::: another blank page :::: May 2006

>> Monday, May 29, 2006

See.. look at me.. crying for attention... my sister at the back before her tarian at school.. Think i was only 4 years old .. hehe

3 blind mice

Kelly, Dora, Din in front of 405 during Beta week :)

I miss these days.. Everything was less complicated than now

sometimes u feel like u can depend on someone.. but apparently u can't.. so here's to u.. thanks for being such an ass.. when i thought that you were my friend, but i guess i was wrong.. ur juz a sorry ass loser..

ok. so nobody knows this person. i juz felt like saying it.

Silly face Aman :)

>> Thursday, May 25, 2006

Between MSN and YM, personally, I like yahoo better. Because the emoticons are just too cute! with that yellow round face moving about..aww..

But there's this one feature in MSN that YM doesn't have. It's called the 'silly face'. and if you look closely, it kinda looks like my nephew Aman.

Happy birthday

Today is my sister's birthday. Happy birthday yong! :)

What do they call it again?...LDR...?

Today, he called me at around 7.00 pm from his cell phone to tell me that he'll be back late. Usually, he'll come back around 6.00pm to have his lunch (minus the 6 hour difference, so that means 12.00pm in Germany) and goes back to finish his lab. It was a pleasant surprise :) Lately, he's been very super duper ultra mega pixel busy with his labs and lab reports and classes and his studies. But he still finds time to call me. We don't talk as often as we used to. But, there's never a day that we don't hear each other's voice :)

A few weeks ago, on one evening when i had nothing else to do, i googled, "how to survive a long distance relationship". Pathetic ay? And it seems that they have a technical term for it. It's called, LDR which stands for Long Distance Relationship. Funny stuff. But one of the important facts that I learned is that being in a LDR, both needs to understand each other that it takes two to make a LDR work.

Our LDR isn't perfect. Nobody is. I mean, we have our misunderstanding sometimes. However, I find that the misunderstanding that we have is not pointing out who's wrong or right but instead, its a process of understanding and learning more of each other.

But where's the beauty of LDR? The wait? The constant craving of attention? The missing of each other? The IDD phone calls? The memories? What? I guess it's the wait, the constant craving of attention, the missing of each other, the IDD calls and all the sweet memories that makes LDR beautiful on its own..

Those in a LDR, have faith and be strong. If he/she is worth the wait.. You'll know what to do :)

Good one :)

>> Tuesday, May 23, 2006

ROMANCE MATHEMATICS
Smart man + smart woman = romance
Smart man + dumb woman = affair
Dumb man + smart woman = marriage
Dumb man + dumb woman = pregnancy

OFFICE ARITHMETIC
Smart boss + smart employee = profit
Smart boss + dumb employee = production
Dumb boss + smart employee = promotion
Dumb boss + dumb employee = overtime

SHOPPING MATH
A man will pay $2 for a $1 item he needs.
A woman will pay $1 for a $2 item that she doesn't need.

GENERAL EQUATIONS & STATISTICS
A woman worries about the future until she gets a husband.
A man never worries about the future until he gets a wife.
A successful man is one who makes more money than his wife can spend.
A successful woman is one who can find such a man.

HAPPINESS
To be happy with a man, you must understand him a lot and love him a little.
To be happy with a woman, you must love her a lot and not try to understand her at all.

LONGEVITY
Married men live longer than single men do, but married men are a lot more willing to die.

PROPENSITY TO CHANGE
A woman marries a man expecting he will change, but he doesn't.
A man marries a woman expecting that she won't change, and she does.

DISCUSSION TECHNIQUE
A woman has the last word in any argument.
Anything a man says after that is the beginning of a new argument.

HOW TO STOP PEOPLE FROM BUGGING YOU ABOUT GETTING MARRIED
Old aunts used to come up to me at weddings, poking me in the ribs and cackling, telling me, "You're next." They stopped after I started doing the same thing to them at funerals.

I guess people have their limits

>> Monday, May 22, 2006

my friend who was suffering from a terrible on-and-off breakup finally DID break up. i am happy for her, i guess. i know she's depressed. the thought of being with someone for four years and suddenly you're alone, it just gets to you.. sometimes. but loving yourself is much much more fulfilling than loving someone who doesnt love you.

i guess we all have our limits. there's a point in our lives that we just can't deal with it anymore. that's the point when you say, "that's it. i've had it. its over." only to find that all your efforts are left in vain.

sometimes you just wait on something and keep on hoping and hoping. hoping that it'll come. up to a point where u just feel tired of waiting. because everytime you wait, and hope that it'll come, and it doesnt come, you'll wait more. and the longer you wait, the higher your hopes become. and if you find your wait are meaningless, your hopes will be crushed.. that's when you say, "that's it." that's your limit.

