Goodbye 2008

Let's walk through 2008...

January
I joined AVON. I think it was a sudden thingy. It happened in my colleague's car on the way to work when we car pooled and I said this out of a sudden, "Dora rasa mcm nak join AVON la". Everybody looked at me and asked, "Kenapa tiba2 Dora ckp mcm tu?" at that time, they were talking about something else and I wasn't really concentrating. I also had classes in Shah Alam and the students really tested my patience.. But I handled it well alhamdulillah. This month was also the month I experimented a lot with my (actually Ikhwan's) Konika and developed a deep interest in photography. I had a great trip with Adina in Penang when we visited Cikyah and went to my classmate, Rasis' wedding. After testing Cikyah's Canon EOS 400D, in my heart, I knew I will own a DSLR one day :) Oh, I also fell down the stairs and twisted my ankle in Penang. That incident gave me a one week MC. Nice but not so nice you know what I mean ? oh yes, on the way back from penang also I received a call from MSOM. jeng jeng jeng

February
Had a fabulous trip to PD with my family. I discovered that I am not that bad at volleyball. I think that was the only exercise I had where I was sweating like mad. I practised Linda Bryne's The Secret and it worked (you should really read the book).

March
Cikyah came over for our friend's engagement ceremony, Aliza. We had fun la. went to putrajaya for some shots. At the end of the month, something personal happened. Rahsia. The Secret la. hehehe. Terkejut, panic, excited, happy and met with Sheri, talked to Nadia, Azlina, Adina and sesiapa yang pernah melaluinya. hehe.

April
I met with my Morrie, sorta like my mentor. He said something to me that really hit me hard. And I became very motivated to further my studies. InsyaAllah I will resume when everything is more settled.. I also discovered things about myself that I do not want to know just yet. Sometimes I can't believe or I try not to think about it that much. anyhoo, went to PD again for a course and after coming back from the course, I had the opportunity to go to APM at KLCC convec. This was really cool since I managed to attend the afterparty and the after-after party. Took pictures with Ashraf Sinclair and BCL, Kris Dayanti, talked to Faizal Tahir (really cool guy), snapped pics with Nasha Aziz (gorgeous ok), and some other artists..

May
I turned 2* on the 6th. My students sang Happy Birthday very loudly in my room. It made me wanna cry tp control2.. my family gave me a surprise party at Sri Thai (sebenarnya nak celebrate mother's day and also belanja my family lps dpt bonus), I got an engraved Sheaffer pen for my bday present..really nice :) and last but never the least, as a bday gift from my MSO, a Canon EOS 400D DSLR.. :) [tq BB]

June
June was a very busy month for me. Mostly work related due to the short sem and I taught the Degree students in Shah Alam branch.

July
Was also busy playing and experimenting with my DSLR. Went to UIA for some night shots.. Interesting :) And also tied up with mostly work related stuff

August
Semester starts. I have one foreign student from Sudan. And he was my 2nd foreign students. The previous semester was an indonesian student. Ngapa kamu ngomong2 aja ? Kamu ngerti ngak?? So to make him feel welcomed here, I took the liberty to change my image abit. Pakai la tudung lilit2, learned some arabic phrases and also learned some statistical terms in arabic. But due to the language barrier, he just passed jer. But he was really nice and hardworking. I wish and pray that he will succeed in his studies. August was also the month MSO came back from Germany (woohoo), so banyak dating la.. hehehe talking, movies and hanging out.. This was also a meaningful month for me, especially on Nisfu Syaa'ban :)

September
Ramadhan went by so fast. It was at first really hard coping up with the LDR thingy after a wonderful month. But as usual, we got through it slowly alhamdulillah.

October
Raya :) as usual, the sounds of takbir will always make me feel sebak. we visited our relatives and lotsa open houses this year.. I took this opportunity to snap lotsa pictures with my DSLR. I got RM 200 for my duit raya this year hehehehe.

November
Was a busy month for me

December
I was not so busy. But I had that MQA thingy to finish up. Lotsa public holidays. And I also had a fabulous trip and went shopping like mad. (almost mad).

Overall, 2008 has been a great year. A lot of things happen. Good, medium and also bad.
A very important lesson I learned this year is that I should trust only the people I truly trust. You see, I do not like to think bad about a person. But then, my parents always tell me. Not everybody thinks the way you do (I am very naive). I realized that there are people who might envy you.. or even worse, be jealous of you... sigh~~ And I should really select the ones I truly trust to share my stories. I learned that I should be aware of the evil eyes lurking around. I realized who my TRUE friends are.. The ones who stood by me through thick and thin, the ones who felt my sadness, shared my happiness :)

So, goodbye 2008.. it has been a great year, alhamdulillah

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chitchat and news

The talk with my sis in law kakwar made me think for abit while driving back from her house.

Kakwar : Rasa tak mcm esok 2009 ?
Dora : hmm.. tak sgt
Kakwar : kan ? nape yer ? kak war rase mcm its just another day..
Dora : hmm maybe sbb last year kita buat barbeque kot.. this year tak buat.. so mcm tak rase..
Kakwar : tak jugak.. last year lagi 2 - 3 hari nak masuk 2008 rase mcm nak tukar tahun.. this year mcm.. ntah..
Dora : sama la.. dora pun actually tak rase sgt..

Newsflash.

NEWS 1
I joined AVON as a modest agent.. and today, I am already a member of their Golden Circle. (Jom ramai - ramai say it .... Wow!) ok, what on earth is a Golden Circle ? I have no idea. I guess more benefits kot ? heheh initially I joined AVON because I fell in love with their liquid eyeliner (serious kena try.. i haven't tried anything like it. lembut and almost perfect).


NEWS 2
I will be teaching 20 credit hours next semester. Berat gak. But I am thankful and I was the one who requested it. financial reasons :)

NEWS 3
Esok new year.. so since Sheri and Cikyah and other fellow bloggers wrote down their resolution, I intend to write mine too.. Check it out at my next post ok ? :)

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dilemma cikgu

10.19 am :Askum, selamat pagi miss. Saya _____. Miss jam berapa saya dapat jumpa miss petang ni? Sekarang saya di UNI____

12.32 pm : Miss saya datang kul 2ptg lepas solat zohor.


Dora: So, why u wanna see me?
Student : takde miss.. sy igt nak up kan gred saya..
Dora : ?? Upkan gred ?
Student : Haah miss.. pointer saya 1.93.. jadi saya tak dpt ptptn
Dora : (Geleng kepala) Kita kat sini ada prosedur.... bla bla bla [menerangkan prosedur dgn penuh tegas]

Kesimpulannya, pjg citer. Yang masak nya, at the end of the meeting. I basuh dia habis2an.

"Next time, u ada problem dgn studies, jumpa lecturer awal2. If u jumpa I awal semester, I can guide u, give u extra lessons. extra exercises. ajar sampai u bole. u tak jmpa i, mana i nak tau."

"saya ada masalah lain miss. susah"

"sekarang masalah awak lagi bertambah sbb sikap awak tu. jgn jadikan semua tu alasan. kalau teruskan mcm ni, susah nak berjaya. habis tu semua org lain takde masalah? orang yang ada masalah tak bole jumpa saya ke?"

"takpelah miss. saya rase saya berenti je lah belajar"

"ikhtiar cara lain. tanggungjawab saya utk mengajar awak dah selesai. saya dah tolong sehabis mungkin. jgn give up begitu saja"

"tima kasih miss" [muka sedih]

2.37 pm : Askum, terima kasih miss maybe saya tak dpt lanjutkan pelajaran saya sebab masalah kewangan saya miss. Saya dr ____ tiada keluarga d sini miss. Saya bergantung pada PTPTN saja miss. Itu saja sumber kewangan saya miss. Askum

2.52 pm : Ikhtiar cara lain. Jgn jadikan semua tu alasan untuk berhenti belajar.

3.02 pm: Saya dah ikhtiar miss. Saya dah jumpa pun semua lecture.. Masalah kewangan tak da miss nie pun dah berapa saya tak mkn. Untuk saya berjimat cermat. Pun susah mana adik2 saya terpaksa saya tanggung kerja part time.. Mcm mane sy nak belajar lau tiada sumber kewangan saya.

3.10pm : Saya tak tahu miss masa depan saya kt mane skrg nie.. sy betul2 mahu belajar miss..

