memories : 5th Ramadhan

two years ago, i landed myself on a job as a lecturer. working in a far away land where cars have to stop if cows are crossing the road. something which i would open my eyes widely cause we don't get this view in the city.

after i got my first salary, the treating everyone in the family ritual took place. and i bought a special present for someone special.. i bought a little elmo for an angel..

the angel had his own favourite stuffed animal.. it was a cozy bear, and it looked just nice and cute placed next to him.. the angel would open his eyes widely whenever he hears the song, 'orange' and would give us the warmest smile that would make all the worries go away..

trips to the hospital was something that i would look forward for.. sometimes just sitting next to him and watching him breathe peacefully in deep slumber was the best thing ever..

God blessed our family with an angel.. an angel that brought us joy, he was loved and cared for so dearly.. because he was special.. he was our little angel brought from heaven..

on the 5th of ramadhan, 2 years ago, Allah took this angel..because he was simply special.. he was terlalu istimewa... he was the chosen one.. to be sitting among all the other angels.. and he is just our little angel watching us from above...

Dear Rafiq, you are always in our hearts.. and will never be forgotten. and i know that you would be just as notty, cheeky and cute as your twin cousins, running around our house and playing around.. sometimes when i watch them, i would think of you.. and wished that you could be with us and watch you grow to be a good man.. but you are at the gates of heaven now.. and you are always and always will be.. our little angel.. sent from above... you showed us remarkable strength that lies from within.. you were truly a strong and special baby... we miss you rafiq... and we love you so much.. rest in peace..

Al- fatihah for my late nephew Rafiq Danish Amir.. (he would be almost 3 years old now)...

today, it rained after two hot days. hujan rahmat..