Happiness

>> Friday, May 19, 2006

Happiness is a decision you make,
not an emotion you feel ...

I got this at someone else's blog at random and i decided to quote on this one.

I've been happy all this while. I guess it's a decision that I made. Instead of my emotion that was telling me that I was happy. But how do I distinguish between my decision and my emotion? There's a fine line between those two. How do we know that we are happy because we decided to be happy or we simply felt happy?

I guess a simple example could help.

Ikhwan called. Emotions: happy
Somebody who I don't like called. Decision: happy
Watched Grey's Anatomy: Emotions: happy
Stuck in jam: Decision: happy

Ok. Let me rephrase the first paragraph.

My life right now is Alhamdulillah ok. I've been happy all this while. I guess it's a decision I made and my emotions that told me that I will be happy with my decision being happy :)

When you're feeling sad or blue, you have a decision to make. You can change your life for the better. It's all in your mind. So make that decision to be happy today!

The best things in life are free ...oh yeah...I'm in a good mood tonite :)

The best things in life are free :
What Dora thinks that are the best things in her life that are free :)

1. Thinking about him who's staying 10,000 kms away, makes me feel like I'm right there next to him.
2. Sharing sunset
3. The smell of grass after the rain
4. His smile
5. Laughing really hard till you feel like you're stomach's gonna burst
6. Music
7. Time for yourself
8. Love from your loved ones
9. Ideas
10. Hugs and kisses
11. Wisdom
12. Inspiration
13. Strength
14. His scent
15. Silent moments together

Post a comment and share with me what are the best things in your life that are free! :)

Yup. I'm in that good lovey dovey mood tonite.. :)))

GREASE LIGHTNING Part 1

>> Thursday, May 18, 2006

Hi! This is me in at the GREASE poster. Hehe. I really wanted to buy one of those GREASE T-shirts. But it was like RM40! And it was just simple black one.. and it was written GREASE on it. Gosh.
I went with my sister in law, Kak War who treated me on this GREASE musical theathre held at Convention Centre, KL. This was my 25th bday present! cool ay!!
This is the part when they were doing the "Summer Loving" part. tell me more tell me more.. hehehe
This was when they did the "We go together" bit. chang chang chaggity chang shoo-bab.. we always be together.. wawawawooooooo.... hehehe
This is me during the 20 minutes intermission. We got good seats. Even though it was RM70. :)

GREASE LIGHTNING Part 2

Hey this is me again! I took this picture when the intermission was abt to start.
This was when they had the dance at Rydell High. Check out the girl with her feet on the air!
Oh yes! The part when they did "Beauty School Drop Out". They singer was sensational! Very talented i tell ya!
"You better shape up"
The big finale!
The GREASE casts!
Oo okay.. Kak War with GREASE LIGHTNING background!
This is me again.. :)
Bybye GREASE LIGHTNING!

It really blows when you get what you want but you realise that it's not what you wanted at the first place

>> Wednesday, May 17, 2006

The title explains...

What we know, and they don't.. A tribute to women

>> Tuesday, May 16, 2006

When Allah created man, He created woman. Adam and Eve were made in heaven. They were made for each other. Eve was made from Adam's rib. Why did Allah took Adam's rib to create Eve? Of all the parts of his bones, Allah took his ribs?

I love this quote from my English teacher. She said it in one of our 'perhimpunan's on one of the Monday mornings. I shall remember this forever:-

When Allah created man, he also created woman.. and a woman was made from a man’s rib.. Because that’s where a woman belongs.. to a man’s rib.. under his arms to be protected.. above his feet to be respected.. and close to his heart to be loved..

Among many things that they say about women, it's undeniable that women are stronger than what men think. I mean, women can't lift a tonne of bricks, but Allah has created women having the strength that men cannot bear. Men don't know what it's like to have every month's period and having to bear the PMS. They cannot understand how strong yet delicate we are in struggling at work to be make known that women can do it, and sometimes does it better. That we have to work 5 times harder to make it in this world today simply because of the so-called-world says that men are better than women.

The saddest part is that when women are carrying their baby while the men go out to work, the men complain about being tired and go on and on about how they are the so-called-sole provider of the family. But hey, who's carrying that 4 kg baby around everyday and still don't complain? And not to mention the sagging breasts due to the raging hormones. Women still can cook, do house chores, go to work, clean the house, mop the floor and occassionally have 'night-activities', and we can still wake up the next morning to make breakfast. Why can we do it? Because we are women.