3.14 pm : Saya betul2 mahu blajar miss..

cikgu marah.
cikgu penah kantoi dia bersama gf dia bercakap dlm test.
cikgu dah potong markah dia dah gf dia sebab meniru
gf dia menangis2 merayu.
cikgu suruh buat surat pengakuan.
cikgu penah nmpk dia dating bersama gf (ada lak mase?)
cikgu marah sbb dia bagi alasan demi alasan. ayahnya baru diberhentikan kerja. anak orang susah. (apparently semua yg buat rayuan, ayahnya diberhentikan kerja. trend mungkin?)
cikgu sedih sbb dia dah tahu dia anak orang susah. kenapa tak struggle ?
cikgu marah sbb dia jadikan alasan demi alasan.
cikgu marah sbb dia tak usaha. tak penah jmpa cikgu.
cikgu marah sbb dah diberi peluang dan tak menggunakan peluang itu sebaik mungkin.
cikgu sedih sbb dia question credibility cikgu sbg seorang cikgu.
cikgu sedih...
cikgu sgt sedih dgn sikap pelajar sekarang yg dengan selambe meminta 'up' kan gred apabila mereka tahu diri mereka itu lemah..

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my new year's eve plan 2009

DJ: so.. are u excited for 2009 ?
MSO: hmmm ...
MSO: i am.. just not yet hehe
MSO: sbb belom 2009
DJ: hehehe ooo ok
DJ: well tomorrow is the last day heheh
MSO: heheh i know
DJ: any plans for new year's eve ?
MSO: hmmm..
MSO: malaysian one.. or here
DJ: u have a malaysian one ?
DJ: tell me the msian one
DJ: first
MSO: malaysian one borak ngan u la kot.. kalau u nak..
DJ: yer ker ......


dual universe time thingy.

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Salam All (unedited)

I'm back from my 1 week trip. I will blog about my trip later..

Mission : Accomplished

Items : You're gonna have to wait next year :)

Photogs : Improved a lot. Lucky I had a lot of practise. The pictures turned out real nice (hehe for me lah)

Summary: SUPERB AND FANTASTIC AND FABULOUS. FANTABULOUSUPERB.

Opps sorry.. I had to do a private viewing thingy. YM me at lyricaldj alias yahoo dot com or email me at ikhwan dot dora alias gmail dot com if u wanna check out the pics..

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last post for 2008

Hello. Salam. Adaab. Guten Tag! Sawadikaap. Konichiwaa.

I have decided to write in English for this post. So how were my BM posts ? Did you all like it ? Or do you prefer me writing in English ? Give your comments ok :)

I will be going for a 1 week holiday starting tomorrow. So I guess this blog will be berspiderwebs till I get back. Tolong tengok tengok kan yer hehe

NOTE TO MSO aka BB :

Bb, take care. Think of me. As I will be thinking of u. ich liebe dich :)

Take care people. Pray for my safe journey.. Hope that my mission will be accomplished for this trip. If I don't blog again for this year, I wish you all Selamat Menyambut Awal Muharam and Happy New Year!

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hari aku berborak dengan Melissa Saila

"Tomorrow we have to get up early. You have to take pictures for 1000wajah "
Itulah kata - kata ayahku sambil aku sedang menonton berita selepas pulang dari kerja semalam. Dalam hatiku berkata Yes! Ada gig! Aku masih mempelajari selok belok fotografi dengan membeli majalah Digital Camera Magazine sekali sekala dan membaca tips tips di lama web DPS.

Seperti biasa sebelum tidur, selepas menepekkan Night Cream ANEW produk AVON, aku akan baring di atas katil samada menonton tv atau membaca novel - novel kegemaranku. Aku masih lagi membaca The Alchemist (Yes, I am a slow reader). Apabila mata hampir tertutup, aku mendapat panggilan jauh dari MSO hampir setiap malam. Kami akan berbual maximum 7 minit kerana khuatir bil telefon akan melonjak naik. Akulah orang pertama dia bercakap ketika dia bangun dan dialah orang terakhir aku akan bercakap sebelum aku tidur. Begitulah kami cope dengan PJJ (perhubungan jarak jauh) ini. Setelah berbual selama 7 minit dan 7 saat (terlebih sedikit kali ini kerana aku menceritakan pengalaman kepala aku terhantuk di tingkap bus ketika perjalanan pulang. cerita aku itu telah membuatkan dia ketawa dengan bersungguh - sungguh. aku turut gembira mendengar tawaannya itu. aku memang kelakar orangnya :p ), mataku sudah pun merasakan berat dan tanpa disedari aku sudah lena tertido. Namun ku rasakan sungguh singkat masa tidur itu. Tepat jam 530 pagi, aku sudah terjaga sebelum jam alarm aku menyanyikan lagu "In The Air" oleh rapper Flo-Rida dan Will-I-Am.

Selesai solat Subuh, aku dah ayahku keluar dari rumah jam 602 am menuju ke UEM Leadership Centre di Jalan Templer, Petaling Jaya. Ternyata Petaling Jaya sungguh berbeza keadaannya ketika penduduknya nyenyak dibuai tidur. Tetapi senario sememangnya meriah di UEM Leadership Centre dengan keadaan kereta staff ditampalkan dengan sticker Boogie Treasure Hunt. Sungguh meriah (teringat pula pengalaman ketika aku bekerja di salah sebuah institusi kewangan). Aku sudah tidak mengantuk apabila mendengar lagu Saturday Nite Fever nyanyian John Travolta. Aku dan ayah berjumpa dengan Official Photographer (OP) 1000wajah untuk event itu dan kami menunggu sesi senamrobik bermula. Itulah tugasanku yang unofficial, iaitu mengambil gambar senamrobik itu. Just for the fun of it and I can gain some experience while experimenting. Sedang kami duduk, tiba - tiba datangnya seorang wanita bertubuh kecil dan berambut pendek, lantas senyum pada kami dan memberikan sedikit briefing. Aku terpegun melihat wanita itu, Melissa Saila rupanya. Aku sangat kagum melihat lakonannya yang hidup di dalam Teater Musikal P.Ramlee. Wataknya sebagai isteri kedua Tan Sri P.Ramlee, Norizan terserlah. Bakat yang diwarisi oleh anak seniwati tersohor Mariani ini telah menerima standing ovation ketika babaknya stormed out meninggalkan P.Ramlee.

Dan disitu, aku hanya mampu dan melihatnya dari jauh. Ingin bergambar, malu pula.

Event sudah hampir bermula, mataku hanya melihat gelagat wanita kecil ini ke sana ke mari memberi arahan kepada crew- crewnya. Tiba - tiba dia menoleh ke arahku dan senyum. Lantas dia jalan ke arahku.. Aku makin berdebar..

"Nanti you ambil gambar dari... hujung sana... sampaaai hujung sana" menunjukkan ke arah hujung dewan. "Sebab diorang nak buat live shoot.. so takut ganggu.. ok?"

"Ooo.. ok ok.." Itu sahaja yang mampu aku katakan.

Inilah hari pertama yang aku berborak... oops.. bercakap dengan Melissa Saila.

* Gambar diatas ketika PRamlee The Musical.
** Gambar di UEM belum diedit.

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Madonna dan Prinsip Bernoulli kah ?

Sakitnya kakiku setelah duduk di dalam bas selama 1 jam setengah dari Batang Berjuntai ke Shah Alam. Tetapi aku telah mengcompensatekan kesakitan itu dengan mendapatkan nap setiap hari apabila pulang. Buka mata, aku sudah berada di Shah Alam. Begitulah rutin harian ku. Dengan bas Wawasan Sutera berwarna gold ala- bas kilang yang membawa Pensyarah - pensyarah serta staff - staff ke tempat kerja, kami pasrah dengan tempat kerja di sempadan Perak. Tidak mengapalah, as long as aku selamat sampai ke destinasi, inilah periuk nasi ku. Aku sudah bersyukur.

Setibanya di Shah Alam, di roundabout Seksyen 2, aku terfikir untuk singgah di McD untuk membeli Properity Burger set, tetapi memandangkan aku memerlukan wang untuk bercuti minggu hadapan, aku batalkan niat itu. Aku membawa speed biasa, 100km/jam di Federal Highway. Jam di tangan menunjukkan 715. Alamak, sempat ke ni? Aku masih di Federal Highway dan rasanya tidak sempat untuk menonton Assalam USA di TV3. Hatiku mula bergetar dan jariku mula menekan 1 [HITZ.FM] di stesyen radio. Lagu Crazy in Love nyanyian Beyonce. Kepalaku cuba mengikuti rentak hip hop lagu itu. Ah! Masih tidak senang. Aku tekan 5 [Light & Easy]. Madonna sedang menyanyikan Holiday. Better. Sesuai dengan mood yang sedang aku layani pada ketika itu. No one can beat Madonna.. No one.

Setelah melalui traffic light di Western Digital, aku berhenti untuk menunggu turn untuk membelok ke kanan setelah melalui Masjid Al-Hidayah di SS3. Kereta di opposite direction sungguh pantas sehinggakan aku rasa gegaran di keretaku apabila berderet - deret kereta lalu dengan laju seolah - olah sedang berlumba di F1.

