sbb dah gi cuti at PD which i will upload the pix soon) and to my surprise, NONE of my students turned up.... so dah hangin dah ni... at 1045 baru ramai2 dtg... rupanya they finished their class late..

ok, so the results for their test was out.. i arranged the papers according to the highest mark to the lowest mark.. heh heh heh.. suspen sket.. so when i called them, surprisingly, yang budak2 lelaki yang nakal2 yang bnyk ckp scored the highest.. which is not bad..they scored dlm 80% above.. kudos kudos...

so after discussing the test paper's answers, kelas petang, i continued with probability.. so i gave them some exercises as tutorial... so mase nak bincang tu, sume muke toya... and asik2 borak .. and some of them said "miss.. dah la tu.. dah tak larat dah ni... " i was disappointed padahal lagi 2 soalan jer nak habiskan... sigh...

so i said
"ok la thats all for today.. lagi 2 questions tu pandai2 la awak cari jawapan.. dah tak minat blajar, saya dah tak nak paksa... see you next week... " [muka sedih giler ok]

then i heard them desas desusing.... "eh miss merajuk ker... "

"misss.. miss marah ker? jgn la mcmni... " one of them said... mcm drama la pulak..
"its okay.. up to you la nak mcmner. siapa yang berminat nk tau mcmne nak jwb bole jumpa saya"

tiba2 diorg serbu meja depan ramai2...
"miss... bole tak terangkan mcmner.. saya tak phm soalan ni... "

so i started explaining... and they listened attentatively..... then diorg ckp thanks and sorry...
bukan apa, bila cikgu bersemangat nak ajar, and then students mcm malas2... sila lah jaga hati cikgu2 anda... sbb.. nnt cikgu dah takde smgt dah nak ngajar....

kecik hati tau........................... :(

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He says... She says: Part 1

"I'm getting married" That's what she said to me. My heart suddenly stopped. And so was everything around me. like that HEROES drama when every time Hiro stops the time from ticking.

Gosh, this is my best friend for 20 years. Although we dated other people and it may be serious but it was never THAT serious. Well, at least not to a point of tying a knot with someone. And there was. Standing right in front of me. With her eyes blinking and waiting for a respond from me. And all i could think about was.. well, those thoughts in my head..

"Oh my God. Say something!" she said. Almost screaming.

Still no respond from me. And still, she was waiting for me to say something. I mean, who is this guy? Yeah i know him. But i know her better. I've known her much longer.

"Ouch!" she hit my left arm.
"Well??"
"Erm.. yeay! Congratulations...?"

To be continued....

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the poem

The poem i found here

Magician Magician
take me upon your wings and
gently roll the clouds away

I want to count to five
turn around and find myself gone
Fly through the storm
and wake up in the calm

I want some magic to sweep me away
I want some magic to sweep me away...

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my dad's gear box

If only our lives were more like gear boxes. u can easily change gears when you speed up or have the momentum going.. and the best part, go to reverse gear when you overpass a junction. Yes. a junction. a junction in your life, when you're supposed to take a turn at that exact juntion but didn't. maybe you didn't see, maybe you decided not to just yet, maybe you weren't sure of the junction or maybe you just didn't bother to look at the junction.. but in life.. there are no reverse gears.. you can't just decide you wanna make a turn and do a 3-point turn and reverse.. If only.. Life was more like a gear box...

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my discovery

I was online and i saw this on oh!chentaku's myspace...
i have to say, malaysian youth are becoming more and more talented nowadays.. it's getting freaky...

anyways, kudos to estranged who did splendid on AJL.. hopefully malaysians can appreciate more local talents than indonesian singers..

and you have to check out oh!chentaku .. they're unbelievable! also check out other indie artists like meet uncle hussain etc.. [dah lame tak follow.. maklumlah.. our days are over..huhu] if only butterfingers were accepted in the 90s kan.. oh well.. This is oh!chentaku 's single called Polaroid

anyways, this chic rawks! seriously...

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my name

I got this from shaz zain .. check it out yo...

What Dora Means

You are balanced, orderly, and organized. You like your ducks in a row. You are powerful and competent, especially in the workplace. People can see you as stubborn and headstrong. You definitely have a dominant personality. You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life. You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you. At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself. You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something. You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense. You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun. You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

betul ker? ada yg betul ada yg tak betul.. hehehe anyways, mondays.. im in the office sbb budak2 mid term break... and tak ramai org kat office.. and rase sunyi tp lega sbb bnyk kerja dapat disiapkan.... yippiee.. will blog more when i have the momentum going

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