Please appreciate your mothers out there. They go through a deal to make you who you are today.

Husbands, please appreciate your wife. Guys who have girlfriend out there, if you really think that she's the one, please treat her nice.. And don't take her for granted.. Because a real man would know what's a women's worth..

Ladies, never let anyone make you feel like you don't deserve what you have. You are worth much more than you think. Because Allah made women that upholds strength and delicacy.. An impeccable combination

Something about numbers...

In one of the episodes of NUMB3RS,

Charlie Eppes: Larry, something went wrong, and I don't know what, and now it's like I can't even think.

Dr. Larry Fleinhardt: Well, let me guess: you tried to solve a problem involving human behavior, and it blew up in your face.

Charlie Eppes: Yeah, pretty much.

Dr. Larry Fleinhardt: Okay, well, Charles, you are a mathematician, you're always looking for the elegant solution. Human behavior is rarely, if ever, elegant. The universe is full of these odd bumps and twists. You know, perhaps you need to make your equation less elegant, more complicated; less precise, more descriptive. It's not going to be as pretty, but it might work a little bit better. Charlie, when you're working on human problems, there's going to be pain and disappointment. You gotta ask yourself, is it worth it?

Yep he's right. After much disappointment of not getting into Medical School (which I am thankful for), I found my path, and am still working on it. I know I'm not that smart in Maths, I like things to be certain and explainable.

When you work with numbers or trying to prove or solve a problem, there are guidelines and theories to support your work. And you can explain and understand the logic behind the explanation. If it can't be expressed mathematically, it's not a fact, but opinion. We all know that different people have different opinion and everyone has the right to their own opinion.

However, working with human problems is a whole different story. I didn't take any psychology paper (but my sister is doing her post grad is psychology..sheesh), but when you're studying the human behavior, you're proving more elusive than expected. Why? Because everyone is unique and the theories and philosophies doesn't always fit the person. We are all different in our thinking, our environment, education and beliefs.

For instance, take a human problem, say, being unfaithful in a relationship. You see, if you have experienced a relationship whereby your partner was unfaithful to you, when you move on in another relationship, there's a big possibility that you'll be more careful in choosing your partner or trusting him or her. But how fair is it to the new person in your life? He/ She may not have any intention of being unfaithful to you, but because you have that one bad experience, you sorta not trust him/ her truly. It's a sad theory. And the inequality degree of trustness cannot be explained through universal theories. The logic behind it is fuzzy and reasons are left dangling.

Now I understand what Dr. Larry Fleinhardt meant when he said when working on human problems, there's gonna be pain and disappointment. And I guess we need to ask ourselves sometimes, is it worth it..? You know the answer.

Ever tried googling yourself?

>> Monday, May 15, 2006

On one of the fine boring days at home, I tried googling myself.. Try it.. It's fun!

Ok, so I'm just blogging this, just for the sake of blogging.. I have things to write but why am i so darn lazy to write it? what's wrong with me? Is it the yawning? maybe it is.. finally im able to sleep well again.. like normal people do.. you know, the usual 12 - 6 sleep? like, those kinds...? ever been there?

but this whole googling yourself thing, you should really try it.. you never know.. who might be writing about you, in their blogs.. and one day you discover that there's a total psycho who writes every single thing about what you do, where you eat and where's your favourite hangout and stuff... really.. do it.. now.......

Cakes, Dinner, MP3 player, Shoes and GREASE LIGHTNING!

>> Saturday, May 13, 2006

I'm 25. The feeling is great. Though many people may say, "Sigh.. I'm 25." But it's okay for me I guess..
I got a really cool MP3 player from Ikhwan for my 25 birthday present. He had it posted from Ireland last month! The Creative Zen Microphoto.. and I only got the chance to use it today.. long story.. but yay!
My family took me out for Chinese Dinner at KGNS.. Nyummy.. It's been a while since all 12 of us go out for dinner together.. and everybody was around this time.. I'm really happy that everybody came :) though I was unwell during my bday.. I was on the bed most of the time.. :( had flew.. but all the birthday wishes made me happy :)
Yesterday, I went to Lot 10 to get our GREASE tix.. my brother and sis in law is treating me for GREASE the musical! how cool is that???!!! and i got myself some GREASY shoes to go with it.. I just couldnt resist those VINCCI shoes.. It's my first pink color shoes.. I had a pink shoe once.. when i was 6 i think.. :) now i'm 25.. :)

It's great being 25 :)

Sometimes you just have there and then.. and it just slips out... just like that

2 nights ago, I had a terrible insomnia attack.. I couldnt even yawn.. Even when I tried, I couldn't.. And I thought, that was it... I hadn't had insomnia since... since 8 months ago i guess.. The last time I had it was in September.. And I told Ikhwan about it..