Aku terpegun seketika memikirkan apa yang telah kurasakan. Mungkinkah ini Prinsip Bernoulli yang diceritakan oleh Cikgu Saidi di kelas Fizik ketika Tingkatan 4.. atau Prinsip lain di dalam Fizik ? Aku tertidur ketika kelas itu.. Malu~

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kiranya benarlah

Semenjak aku memetik tetikus dan singgah ke beberapa blog - blog yang menggunakan bahasa kebangsaan kita, Bahasa Melayu yang cukup puitis dan penuh perfection membuatkan aku terfikir, mengapa tidak berblog menggunakan Bahasa Melayu sahaja ? you know, memartabatkan bahasa kebangsaan kita?"

Aku terfikir sejenak sambil merenung di luar tingkap dan memerhatikan angin tiup sepoi - sepoi bahasa dan sekali sekala cukup kuat untuk menggugurkan dedaun di ranting pokok yang tersusun rapi di sepanjang jalan. situasi ini memberikan gambaran bahawa mungkinkah begini keadaannya di waktu fall atau autumn in New York. Imaginasiku kembali ke negara asal apabila kedengaran azan berkumandang menyahut umat Islam menunaikan ibadah solat Jumaat di masjid. Kelihatan di luar kaum Adam melangkahkan diri menuju ke masjid, sehala dalam satu tujuan, iaitu meninggalkan apa yang sedang dikerjakan untuk menunaikan ibadah.

Begitu indahnya Islam. Sesibuk mana tugasan hairan, pasti meluangkan masa untuk berbicara dengan Allah.

Aku melihat pada nasi bergaulkan lauk ayam dendeng yang dibekalkan oleh mama dari rumah. Alangkah bersyukurnya aku mempunyai ibu yang cukup penyayang, ayah yang cukup caring dan kakak serta abang - abang yang cukup protective. Mama yang kusalute kerana kehebatannya sebagai seorang wanita, ibu, isteri, anak dan nenek yang tidak mengenal erti 'tidak' apabila diminta pertolongan, membesarkan dan mendidik kami berempat agak menjadi insan yang berguna. Papa yang aku hormati kerana kehebatannya sebagai seorang ayah walaupun dalam kesibukannya bekerja di dalam dunia korporat, masa bersama isteri dan anak - anak tidak pernah terabai. Segala perkara tentang kami adik - beradik pasti dikaji dan mencari jalan yang terbaik untuk kami meneruskan cita - cita kami. Thanks Ma and Pa. Adik beradik ku yang selalu menyakat dan membuliku kerana akulah yang bongsu. Segala baju - baju yang tidak muat, pen atau pensil kecil dan comel akan diturunkan padaku kerana "sayang untuk buang, bagi kamu jelah". Dan diriku yang agak sentimental ini akan menyimpan barang - barang itu sehinggakan satu ketika untuk aku mengemas bilik dan mendapati barang - barang dari tahun 80an masih ku simpan sehingga hari ini. Dan mereka bertiga juga akan makan dengan pantas dan meninggalkan aku di dining table sambil menjerit "siapa last, KEMAS!" dan menuju ke bilik masing - masing. Dan mulut aku akan berkumat kamit dengan bebelan yang tidak henti sambil berdiri di atas kerusi membasuh pinggan di singki dapur pada umur yang masih kecil. Namun, di dalam kesusahan, kami pasti menghulurkan bantuan, sokongan dan just be there for each other.. Itulah kami.. Itulah adik beradik ku..

Ku lihat jam di tepi skrin komputer, 154 pm katanya. Pasti MSO sedang berjalan menuju ke train station di Mannheim dan setibanya di Heidelberg akan berjalan pantas menuju ke pejabatnya. Dan terus melaksanakan tugasan untuk hari itu. Dia sangat passionate dengan kerjanya. Tetapi dia tidaklah rajin berblog seperti aku, tidak juga gemar fotografi seperti aku, dan tidak juga suka menonton Hindustan atau chic flick seperti aku. Tergelak kecil di hati ini mengenangkan perbedaan kami. MSO lebih gemarkan perkara berkaitan computer, IT, computer games dan consoles, menggilai football dan hobi di masa lapang adalah bersukan terutamanya bola sepak dan basketball. Namun, kesamaan kami tetap ada. Kami gemar menonton filem, kami gemar bershopping ataupun dia sahaja menemani aku shopping, sering ke kedai kopi bersama sambil berbual tentang isu - isu semasa (domestic dan international), menghabiskan masa di kedai buku sambil membaca buku bidang masing - masing ataupun novel - novel. MSO suka akan koleksi Dan Brown dan John Grisham, sementara aku pula lebih berminat dengan Mitch Albom dan Paolo Coelho. Dalam keadaan yang berjauhan sebanyak 11,000 kilometer kami bermain online games bersama. yang sering menjadi kegemaran adalah literati untuk menguji vocabulary masing - masing. Selalunya, MSO akan mendapat markah tertinggi. Dan alasan aku adalah saja kasi chance tetapi aku tahu Englishnya tidak dinafikan lebih baik berbanding aku. Adakalanya kami berbalas - balas teka teki dan ketawa akan kebo*ohan jawapan pada teka - teki itu.

Dalam jangkamasa jari jemari aku pantas memetik keyboard sambil mata tidak lekang dari skrin komputer dan berblog didalam bahasa kebangsaan ini, aku terfikir, adakah aku memiliki bakat dalam penulisan seperti Paolo Coelho atau Mitch Album? Atau lebih agresif seperti Elizabeth Wurtzel dalam novelnya Prozac Nation berkisarkan wanita yang demented dan obses menggunakan Prozac.

Kiranya benarlah jawapan yang diharap - harapkan pada persoalan itu, maka berikanlah aku idea yang bernas serta kekuatan yang cukup hebat bagi melahirkan sesuatu yang ingin aku lahirkan sejak aku mengenal erti dunia penulisan yang tiada batasannya. Itulah cita - cita yang aku pendam semenjak berumur 13 tahun di mana aku sering menconteng poems pada kulit buku sekolah. Menulis novel - novel Inggeris tentang remaja dan kehidupan yang ku fikir cukup mendalam padaku pada ketika itu, namun bila aku melihat semula, aku hanya menggelengkan kepala sambil ketawa dan berkata pada diriku "what were you thinking Dora? heh". Ada kalanya aku mencuba nasib dan menghantar karyaku ke surat khabar untuk dipublish. Pernah sekali mungkin karyaku menepati kriteria secara minima dan disiarkan di akhbar The Sun. Pada masa itu, kurasakan diri ini sudah seperti seorang penulis hebat. Berjalan bersama pen diselitkan di belakang telinga seolah - olah idea yang keluar dari minda dapat dicatitkan dengan pantas pada kertas buku nota kecil yang sering ku bawa ke mana jua. Melihat Cheryl Samad di dalam cerita Ghost di 8tv mengingatkan kembali impian aku yang ingin menjadi novelist atau journalist. Akan tetapi, apabila membaca blog - blog orang lain yang jauh lebih berbakat dariku membuatkan aku tertelan air liur buat seketika. Mampukah aku bersaing dengan mereka - mereka ini ? Yang bertanggapan we write for passion not for money. Ya, saya juga menulis atas dasar minat tetapi kepuasan itu tidaklah sama seperti melihat nama atau nama pena termaktub pada buku yang dijilid dan diletakkan pada rak - rak buku MPH atau lebih hebat lagi, Kinokuniya atau Borders.

Ku masih berharap dan berdoa agar dapat ku lihat suatu hari hasil karyaku di rak - rak buku di MPH. Dan instead of aku dan MSO mencari buku Mitch Albom atau Dan Brown, kami berlari - lari dan berlumba mencari buku hasil penulisanku (kadang - kadang kami berlari - lari seperti budak - budak sekolah Tingkatan 4. Satu perlakuan yang mungkin janggal dilihat memandangkan umur kami menjangkau hujung 20an tetapi agak seronok juga). Mungkin, pada ketika itu, aku akan mengingat kembali, saat ketika ku menulis blog ini.. dalam bahasa Melayu..

Tetapi tidak salah juga jika menulis di dalam bahasa Inggeris seperti penulis muda yang berbakat, Dina Zaman atau, Dr. Farish Noor.

Kiranya benarlah...

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3 rings

my ex-boss (the cool one) told me when i landed on my second job in human resources department in a certain financial institution.

"the phone must be answered BEFORE 3 rings. remember, we are from the human resources department."

funny that when i called the HR department, it was.. oh well, you know the rest..

anyways, good news that i have 11 days of balance leave that can be forwarded to next year. woohoo! i could use an extra 11 days of leave for next year ;)

"wah, rajinnya Dora mengupdate blog". you might say
yer, saya tengah main kejar - kejar bersama lecturer2 di faculty lain

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wats going down ?