It's crazy when u think about so many things when you're having insomnia..And somehow all the ideas started to flow.. like water coming out from pipe.. and all i did was lay down on my bed... and just think.. think and think and think and think.. till i think i thought about almost everything.. i think.. almost everything... up to the point where i think about when are the times, when i can think more.. while doing something..for instance, i think about stuff during im doing these three things:-
1. washing my car
2. washing my clothes
3. washing the plates

and i thought, washing is the best time to think.. for me that is..

when you're washing, the work is being done physically. my dad always say, jangan rugi2 kan ur energy. while you're exercising ur physical movement, your mind must exercise too..
i used to do my thinking when i jog.. cause what else can u do while u jog? you cant read.. you definately cant wash ur car..

you see, why am i writing all this? its because i had sooooo many things to write.. but its just gone.. just like that..

im amazed that one incident, can get you thinking all night.. and one incident can make all the thinking gone...

its something like magic.. so people call it love.. or hate or wisdom.. i dunno.. wicked...

The Insomnia Attack

>> Friday, May 12, 2006

The last time I remember having insomnia was exactly about 8 months ago. That's when I decided to change my bed position (just trying the feng shui deal). So last night, after many many many nights of good sleep, i was sleeples... and i'm talking really SLEEPLESS. I didnt even yawn, I couldnt! even when i forced myself to yawn... I couldnt!

So I was thinking, this is crazy.. This must be one of those nights.. where u just.. CANT SLEEP..
Ok, so I'll continue in the next blog...

All of a sudden... I'm out of ideas

>> Wednesday, May 10, 2006

I'm out of ideas.. I don't have any ideas on what to write anymore. I think it's because I don't go out that much nowadays.. It sometimes happen to me.. I guess.. This really blows.... Going out today.. for a movie..

Some of the greatest quotes about LOVE

I hold it true, whate'er befall; I feel it, when I sorrow most; 'Tis better to have loved and lost Than never to have loved at all. - Alfred Tennyson

Love at first sight is easy to understand; it's when two people have been looking at each other for a lifetime that it becomes a miracle. - Amy Bloom

Love never dies a natural death. It dies because we don't know how to replenish its source. It dies of blindness and errors and betrayals. It dies of illness and wounds; it dies of weariness, of witherings, of tarnishings. - Anais Nin

The heart has its reasons which reason knows not of. - Blaise Pascal

Why love if losing hurts so much? We love to know that we are not alone. - C.S Lewis

Friendship marks a life even more deeply than love. Love risks degenerating into obsession, friendship is never anything but sharing. - Elie Wiesel

It is not a lack of love, but a lack of friendship that makes unhappy marriages. - Friedrich Nietzsche

To be trusted is a greater compliment than to be loved. - George Macdonald

There is only one happiness in life, to love and be loved. - George Sand

Love is only half the illusion; the lover, but not his love, is deceived. - George Santayana

If I know what love is, it is because of you. - Herman Hesse

I think we dream so we don't have to be apart so long. If we're in each others dreams, we can be together all the time. - Calvin & Hobbes

Love is a promise, love is a souvenir, once given never forgotten, never let it disappear. - John Lennon

Love vanquishes time. To lovers, a moment can be eternity, eternity can be the tick of a clock. - Mary Parrish

Where there is love there is life. - Gandhi

The best love affairs are those we never had. - Norman Lindsay

Do you love me because I'm beautiful, or am I am beautiful because you love me? - Oscar Hammerstein

The first duty of love is to listen. - Paul Tillish

I love you
Not only for what you are
But for what I am
When I am with you - Roy Croft ** My personal favourite :)

Those who love deeply never grow old; they may die of old age, but they die young. - Sir Arthur Pinero

Where there is love, there is pain. - Spanish Proverb

Love all, trust a few. - Shakespeare

Here's the thing..again

>> Tuesday, May 09, 2006

I know, it's hard. People deserve a second chance. But the thing is, love yourself. Love yourself so that you won't be betrayed by the one that you love. My sister always say, If that person betrays you once, it's his/her fault. But if that person betrays you twice, it's your fault that you trusted him/her too much up to the point that he/she betrays you again.

Never let anyone make you feel like you are second best. You are worth much more than that. Every one is unique. Every one deserves to be loved. Everyone deserves to feel that special feeling when you are in love. That feeling is priceless. And never let anybody put a price on you because you are priceless. Love is a wonderful feeling. There's no amount of money can buy that feeling.

Here's the thing..

Ok. I've been in that state, you know, the state that you feel like you can't live without him. And you feel like there's no one else who would want to be with you if you let him go.

Yes I know. It feels real. The feeling is real. Love is a big risk. It's like giving your heart away to someone who may or may not love you as much as you love him. You're lucky if he loves you back. You're even luckier if he loves you even more. But what if you're not lucky? What if he doesn't love you. Or he thinks that he loves you but he's not that in to you? How do you deal with that?

It's sad. Some people become depressed. They go out, have a drink, try to do all sorts of crazy stuff. Because they have an excuse. They are depressed. Some people take it calmly. They just move on. Though their hearts may be broken, but they manage to heal by themselves.

I used to believe in the saying, "If you love someone, let him go. If he's comes back, he's yours. If he doesn't, he never was yours to begin with". Yes. I used to believe in this. But how fair is it? If you let him go, he will feel unwanted. He will feel hurt. Is it fair to hurt the one that you love? And if he comes back, what if he does the same to you? One day, he suddenly decides to let you go? How would you feel? You'll feel unwanted. You'll feel hurt. And will you go running back to him? All the pain and misery that both of you felt, is it worth it?

I am a believer. I believe that love will find its way. And sometimes love will find its way out. If someone stopped loving you, that simply means, love is trying to find its way out. It gives reasons not to see you, not to talk to you. It can change someone drastically.

I believe that if you love someone, I mean truly love someone, hold on to him/her. And never let go. Because when someone gives you his/her heart, it means he/she trusts you. He regards you as his half. And if you let go, it would mean that you're rejecting his/her heart. And the heart will be broken. Once a heart is broken, it takes time to put it back into pieces.

If you love someone, don't let him go. Hold on to him. And if he loves you as much as you love him, he'll never let you go. That's love...

It takes more than that...Part 2

>> Monday, May 08, 2006

So the other day, my fren called me but she couldnt talk.. She was crying so hard till she couldnt say a word.. So I asked her to come over to my place so that we can talk..

The next day, she came over.. And told me that she hasnt been seeing her boyfriend for months.. And he has been giving her 'coldplay' ever since he started work. He'd always give reasons that he's meeting his friends and he has activities with his school and everything.

We got to talking about this issue and she decided to see him to ask about their status. What did she get? When she went to meet him, all he did was SMS with his 'friend' and ignored her. My friend had travelled from Sunway to Gombak to see him, and he gives her shit.

As she wanted to open her mouth to start a conversation, he says, "What time do you wanna go back? I have something else to do".. SICK I tell u!

My friend said its okay.. and she took off.. Later that night, she SMSed him and wrote, "I feel that you don't love me anymore.. what happened to us?" and he replied, "im busy. can we talk about this issue later?"

So i told her to move on. I bluntly said to my friend, HE DOESNT LOVE U ANYMORE. but she said, she loves him.. and he loves her too.. only that his love is not as great as hers..

And then, i got to thinking.. when you love someone.. do you love that person, give that person hope, and crush it to million of pieces? and just leave that person you so-called-love hanging without any explanation watsoever? Is that love? I mean, really? Is THAT LOVE?

Love is not just love. Love comes with commitments, understanding and tolak ansur (what is it in English again?) TOLERANCE.

That's the story that I want to share about my friend.. If only there's a way to help her out... To make her see that love is beautiful.. love doesnt mean misery and sadness..

It takes more than that...

One of my friends is having a hard time trying to deal with her so-called-soon-to-be break up. You see, she has been with this guy for the past 4 years and they were really close in college. They went out almost everynight, studied together at the library and they were happy. After graduation, my friend went back to her hometown as she got her first job. The guy was still jobless.. Those days, it was hard to get a job if you're a fresh graduate. So I think the guy felt a bit challenged, so he seldom call her, seldom go and meet her.. His reasons were, he didn't have any money and he didn't feel right that the girlfriend had to fork out money whenever they'd go out. Several months had passed, finally, he got a job. So, my friend was thrilled! She felt like things would go back as it was before. She got a job here in KL, so did her boyfriend. But I guess, things weren't that smooth. The guy seldom give reasons not to see her.. Busy with this, busy with that, meeting his friends, watching football and stuff.