Instead of using "wat's up?" i've decided to use another phrase.. check it out

DJ : Haris
Haris : yer
DJ : wats going down ?
Haris : the economy *badabing*

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my forensic odontologist friend

To Dr. Atika Ashar ,

> my forensic odontologist friend,
> my homeroom mate (Delima A),
> my sistah,
> my rakan sekolah,
> my partner in crime (masa pergi concert The Moffatts 1998),
> my deskmate,
> my cikgu BM and Add Math,

> the first person to speak to me in MRSM Taiping, "eh.. duduk Kg. Tunku? Kenal tak dot dot dot.. " hehehe
>the one who sang "That Thing You Do" with me during Orientation Week 1997
> the one who never fails to give me raya cards till SMS became the popular
> the one who hung out with me during my JB visit in 99
> the one taught me various bombastic BM words (dia seorang pendebat)
> the one who called me up to listen to Hitz when the song VIVA Forever Spice Girls was on air for the first time
> the one who sering melaungkan bersama - sama "Wait for me when you've reached the top" - Zig Ziglar"
> the one who got jiggy with it
> the BSB chic
> the JB chic
> the cool dentist

Congratulations Atik! the one and only forensic odontologist friend, you make us proud :) I guess you're gonna have to wait for me since you've reached the top ;)

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fajar seluas angkasa

Saya slalu lagak tough. Macam takde perasaan sedih.. walaupun pada hakikatnya, Tuhan saje yg tahu.. Tapi kat luar mcm mandom dan relaxed and takde perasaan.. (aksi baca suratkhabar with my legs crossed) Tapi kenapa ? Because once I start to cry, it's hard to stop...

I will usually try my best to hide my feelings yang sedih and usually people cannot detect it unless i tell them.. Kecuali masa tengah having my the time of the month pain, mmg agak obvious la.

Since I am alone in the office (Meg gi buat experiment in Shah Alam, good luck Meg!), I stumbled upon this blog and cried while reading it..

Sgt sedih, menyayat hati and it reminded me of my anak sedara, Arwah Rafiq.. (he would be 2 years old now, birthday dia 28th November..) But Allah loves him more.. and he is in good hands now.. (we miss you..)

I have already linked fajar seluas angkasa under My Blog List so dat you guys can also follow this blog.. Let's pray for baby Amir Yusof (sangat cantik namanya)

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main kejar - kejar

MQA (formally known as LAN as in Lembaga Akreditasi Negara bukan Local Area Network) will be coming for our accreditation visit, so we are preparing for all the files and documents for them to check in January 2009.

So kat office sekarang kitorang tengah main kejar - kejar.. Kejar - kejar files.. FUFT (follow up, follow through) with all the respective faculties and lecturers to give us certain documents..

Letters have been given, datelines have passed, namun, masih belum mendapat satu file pun..

I'll be going for a 1 week leave next week, hopefully I will manage to get at least 1 out of the 13 files that I have to collect.

In the mean time, I am having coffee at my office while preparing for next semester's class.

* Elementary Stats for Foundation in Science
* Elementary Stats for Diploma in Mobile Technology
* Business Stats for Bachelor in Marketing.

(I do not agree with the work elementary.. mcm skolah rendah)

Cuma semester ni, the previous prominent HOP (Head of Program) for Marketing has resigned. Our varsity lost yet another good staff.

check this out...

MSO : so kat office u buat apa?
DJ : preparing for MQA's visit.. u know wat's MQA ?
MSO : no.. wat ?
DJ : MQA.. formally known as LAN.. u know wat's LAN?
MSO : yup.. local area network.

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where do you see yourself in 10 years?

I recently watch Laguna Beach's Season 1 - Episode 9 "The Graduation" sbb tu tulis the previous post. There was this scene when one of the juniors was shooting for their Graduation Video CD so all the senior class had to give a short clip for the CD.

Junior : Ok, Where do you see yourself in 10 years?
Senior : Probably married, have kids.. (twirling her hair while chewing gum and swinging her feet in the air looking to the sky, thinking) I'll probably have like a cute lil boutique.. you know.. like.. like.. you know... [cara dumb blonde hehehe]

They were probably like 17.. like you know like .. like.. you know [hehe]

If I shoot a video 10 years ago and ask myself, "where do you see yourself in 10 years?"
I guess my answer would be this:-

"I'll work in a hospital as a doctor and save lives (dulu pernah bercita - cita nak jadi doctor.. didn't we all? hehehe) [menggambarkan diri memakai the doctor's white coat with sneakers], I won't be married yet sbb busy kerja, on calls (masa tu tahu on call jer.. sbb slalu tgk tv and cousins ramai doctors).. I'll drive a green satria (masa tu tak terdedah dgn kereta sgt lagi), eat lunch at McD Masjid Jamek during my lunch break (i actually had this vision.. tp mcm kelakar sbb I do not know any doctors who eat there during lunch? ada tak Soraya? ) fast food senang and have lotsa $ in my bank account sbb tak sempat nak gi shopping or spend the $ ..(eksyen tu hehe) "

I had that vision in my head when I was 17. with the green satria and all.. even the McD bit.. but the vision was not strong enough and since I haven't read The Secret yet masa tu tak keluar lagi, dat's why I didn't become a doctor with the white coat, I do not own a green satria, and I never had lunch at McD during my lunch break. I also don't have lotsa $ in my bank account.. well, not just yet la.. hehehe..

At 27, I drive a coco-silver myvi (which I think is better than a green Satria, no offense yea :p), I eat my bekal from home for lunch (mama's cooking is THE BEST) at any time I want to, I wear office attire instead of the doctor's white coat (if i want to, i can always use our lab coat to feel like a doctor hehehe), I have a huge office room with a nice view, a spacious desk and a really cool desktop, I get free Statistics text books (love it), a fullfilling job alhamdulillah and walaupun i do not have lotsa $ in my bank account but whatever I have would suffice for now :) I do not save lives, but I hope that I contributed something to make someone's life better..

So this is where I am at exactly 10 years after graduating high school (lepas SPM). sometimes it feels like it was only yesterday when i received my sijil from Duli Yang Teramat Mulia Raja Muda Perak, Raja Dr Nazrin Shah.

Marilah kita renung - renungkan and menjawab soalan ni (jawab dalam hati ye.. or if nak beri comment pun dialu-alukan)

1. What have you accomplished after 10 years ?
2. Are you the same old ________ ? (isi nama anda)
3. Did you change and is the change for the better ?
4. Did you become what you hoped you would be after school ?
5. Are you better off this way ?
6. Do you still keep in touch with our bestfriends in school ?
7. Did you ever wish that you were still in high school ?

Here are my answers :

1. A lot actually.. just sometimes I feel there are more that I want to accomplish and I hope I can get the chance to do it..
2. Yes, I am the same old Dora but wiser and more mature, perhaps :)
3. Yes, I did change, and for the better in some context
4. Hm.. susah nak ckp tu.. But I am happy with what I am now :)
5. Yes I am alhamdulillah
6. Most certainly. As if we never left school :) [gurls u rock.. perhatikan ejaan ye, ROCK bukan RAWK heheh]
7. Sometimes yes. But then nanti hujung bulan tak dapat gaji mcmne ? heheh

What are your answers ? Fellow Taiping are most welcome to share.. others too.. jom jom... hehehe

Upcoming post (later2 nnt) juga where do you see yourself in 10 years from now (37) scary thought huh ? hehehehe

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awal sket harini

MSO: im back
DJ: hi XX
DJ: sorry i gi toilet tadi
DJ: hw r u XX
DJ: u woke up early today ?
MSO: wait a min
MSO: i am early,..
MSO: adoi
MSO: i ingat i was late
DJ: heheh
DJ: ur early by like 30 mins XX

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where do we begin, at the beginning of the end

I like the reality tv show Laguna Beach (LB) [watch it online here] . yes, i know. it's a teenage-dumb-blonde-rich-spoilt-brat-spending-their-parents'-money-on designer handbags and shoes-driving their X5s-and-a-hot-rod show. but i like it. and i like the songs on the show too.. tapi mase season 1 and 2 when the narrator was Kristin and LC, mase tu best. bila dah season 3 jadi boring~ and i stopped watching it. I watched The Hills instead. Yup. I like to watch the lifestyle of the rich and the super rich. Changing their handbags and going to beach parties and having really nice cars to play with looks like fun.

Anyway, today I found the song that i've been searching for at one of their episodes mase diorg nak graduate.. Check out the lyrics.. pretty deep huh ?

ALL SHINE ON
Performed by The Handcuffs
Written by Brad Elvis

Where do we begin
At the beginning of the end
Where do we go when the going gets too slow
Turn it around and start again
To the back and the bottom and then
We will all shine on, all shine on and
Stay where all the good things find you
Time, takes time where does it go
And mine, I just let it flow
Under the bridge and over the wall
Can someone answer the call
Then we will all shine on, all shine on and
Stay where all the good things find you
Good things find you

CHORUS
To the light, to the light
To the light, to the light

Where do we begin
How does it all end
Start all over again
And all shine on, all shine on and
Stay where all the good things find you
Good things find you
There, here and everywhere
Let’s grow, and go where we never dare
And we will all shine on, all shine on
All shine on, all shine on and
Stay where all the good things find you
Good things find you
Good things find you

CHORUS

Where do we begin
How does it all end
Start all over again

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i have a confession.. i'm a HUGE britney fan

Everybody celebrated Britney's birthday. Hitz' Morning Crew played 4 hours of Britney songs on her birthday. Gila lah.. and I listened to the 4 hour show.