So as a girl, we would want some attention from our boyfriends right? She felt lonely. She got what she wanted, (him being in KL) but I guess, that's not what she really wanted. 4 months had passed, they never meet or go out as normal couples would do on weekends. I though, there must be something wrong with this picture. I mean, who does that?

I'll continue in the next blog...

Taurus and Cancer in love

>> Sunday, May 07, 2006

When Taurus and Cancer come together in a love affair, it's usually a very good combination. They are two positions apart within the Zodiac, and such Signs tend to share karmic ties and a deep mutual understanding. These particular two Signs have much in common: Both prize security in a love relationship above almost all else; both tend to be nurturers (Cancer is emotionally nurturing while Taurus loves to spoil their lover with sensual delights, gifts and good, rich meals). They're both quite domestic and love a quiet night spent at home with their sweetie.
The Taurus-Cancer partnership tends to be a happy one due to this mutual enjoyment of the security and comfort of home. They love a solid home base, a strong relationship, nice possessions, good food: all the comforts of domestic life. Theirs is often the ideal family that people of other Signs strive for, with strong ties between them and a relationship that is family-oriented rather than toward the outside world. Their only major problems arise when Taurus insists on having its own way and Cancer responds by sulking. Taurus must understand Cancer's emotional sensitivity, and Cancer needs rely on open, honest communication than on emotional blackmail.
Taurus is ruled by Venus (Love) and Cancer is ruled by the Moon (Emotions). Both of these celestial bodies vibrate with feminine energy. Cancer often keeps emotions bottled up and simmering inside, which can lead to occasional boil-overs. Thus, Cancer is attracted to Taurus's open, honest, unafraid nature. As the Moon controls the tides of the Earth, quietly affecting all life, so does Cancer, manipulating behind the scenes. Cancer tends to be sentimental, and both partners prefer to enjoy each other rather than socializing with large groups.
Taurus is an Earth Sign and Cancer is a Water Sign. Water and Earth are compatible as tangible, physical entities. As a Water Sign, Cancer is born to nurture an Earth Sign like Taurus the way rain nurtures Earth and helps crops grow. In turn, Taurus tends to have a more stable view of life than does Cancer and is less prone to emotional turmoil; therefore, Taurus can help Cancer stabilize their tumultuous feelings. Both Signs must be careful in this relationship, however: Taurus may tire of Cancer's mood swings, and Cancer may in turn feel that Taurus is insensitive to their needs.
Taurus is a Fixed Sign and Cancer is a Cardinal Sign. Taurus has Fixed habits; they won't change an opinion once it's formed. This can provide Cancer with an emotional rock, as Taurus is entirely dedicated to the relationship. In turn, Cancer can bring new inspiration to the relationship and start new projects that Taurus will enjoy taking over later.
What's the best aspect of the Taurus-Cancer relationships? The steady, reliable team they make. Both Signs are dependable and nurturing, strongly oriented toward domestic life together. A mutual love of home and security makes theirs an ideal long-term, family relationship.

Life is Beautiful - the movie

A Must See Romantic-Comedy

It's 1939. The ebullient, playful Guido comes to town. He works as a waiter under his uncle's eye, an elegant man who is also a Jew. Guido falls for Dora, a schoolteacher, whom he calls "princess" and courts by popping up at unexpected times. She dumps her fiancé to choose Guido. The film jumps ahead to the last months of the war. Dora and Guido have a child, Giosué, and when Guido and the lad are shipped to a concentration camp, Dora voluntarily follows. Although the men and women in the camp are separated and a child is in mortal peril, Guido finds ways to communicate with Dora, to hide Giosué, and to convince him this is an elaborate game, a special contest to win a tank.

Mya turns 5.. she waits for that one shooting star....

Mya sits by the window sill in her room.. waiting for midnight.. She hears the grandfather clock. It’s midnight, and she waits for that one shooting star to pass by.. Her eyes gazes into the blue sky, which seems bright from the moon and stars at night..

Mya waits by the window sill.. for that one shooting star that promised her it will come and grant her birthday wish...

Mya turns 5 today.. She is happy that she can finally count her age with all of her small five fingers.. Mya is happy because she believes in fairy tales that once you are five, a shooting star will come and make your wishes come true…

Mya wishes to be a Princess and meet her Prince.. and live in a beautiful castle on top of the hill..

Mya waits by the window sill.. waiting for that one shooting star… Hoping and waiting for the one shooting star to come and grant her wishes…

Mya waits and waits…She closes her eyes and says to the sky,

“I’m wishing on a wishing star so that my wishes can come true
I’m wishing on a wishing star so that I can see you”

Mya waits and waits… for that one wishing star to make her wishes come true…

Cinderella...