I have a confession, i am a HUGE britney fan. just not No 1.. I memorize her songs from the first album, I karaoke to her second and third album (selalunya lagu From the bottom of my broken heart and I'm not a girl, not yet a woman and satu lagi Don't Let me be the last to know).. hehe.. yes, i am not THAT good at singing tapi sket2 bole la :p hehehe

Tapi when she became all crazy and got married at vegas.. got divorced and married K-Fed.. i think she totally lost it.. But, I am still a fan..

Did you see the video clip Womanizer - The Director's Cut ? Mak ai.. Warning : Don't Let Your Kids watch it on youtube.com bahaya2....


Note to Britney Spears:

Britney, its very unlikely (probability is almost none) that you might read this.. well, with your world tour, recoding in the studio, having 50 papparazzi's following you all the time, marriage problems and all, I don't think you have the time to read people's blog. But despite all the gossips, news and whatever people may say about you, please know that I am a loyal fan.. since day 1 (1998).. So.. Hit me baby one more time...

hehehe

Here are some Britney Facts about me:-

1. I got 3rd place at a Britney Spears contest through the internet and won her cassette and poster for her 2nd album.

2. I was filled with awe when I saw her sing and dance to Hit Me Baby One More Time in 1998.

3. I believe her when she said she didn't sleep with JT.

4. During karaoke, it's a must that I sing to I'm not a girl, not yet a woman and Don't Let Me be the last to know hehehe

5. I used to memorize the steps to her song Sometimes (malu.. hehe)

6. M.S.O bought me a Britney CD after I won a bet with him.. heh heh heh

7. My favourite Britney Vclip is Opps! I did it again and Hit Me Baby one more time

8. My favourite slow Britney song is From the bottom of my broken heart

9. I wanted to buy a Britney doll tapi mahal sgt and its kinda scary to have it during the night

10. I once had a Britney haircut.. JENG JENG JENG (lagu PRamlee yang suspen)

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Dhoom 2

The weekend went by just like that (snapping my fingers). Friday night I watched Down With Love starring Renee' Zellweger and Ewan McGregor. But when they stopped for the Nightline News, I stopped watching too. I guess I was too tired.

Saturday morning was nice, went to the market (I've been doing this a lot lately since mama suruh belajar macam mana nak identify jenis2 sayur and jenis2 ikan). Later on had nasi lemak as breakfast and went straight to cooking. yes, cooking (Hey, I hear some gasps from you people!). I cooked.. get this.. sambal ubi kentang and tempe (amek kau!) hehehe.. it was ok laa.. pass only that it was abit salty (terlebih garam).

After lunch, I watched Dhoom 2. and till this moment, i still have that song in my head, Dhoom Aa chale.. (yes, ringing tone kau Cikyah) or something like that la tajuk dia (the whistles followed by the gendang and the scene where Hritrik Roshan walks along the road changing his look,style and identity dengan angin tiup pada badannya yang tough dan rambut yg bergaya).. hehehe.. I had fun watching it.. Nice movie, nice moves

Here are some hindustan facts about me:-

Fact 1 : First time exposed to hindustan movie was when I saw Bobby (pe le tum... tum.. tum)

Fact 2 : First hindustan movie that I managed to watch till the end, Kuch Kuch Hota Hei in 2000 when I was having my the time of the month pain and I watched it wearing my kaftan, with blankets, socks and a box of tissue (nangis woo..). teruk jugak la nangis nya.. hehehe

Fact 3 : I have Arjun Rampal's picture hanged in my room since 2005 because I thought that by looking at that picture everyday, I will get a Hindustan looking significant other.. hehehe (did it work?)

Fact 4 : I have Mohabbattein's MP3 on my MP3 player :p

Fact 5 : I think Salman Khan is lagi handsome dari Shah Rukh Khan tapi SRK is charming

Fact 6 : I wish I could dance like them hindustanis

Fact 7 : It's hard to get that Dhoom Aa Chale song out of my head.. especially the whistling bit.. aaargh!

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my cousin, the rock arist

My cousin is a rock star, nak tahu siapa ? He was once from a group called Terra Rossa who sang Bunga Angkasa and later on became the lead singer of XPDC and now the singer of EMPIRE.

(promote sedara jap)

So rumour has it that the economy is not so promising in 2009. And I thought, what are the industries that will be mostly effected ? Banking and Financial Institutions.. Automobiles industry, insurance and etc..

Ever wondered, how is it gonna be like for our fellow seniman and seniwati or artist2 yang mencari makan or mengisi periuk nasinya (selalu dengar ni kat Melodi) dengan berlakon and menyanyi ? Will they stop those monthly TV3 sure heboh, jom heboh, mari heboh and those free Hotlink concerts ? Rock the world 9 ? underground music bands ? Macam mana nak Meet Uncle Hussain ? or rasa Bittersweet ? Wear those seven collar tshirt ? perhaps have that butterfingers ?

and since elyana usually doesnt wear slippers or shoes during her performance (probably preparing for the economic downturn), now she has developed a new habit of performing, she sits on the floor (Kalis Pilu Tv3 12th December 2008), and kesian tgk Tam Spider, he performed pakai T-shirt putih jer. and the lead guitarist of Estranged tak cukup duit nak gi potong rambut (tapi ada duit nak buat rebonding and highlights?), and i guess it really bothers him while he's performing sbb asik2 do the headbanging bit even when there are no reasons to headbang for..

i feel for those in the entertainment industry, i hope they are prepared for 2009. good luck to them and to us all.. may we have enought $ to cut our hair, wear proper t-shirts and wear shoes or at least slippers when walking around.. but i know siti nurhaliza is steady.

here i am doing my bit in helping one of the fellow artists, promoting my cousin, Ali.

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other than life with family, work and most of the time with the internet, my life is with tv now

I am more of an internet person. I can live without tv and radio. But internet.. uiyoo susah woo (tak caya tanya Mega).

But lately I have become more of a tv person. Perhaps, when night time comes, I find it more relaxing to just lay on my bed covered with my blanket while watching tv with the remote control in my hand. Usually, the routine would start at 9.

MONDAYS

900pm : My Wife and Kids (711)
930pm : 8 Simple Rule (711)
1000pm : House (701)
1100pm : Chuck (701) ni kalau mata tak tutup lagi la

TUESDAYS

900pm : 90210 (711)
1000pm : Grey's Anatomy (711)
1100pm : One Tree Hill (708)

WEDNESDAYS

930pm : Field Trip USA (708)
1000pm : PopCorn Wednesday (708)

THURSDAYS

900pm : Reaper (711)

FRIDAYS

1030pm : Movies (103)

But on Fridays if ada kesempatan, I like to was Assalam USA on TV3 at 7pm. Its a documentary produced by Norzie Pak Wan Chek and Aidid Marcello about how our Muslim brothers and sisters in America. Today was a very interesting topic where they discussed about ALIM (American Learning Institute for Muslims). Its intriguing to know that in the Western countries, the ukhwah among Muslims are strong, probably stronger than us Muslims in Malaysia since they consist of a small society which makes their bonds closer. What amazed me was during the clips at the end of the documentary, they showed the Muslims from many walks of life, races held up their hands and doa. African-American Muslims, American Muslims, Arabic Muslims, Spanish Muslims and I thought wow.. Islam is so universal and yet diversed in terms of race and location however our mission is the same; to be faithful to the Mighty Allah SWT and the Prophet Muhammad SAW. The half an hour show, Assalam USA won against all the shows I watched thoughout the week.

I saw that Islam is beautiful.

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freak-o-rama

I can't seem to log in to my YM v9.0 today. After so many attempts, nothing. So I logged into my yahoomail and chatted through the web mail browser thingy. Funnily though, I just realized this, my password used to be ****** till I changed it to *************. Tapi sometimes dia auto log-in right, and the bila disconnect, you have to log in again, and at the username box it'll be lyricaldj and password ******. hmmm.. bukankah my password is ************* ? and even kat office pun, desktop at home and office, mmg akan keluar ****** and everytime I change the password manually and then save it, bila nak log in, it'll appear ******... watsup YM ?

Oh yes, I wanted to write about this. Ever heard someone saying log in as login (loh-jean) instead of log in (logh-in)? Well, I have. My communist ex-boss. wonder where she's working now ?

How about this.. that's mean, instead of that means ? Oh horror!

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Label baru : Wishlist

After coming back from the post office, lps dah kenyang makan, 20 mins chat wif m.s.o (my significant other), FB-ed a little (bubuh status agak glabah nak gi OU to do some serious shopping hehehe), and having zohor prayers, I went to One Utama with Din. I think she did the more serious shopping cause I did some serious window shopping instead. hehe.

See I have a list of 8 things that I wanna buy (for now) and I wanna carefully choose it and get the best deal from this whole year end sale. I have identified 2 items out of the 6 that I wanna buy. One of it is Salvatore Ferragamo's F for Fascinating. I was truly fascinated by it's fascinating smell. Nice. Very fresh, womanly, tak menyakitkan hidung, not so strong and has a mild florally smell. Just like I was looking for. But I also fell in love with Sean John's Unforgivable for Woman.



Torn between the two. But I still have time to survey, mana tahu tiba2 ada perfume lain that I might like. See I'm not much of a perfume person. I will buy one and use it till the last drop. The last perfume I bought was Paris Hilton's Paris which lasted me for almost 1 year. Not bad la the smell. But I tried Britney's perfume, my god, tak sedap langsung, seriously.. So see la how.. I haven't had the oh-my-god-i -have-to-have-it-now feeling yet. perhaps when i have that, then i'll just get either one.. :) or maybe both.. heheheh.. if i get a good deal :)

The other item that I have identified is something yang agak personal lah jugak..(nanti when the time is right I will blog about it) But I am certain that I wanna get it.. Just waiting for the best price :) yippie-ya-yo-kai-yeaaaa

oh yes, any other suggestion on perfumes ?

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moral of the story : jgn curi parking org or main honk2

What's cool about working where I work (although its damn far) is that when Selangor cuti, we all pun cuti. So yesterday, we had our 1 day cuti and to those who wants a long weekend would take today off. or who would want the whole week off, took Tuesday, Wednesday and Friday off (like most people in my office, that's why I am alone here).

So I took the opportunity to settle my errands (actually most of my errands dah settle tggal satu ni jer). I went to the post office near Petronas TTDI , dekat2 Persiaran Maarof tu (the nearest post office to PJ that was open sbb KL area). It took me quite some time to locate a parking space. Since the post office is situated near Petronas, semua orang nak park kat Petronas. After making 3 rounds (lalu Maybank belah kanan, Secret Recipe, pusing at KFC and passby Santai), I finally saw a parking space betul2 in front of the post office entrace.

Yes!

And at the very moment I wanted to flick my right hand to make a signal, suddenly out of no where, a red proton saga dengan penuh selamba zaaasss took my parking space while giving me that ko pehal??? look. (tanda ??? kena repeat 3kali for attitude)

OMG!! WTF??

I was dumbfounded. flabbergasted. perplexed. astounded. semua lah. in simple words, terkedu because some idiot just took my parking space.

and during that 3 seconds of terkejutness, a lady who had a mix-mat salleh look driving a dark blue 5 series BMW gave me a honk that made me jump a little sambil melatah, OH mak ngkau!. She also gave me that Oi cepat la sket!!! look. (tanda !!! kena repeat 3kali for attitude jugak)

Damn you woman! baru je 3 saat. sabar la. orang nak masuk gear 1 ni. but probably it felt like 3 hours to her, looking at the the way she was driving, mcm tengah kejar something jer, kejar masa kot.

So, ok la. in my heart I was saying this Sabar Dora sabar. But in actual fact i was cursing away. Finally I decided to park my car kat depan rumah2 by Persiaran Maarof. Saman kena ke tak? Gamble la.. lagi pun bukannya lama pun (so I thought).

I walked to the post office about 253 steps from my parking space (i have really small steps) and I saw a lot of people hanging out by the door.

MasyaAllah punya lah ramai orang! So I pressed "A" for Kaunter Pelbagai and look at my number.

Your number is 1252.
The current number is 1162.
Please take a seat and we will attend to you shortly. (90 org beza? shortly, you say?)

Hm, take a seat ? where? the post office was packed with all walks of people. tua, muda, bertongkat, people with really cool pda phones, girls with sunglasses (must be hot in the post office), oh and yes.. I saw the guy who took my parking space (wah syoknya dpt tempat duduk) and the BMW lady who honked at me (constantly looking at her watch, probably a Rolex, ye, ada ciri2 mengejar masa).

Sigh. I saw an empty seat at the very front row in front of Kaunter Pelbagai 2 (for some reason, people rather stand than sitting at the front row).

Ting. Satu Satu Enam Tiga (1163).

Yeay, lagi 89 orang to go! hmm... I sat holding my handbag and looked at the counters anxiously. Nape la tak bawak something to read. At that moment I was hungry (as always), perplexed, anxious and just bored. I didn't wanna look like some girl waiting for another 89 people before her turn, so I buat2 busy dengan mengeluarkan my pink Motorola Razr and text Din.

Nape la pos ofis kat ttdi ni ramai sgt? lagi 90 org.. mane2 aku gi ramai org.

Suddenly I remembered, I had that German for Dummies book I carry in my bag since forever. So I took it out and tried to kill my time reading it. I finished a page and then
Ting. I quickly look at my number and heard the words saying Satu Satu Enam Empat (1164). Sigh..

Suddenly, I realized that I needed to fill the form to take the rebate, so I asked around and took the form and head back to my seat and started to fill it up. As I was taking my time slowly writing, a lady about late 50s (LAL 50) who looked like a pension high school teacher probably taught BM or English asked me,

LAL 50 : Dik, semua orang ambik borang apa tu?

Dora : Borang untuk Road Tax rebate makcik. Kena isi borang sebelum nak dapat rebate tu Makcik.

LAL 50 : Oh really.. We missed it. My car is dued in March, dia boleh start claim if your car is dued in April kan ?

Dora : ye makcik

LAL 50 : Tu la so I have to wait for the next one (gelak kecil..)

Dora: ooo ye ke.. hehe.. kena tunggu la.. tapi next year pun tak lama lagi.. it's end of 2008 already :)

So after having small chats with LAL 50 which was friendly, she said to me,

LAL 50 : Dik, I kesian tgk no u, lame lagi kan ? I think that would take another hour or so.. I tell you what, I'm just paying some ASTRO bills, why don't u tumpang je la my number skali.. you help me pay for my bills and then you settle kan la ur road tax rebate, i tggu sini.. my number lagi 10 org je...

Dora : (Baiknya makcik ni! alhamdulillah) yer ker makcik? oooo okay... thanks a lot (sambil senyum lebar dan lega)

Not long after that, her number came up and I paid her bills while she sat at her place, I gave her her receipts and thanked her again. Then I got my rebate. yeay!

As I walked out, I saw the guy who took my parking space and the BMW lady, I walked near the guy and said, "you nak nombor saya ke ? saya dah habis.. " he showed me his number with a ha enes poyonyer kau.. (kali ni dia ckp ada ... sbb intonasi malu tapi ego) "ooh nombor u lagi awal.. takpe lah i bagi orang lain (senyum sinis) " and i did the same to the BMW lady.. and finally I gave it to an old Chinese guy who looked like he really wanted an earlier number..

At that moment, I became RM625 richer, happy and no longer dumbfounded. [terima kasih LAL 50.. i never knew her name.. nice lady though]

Moral of the story, sila jangan curi parking org.. or honk sbb nak kejar masa..

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akutakpeduli dot blogspot dot com

i just added this blog at my bloglist.. i enjoyed reading it.. walaupun orgnyer suka scorn org lain, but some of the points are true.. enjoy

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9 attractive qualities women look for in a guy

I got this from yahoo.com.. do you agree ladies ? hehehehe


Sense of Humor

Everyone says how important sense of humor is, and I have learned to look for it in women. I am lucky enough to be able to make women laugh, but I'm still super single.

Trustworthy

Trust is the holy grail of a relationship. It takes years to build it, and it is so delicate. There are few things that take so long to attain that can be destroyed so quickly. So a lot of us may finally settle on a very trustworthy person when we finally find that.

Kindness

This seems like a no-brainer, but I've seen plenty of girls stay with guys who don't treat them well. So, I'm thinking that most women look for a nice guy, but the fact of the matter is that mean guys seem to get girlfriends too-and at a better rate than nice guys.

Money

I admit it: I sometimes envision myself marrying rich and sitting there doing nothing. I could lie out on my wife's yacht and host lavish parties and hear about how crazy the Roaring 20's were, when my wife's friends were my age. Money is definitely high on a lot of people's list: remember when Anna Nicole Smith married that really old rich guy? I doubt it was because she thought he was hot, funny, or great in the sack.

Super Hot

As much as we hate to admit it, the first thing we notice about someone else is how good or bad they look. But one of the first lessons we learn in the dating world is as beautiful as someone is on the outside, they could be ugly on the inside.