This is Cinderella.. My niece wants to be like Cinderella... Her name is Nur Izzah...

I'd love to become a photographer like Julia Roberts in Stepmom

>> Wednesday, May 03, 2006

Was the movie Stepmom? I think so.. Well, here's the thing, I have developed this strange interest in photography. If I have enough money, I'm gonna buy myself those really big digital cameras, like the ones that cameraman uses at a wedding ceremony.. Maybe I can do it part time? Since I've always been assigned to take pictures at weddings.. cause I'm not shy to go and snap pictures up close and personal... :)

I love this snapshot.. It was taken using my cameraphone.. But I love the angle and the light.
This is Aidil's (Niza's husband) Mitsubishi Lancer EVO VI.

There are just some things that I do not understand...

After lunch, I watched a little bit of Buletin 1.30. And the Parliament were discussing about the most expensive car plat number JJJ 1 is valued at RM 150,000.00. They were questioning about where the money went and why is it valued at such.

And all while I was thinking, we have bigger problems here in the country. We're talking about the Shashi Gangs, premarital sex, snatchers, ah-longs, mobs, poverty.. and they're arguing about car plat numbers? What's wrong with them? I mean, really....?

The most inappropriate name for a place in Malaysia

My history teacher once asked.. what is the most inappropriate name for a place in malaysia, but they still have not changed it till today?

That's your answer guys ;)

pictures of us...

>> Tuesday, May 02, 2006

I know I know.. I have nothing else to do.. I'll be updating my blog quite frequently since I'm on a 2 months break..

To celebrate my 8th month being with Ikhwan, here are some photos.. I know.. this is sooo poyo..but I don't care.. I miss him soo much... :( [gambar didelete untuk merahsiakan identiti] :p

This picture was taken on 11th September 2005, this is the 2nd picture Ikhwan took of me standing by the putrajaya bridge.. the first picture that he took, i had my eyes closed.. hehe..
at that time malu malu la konon.. segan nak amik gambar.. i was afraid that if later he looked at the picture, he might realise that i'm not that pretty and change his mind.. hehe.. but he's not like that at all :)

Love his hazel eyes.... :)

We had our first picnic at tasik titiwangsa where we shared pizza. it was a lot of fun. I brought our school magazine and we laughed our heart out when we saw our pictures when we were in form 4.. funny.. after that, we watched the sunset together for the first time.. i took my glasses off cause i didnt want him to see me with my nerdy glasses :( then he held my hands and we walked back towards 'Angelina' (his car).. it was the best picnic ever!

I took this picture with both of my hands.. this is what i like to call.. the heavenly picture.. to those of you who are in cloud 9.. silalah pergi ke botanical garden around 5ish and take loads of pictures.. with your boyfriendla of course.. :)

I remember the first time we held hands.. it was so sweet.. :) teringat la pulak.. damn.. i miss him.. :(

Never let go...

Ooo okay... after the photo session at botanical garden... we decided to take some pictures with Angelina.. and this picture was taken senget because we used some guy's iswara to put the digital camera on it.. hehe.. i like this one too... :)

And at last.. this is me with my favourite red sweater.. this time was the 'baru je buang barang lama' ritual... :) i love u ikhwan.. and i miss u soo much...

Fear

>> Monday, May 01, 2006

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate, our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure ...as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others. "

Nelson Mandela's 1994 Inaugural Address.

As you brighten your own strengths, and honor the strengths of others, you develop character and build community.

This is why some people don't succeed in business

Everytime I go to Sg.Wang or Low Yat, there's a story to tell. Usually, a bad one.. I have experienced a lot of things with different people and different sales person.

A few months back, I bought a laptop at a computer fair in KL Convention Centre. This Malay salesguy was very persuasive and I caved in. I bought this Acer AMD using my credit card as I needed it to do my project and assignments for my postgraduate. To my surprise, I couldn't use my USB port. I had to connect it to a USB hub whenever I needed to connect my pendrive or my printer or to upload pictures from my digital camera. I still could tolerate that. And I thought, well, as long as I can still use it, its okay.

But since Ikhwan bought for me my MP3 player for my birthday present, I couldn't use a USB hub to connect it as it'll make the transfer slower and I was afraid that it could spoil my mp3 player. So I decided to go to meet the guy that sold me this laptop. And since it's still under warranty, I figured that any problems, they can still fix it without any cost.