Confident

Confidence is based on a lot of these characteristics. You are confident if you are talented, super hot, intelligent, or wealthy most likely. But confidence also enables you to treat people better, so you are kind and trustworthy as well. Because confidence includes so many of these other characteristic, it may just be the one major thing women look for in a man.

Talented & Passionate

When someone possesses a special skill, such as visual art or guitar virtuosity, they get tons of girls. People like Jimi Hendrix, Led Zeppelin, and Tom Brady can go out with anyone they want because they are skilled. Heck, I'd go out with them. Usually skill occurs in tandem with passion, another attractive quality. When someone is really good at something, but not "hot," it makes sense that they can still attract a lot of women. It's less annoying to see someone like this in a relationship than it is to see a rich mean guy in a relationship.

Intelligent

I am intimidated by women who are more intelligent than I am (which explains why I'm intimidated by about 97% of the female population). For a lot of people, intelligence is sexy. When someone is stupid, it's frustrating and boring, which is enough to drive someone away.

Convenient

One can argue that convenience is a huge driver for a relationship. Does he live near you, is he "ready" to be in a relationship, does he want to have kids or not? Everything matches up correctly. Sure, he may not be the best-looking guy or have a lot of money, but it's just what you need and it's been a long, difficult search.

If we put these characteristics on a pie chart, what would get the biggest piece of the pie with you? Again, some of these characteristics occur together: intelligence and wealth, talent and passion, kindness and generosity, convenience and wealth.

How often do women care about superficial things like money? It's scary, but sometimes I fear that no matter how funny I am, if I had lots of money I could date any cute girl I wanted.

How do all of these characteristics shake out for you when choosing a boyfriend, and are there any you'd add to the list? Does confidence just take all of these characteristics into consideration?

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kembali

Yup. they're back. I used to be a huge fan of Butterfingers. my favourite album was and still is butter worth pushful.. and my favourite was the viopipe (of course lagu favourite semua org tahun 97 - 98) and i used to humm this song, Ruined by the selling out.. during afternoon prep while doing AddMaths and of course their best selling album Transcendence had The Chemistry, Epitome and Faculties of the mind which very much relate to their studying life.. I could really relate to their music during that time..

But once they came out with Malayneum, (sorry to say la butterfans), they sucked big time.. seriously.. and i stopped becoming a fan almost instantly.

One day I was driving back to work, and I tuned to Era.Fm and heard this terrible song and guess what, it was Butterfingers' Bebas.. lyrics hancur.. and I almost gagged to it.. "INI LAGU BUTTER YG BARU ????"

I thought after Emmet came back from studying in Canada (amek Actuarial Science tu), they would make a really KAPOWW comeback! sadly no.. the very much awaited butterfingers album was a disappointment.. sorry to mock butterfingers, i was a huge fan.. i had almost all their albums, even went to gigs to see them perform (zaman muda2 dulu.. ala - ala K.A.M.I hehehe) but apa dah jadi kat our local music scene ? Butterfingers I hope you guys come up with some brilliant songs.. like the ones you guys did before.. please don't do it for the sake of selling albums and selling artist-english-nak-terapkan-unsur-unsur-Melayu concept songs. Ironically, their songs are literally ruined by the selling out... Marah dak dak MCKK.. hehe.. but I think those who are followers of Butters would agree with me.. rite ?

Ampun ya. Just my honest opinion ja..

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There's Gotta Be More To Life

I'm listening to Stacie Orrico's voice singing "there's gotta be more to life..than chasing down every temporary high.. to satisfy me... " on Hitz. (Rudy and JJ dah split btw and it's JJ and Ean now.. )

I think what Stacie is going through is what most people are going through also.. always wanting more in life.. which is good.. it makes you strive harder for your future.. but there is one part of life that makes it balanced is being content with your state.. of course Islam encourages us to work hard to succeed in life and also being wasatiah in leading our lives.

I have a confession. Although I have a good steady job with a fairly ok-pay, alhamdulillah.. but do you ever feel that sometimes, something is missing.. ?

Perhaps I haven't been sincere to myself during work.. Perhaps I haven't been praying hard enough.. (lps smbhyg je doa sket and terus lipat sejadah cepat2).. Perhaps I should be doing something but I didn't and that's why I feel this emptiness.. Bukan empty apa .. just.. empty... Yes, there's gotta be more to life.. Perhaps time is a factor.. I'm always chasing time.. Always thinking about time.. the past, the present, the future.. is there enough time? Will there be time? I need more time.. And ironically though, the time spent thinking about 'time' itself has already been occupied when I could use the time to execute my actions.

I realized this during one of the talks I attended during Ramadhan. Someone said, "Luangkan sedikit masa untuk Allah, dan Allah akan meluangkan masa untuk kita.. " I watched the crowd when this person was saying this to the public.. some listened attentively, some were dozing off.. and I thought wow.. what this person just said was a big hit to me.. it hit me hard.. if i could spend an hour to watch House and another hour to watch Chuck on AXN, and I only spend 5 X 5 = 25 minutes for prayers ? or maybe less.. I feel ashamed of myself..

Kenapa tiba2 mcm Islamic dan sangat alim Dora ? I don't know.. I am not being poyo or what.. I am not that ustazah telling you what to do or what not to do.. I guess I am going through a self-realization moment.. I guess I want to share it here kot.. I might forget later on.. today, tomorrow, next week or next year.. I hope when that happens, Allah will give me a message or a sign so that I remember.. The korban event was a real eye opener to me...

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Eid Ul Adha

Apakah ertinya Pengorbanan ?

Yesterday I watched korban for the first time at my housing area masjid.. It was indeed an experience I will never forget. I brought my two nephews, Ashraf and Farhan to witness korban. And Farhan just hugged my kaki while peeping by the side the whole time, really cute.. and when he saw it on the news about korban, he goes "lembu!lembu!".. smart baby..

What I wanna share is that I feel how shallow my knowledge is about Islam and its histories. I forgot about the korban story and I had to ask my mom to understand the true message conveyed through this whole event.. I also did some search through the internet and I just found out that there are some fatwa saying that korban is wajib for people who mampu.. And I pity myself. I felt pity because here I am spending my $ for myself and I didn't even do korban. Of course I wanted to but at the very last minute, tak sempat. I hope if ada rezeki yang cukup dan umur yang panjang, I would like to do korban one day.. insyaAllah..

Watching people at the masjid gotong royong potong2 daging and helping each other made me realize how strong the ukhwah is among the Muslim society in Kg Tunku. The smile on everybody's faces, how they willingly helped without the hopes of any balasan, but because of keikhlasan.. I felt sorry for myself for not witnessing this is the past Aidiladha before.. I kept on thinking about my own sellfish life, my own schedule, and how I am soo busy to go to the mosque to witness korban but how I can make time to go to Midvalley or The Curve and how I forgot that Aidiladha is a meaningful event, not just a public holiday and staying at home to enjoy another day not going to work. Aidiladha is more than that.. It is pengorbanan seseorang tanpa mengharapkan balasan, korban kerana ikhlas, korban kerana Allah swt... I pity myself.. for I have been oblivion about the beauty of Islam..

So what is the true meaning of korban for you ? Salam Aidiladha to all Muslims around the world.. May this korban be a meaningful event to you as it was to me... :)

Will post some pictures soon..

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long december

Yes, i changed the colors of my blog again. It's navy blue this time. I'm going all blue now.

Well, it's a Long December.. and there's reason to believe that maybe this year will be better than the last.. (counting crows). I really need to update my mp3 player to some new songs.. Haven't been able to dload them through limewire lately.. I have no idea why..

So, what's up with me ? Well, to be honest, nothing much really. I renewed my car insurance and road tax and will be getting the RM625 soon insyaAllah.. woohoo! Actually I was quite worried they might have some problems renewing my road tax due to some saman I haven't paid since 2006 (ahaks). teruk kan ? apa nak jadi Dora ? Zoey Jane (my myvi) will turn 3 years old tomorrow.. Happy Birthday Zoey Jane! I'm gonna take her for jalan jalan kot on the weekend.. and treat her with some nice carwash and vacuum ... love my car...

Well this post is really pretty random.. no mind stimulating, thought provoking thoughts for now.. I cooked fried beef macaroni just now and it was D-licious (enak! bak kata Ashraf, my 7 year old nephew who just bersunat on Tuesday).. Office was ok, I tertidur during lunch hour (i do not know how and why it happened.. it just did) can you believe it ? tengah2 buat kerja, suddenly I had backache because my posture was not right sbb tertido.. how can that happen? was I too tired or sleepy ? I dunno.. perhaps..

Nothing much planned for the weekend (since I was excited over last weekend and it turned out I didn't go out.. so I'm planning not to plan anything for this weekend.. although it's gonna be a long one..

Oklah, I guess I'm gonna watch some tv till I doze off.. I changed my sidebars if you noticed..
Will blog some more when I have something thought provoking to blog about.. ok?