As usual, he was promising. I had asked for a receipt but he didnt give me. He was rather distracted when I approached him. Talking on the phone with his girlfriend, yuck! He told me that it'll b ready by 6.00.. I came back and 6.30 only to find out that he hasnt even started doing what he was supposed to do!

All the mocking and swearing was in my head, and he said, it'll take about another 15 minutes. So fine. It's okay.. Another 15 minutes wouldnt hurt.. I waited till it was almost and hour!

And what did I find out? He had send my laptop to another shop to fix it! And on top of that, I had to pay RM40.00!

I was very upset. And this is why:-

1. He had promised that he could finish the work in 1 hour or at most 1 hour and 30 minutes.
He had not delivered his promise. I don't mind if it took him 2 days, he could've told me upfront that it might take awhile rather than give me promises.

2. When I came back at 6, he hasn't even started yet and when he accused me that it was MY fault as I had assigned a password on my laptop.. HEllo??? He could've asked me upfront for my password. HE saw me typing my password, why didn't he asked me?

3. When I asked him why he didn't asked me, he said he could not contact me. HE COULD'VE ASKED FOR MY NUMBER! THAT'S WHY I ASKED FOR A RECEIPT OR SOME ACKNOWLEDGMENT SO THAT I CAN WRITE MY PARTICULARS IN THEM.

4. He had the guts to yell at us (me and azlina) saying that it's all our fault. And he asked is RM40 too expensive? He said, we weren't thankful that he had helped us.

Well, he didn't deserve our thankyous.. because he didnt even have the decency to apologize. This is one sick bastard with an ego as thick as the great wall of china.

We would've cooled off if he had said sorry. or admit that it was his fault instead of putting the blame on us. He just lost himself a customer..

You see, this is why some people don't succeed in business. If he keeps on with that attitude, I won't be surprised if his shop goes bankrupt.

It don't want to be racist. But its really sad, when you want to help your own skincolor, and it turns out shitty. They don't know that the customer is always right. And I swear that I will never ever go to his shop again. And if I happen to passby his shop and I see a few customers, I'll warn them about their rude customer service policy.

Song beneath a song

I downloaded this song from Maria Taylor. It's called Song beneath a song. It's from Grey's Anatomy soundtrack. The lyrics are really cool. If you get the chance, go download this song k? Very mellow kinda soothing kinda relaxing song..

Maria Taylor - Song Beneath The Song

Cryptic words meander
Now there is a song beneath the song
One day you'll learn
You'll soon discern
its true meaning

An interesting detachment
A listless poem of love sincere
Desire, despair
Overlapping melodies

And it's not a love,
it's not a love
It's not a love,
it's not a love song
It's not a love,
it's not a love,
it's not a love song
It's not a love,
it's not a love,
it's not a love song

Oh now the roots are reminiscing
Recurring dreams of minor chords
Metred time
Muted chimes find the beat
And in the pulse there lies conviction
A steady push and pull routine
The cymbals swell
High notes flail into reach

April has ended...

The month of April has been truly challenging for me. I had my finals for my first semester of my postgraduate program. Though I love what I'm doing right now, there's no doubt that I have to work my asses off to excel in this.. Hoping for the best InsyaAllah.After my exams, I took the liberty of spending time with my cute little nephew Arman Afiq who usually follows me everywhere I go.. and sometimes hang on my feet whenever I walk around the house. I really hated the fact that I had to sacrifice the time spend with my family but its for the best and I know they understand that I had to do it for my future..So for the 2 days that I was at home, I took care of Arman and Ashraf, washed my car for 1 hour and 30 minutes, went to Giant and ran some errands.. the usual..On Friday, I hit the road. Destination: Baling Kedah. The trip was ok. the four of us which consist of me, azah, shaz and michelle was refreshing. I needed the time to get out from my comfort zone and hung out with my friends.. Kedah was as usual, hot and damn hot.. Baling was ok.. We got the "OO.. orang bandar ni.." look cause me and shaz didnt look like we belonged there.. Niza's akad nikah went well alhamdulillah.. the now mrs.aidil is having the terengganu ceremony as i type..one of the things that i love about kedah is the slang.. and the friendliness of the people in the pekan..we took some pictures of the negeri jelapang padi..it was gorgeous..and we went to lata bayou..i wish we had more time to spend there.. i'd love to jump in the air terjun and swim my heart out..but time was jealous of us..the journey back was also refreshing.. we talked alot abt things that i think 25 year old would talk nowadays..

the ones that aren't married yet..tinggallah kami kami jer...dora, shaz, michelle and azah
After the akad nikah..niza's mother, niza and aidil's mother berdoa syukur alhamdulillah