Later readers.. Happy Raya Haji

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tagged by Soraya

1. Do u think u are HOT?
yeah.. especially when i look in the mirror.. i feel so damn hot.. AHAHA

2. Upload a fav pic of you
ada tapi at home.. nnt k ?

3. Why do u like this picture?
tell you later


4. When was the last time u ate pizza? I cannot remember... hmmm really that long ??


5. The last song u listen too? Hot & Cold


6. What are u doing right now besides doing this? Filing for MQA


7. What name do u prefer besides yours? Mya


8. people to tag
Shaz Zain
Dyanna
Nadia
Adina
Sue


9. who is no.1
my coursemate in UKM


10. no.3 is having relationship with?
Married to Dr. Shahir.. hehe

11. say something about no. 5
updates her blog quite often hehe


12. how about no.4?
is a successful careerwoman!!!


13. who is no.2
kembar sebaju.. (beberapa baju) di taiping hehe

Done! yeay!

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L.U.C.K.Y

I am loving this song by Jason Mraz and Colbie Caillat. What a great combination.. Ok, have so many things to blog about tapi banyak bende nak settle at the office.. will put on my blog cap later when i am abit more free.. (dah mc 3 hari kena kejar masa) just thought of pasting this cause baru je dgr lagu dia tadi on the radio... lovely lovely... lovey lovey...

Do you hear me,
I'm talking to you
Across the water across the deep blue ocean
Under the open sky oh my, baby I'm trying

Boy I hear you in my dreams
I feel your whisper across the sea
I keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets hard

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Oooohhhhoohhhhohhooohhooohhooohoooh

They don't know how long it takes
Waiting for a love like this
Every time we say goodbye
I wish we had one more kiss
I'll wait for you I promise you, I will

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
I'm lucky we're in love in every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

And so I'm sailing through the sea
To an island where we'll meet
You'll hear the music, feel the air
I'll put a flower in your hair
Though the breezes through trees
Move so pretty you're all I see
As the world keeps spinning round
You hold me right here right now

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
I'm lucky we're in love in every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

Ooohh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh
Ooooh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh

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kenapa bila bergambar....

I was browsing through some pictures inside facebook.com earlier today. I noticed something about some female friends' pictures and wonndered...

"kenapa bila bergambar kena tundukkan kepada sedikit,dan sengetkan ke kiri atau kanan, mata dibulatkan dan memandang ke atas (camera), senyum tertutup atau kalau terbukak dicontrolkan dengan merapatkan gigi dan bibir dekat2 dan bersandar pada seseorang (if not alone) ? "

i'm a newbie in this photography thingy.. especially portrait pictures.. but it kinda looks planned and not carefree... perhaps i might have some of those shots as well.. tanpa disedari kot.. izzit some girl thingy ?

don't you think so ? have a look at some of your friends' pictures... seriously...

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pills, the secret, viral fever.

I look out the window and it's a sunny day. I could hear the birds happily chirping and the cool breeze of fresh air on a saturday morning. I just lay on my bed, thinking about the Malaysia Year End Sale. Gaji dah dapat. Budget ok ok. All I had to do was just get up, get ready, get going and get it done with.

But no. I couldn't.

I suffered a massive-excruciating-5-days viral fever complete with the 40degrees temp, dry cough, and running nose. the whole package. Only this time, i took my meds, on time, with discipline and everything. I did as everybody told me. I kept on hearing this..

"Makan la ubat.."
"Rest properly.."
"Minum air"

I kept on saying in my heart, "dah.. dah.. and dah..." but i just kept quite.. sbb tak larat nak ckp apa..

See, when i am sick, i have this BIG problem of taking meds. I CAN'T take pills. I simply CAN'T. What i'll do is i'll just pecah2 kan the pills into smaller pieces and swallow it with some juice or air yg bukan kosong i.e milo, teh or whatever it is.. as long as it's not air kosong..

So this time i really followed everything since day 1. only that my sakit became worse.. till on sunday i said to myself, "that's it. i have to do something about this. i can't take it any longer." so i terpandangkan buku "the secret" on my bookshelf and i had an idea.

by 10 am, i pulled my blanket and kept on saying this "By 2 pm, i'll be healthy again... no.. by 2 pm today, i'll be healthy again.." i kept on repeating the sentence over and over till i dozed off... when i open my eyes it's 1230 but i was still sick.. my mom called me for lunch, had some bubur and was in bed again by 1.. i said the sentence again and again kononnya dgn power of the secret i can recover from my sickness..

i open my eyes again and i look at my pink motorola razr and it's 230pm... "i'm still sick!"

i decided to stop taking my pills. the damn anti biotics just won't work with me. never did. and the ubat selsema and batuk just makes me feel more sick and i just can't stand it. I HAVE DECIDED TO STOP TAKING PILLS. IT'S TOO PAINFUL AND I DOESN'T WORK ON MY BODY. (at least for now)

and you know what. after i stopped taking them, i felt healthier.. but just not fit enough to go to work today.. so i went to the clinic (Young & Newton kat PJ Newtown) to take a blood test and get an MC. and alhamdulillah i am denggi free.. just a viral fever.

guess shop till i drop will just have to wait..

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I am 16 going on 17

I was watching this with my nephew, Ashraf and it was nice. This was and still is one of the best movies i've watched. and i am a sucker for musicals...

Oh yes, i have a post on musicals. I'll post it tomorrow.. Enjoy this.. Feels like 16 again :) and Liesl have the most lovely green eyes don't you think ?

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hair-spray

I am looking at my hair and thinking how fast it grows. Since I cut it in March till November, that's 9 months. Ever wondered why your hair is tak rata ketebalannya.. like how thick it is at the roots and how it jadi nipis at the end? do you have that ? or am i the only one ?

Tbh (ayat ikhwan ni), I am abit obsessed about my hair. i think that's the best part of me kot (cewah, citer pasal aurat nih). I guess there is something about your hair that makes you who you are.. it's a big portion of your personality. And i think that is why as a Muslim woman, Allah made covering your head as a must. and i think there is something beautiful about it..

I am now slowly changing my image. I wear hijabs once in a while. Kinda like it. takyah gosok and pusing jer.. takpakai banyak pin and tak bnyk citer..

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ich mag tempe!

I slept early last night. 930 pm ok. After having dinner and cleaning up, I spent some time with my niece, Izzah zuza and Fahim Chikedee (their nick names). Sedar2 je it my eyes just could not open anymore and I smsed him and slept. 1240 I terjaga from my sleep and got 3 missed calls. Made a phone call and slept again.

Wow. But why was I so tired yesterday? I drove to work in the heavy rain in the morning, invigilated my Stats paper for 3 hours, did some massive-yet-headachable (is there such a word) exam paper marking and went back home at sharp2 5.15. sounds like a normal day.

Anyway, the weekend was very fruitful i guess. Spent the saturday meeting up with Niza and Shaz at Starbucks KL sentral for breakfast, the evening with my sis in law, planning and planning to execute the plan this weekend and next month. did some studying (cewah) and also cleaned up my room (like totally clean up), masak sket, cuci2 kain sket, and some other domestic stuff.

So I'm hyped up for tomorrow cause its pay day.. woohoo~ kalau masa kerja bank, saat ni la paling genting.. orang excited nk dpt gaji, for me, i'll be nervous sbb takut2 ada tersilap key in gaji orang (Kerja HR payroll dulu)..

Okla, i'm ok now cause my 'pain' dah alhamdulillah hilang. me happy. me ceria.
so people since i learned to say this last weekend, just wanna write it here:-

ich mag tempe! (i like tempe)

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Apakah perasaan seorang guru?

Apakah perasaan seorang guru?

Apakah perasaan seorang guru apabila dia sedang mengajar dan pelajar berbual2 di dalam kelas sambil bergelak ketawa? Dia hanya berkata di dalam hati kecil nya "ah, biarkan lah mereka, nanti mereka akan berhenti bercakap. kalau menegur, nnt mereka yang akan kecil hati."

Apakah perasaan seorang guru apabila dia sedang mengajar dan melalukan sedikit kesilapan dan membetulkannya di whiteboard dan pelajar mengeluh dan berkata, "alaa...dah salin dah". Dia hanya berkata di dalam hati kecilnya, "ketika kau membuat kesilapan, aku hanya bersabar dan menunjukkan kamu jalan yang sebenarnya."

Apakah perasaan seorang guru apabila dia sedang mengajar dengan penuh semangat selama hampir dua jam berdiri dan bercakap, dan pelajar yang duduk dengan penuh selesa menguap sekuat hatinya dengan sengaja bagi menandakan masa hampir tamat. Dia hanya berkata di dalam hati kecilnya, "Mungkin mereka sudah penat kot. tak apalah"

Apakah perasaan seorang guru apabila memulangkan markah ujian pelajar dan pelajar hanya menanya balik padanya "kenapa markah saya sikit sangat??" Dia diam seketika dan berkata di dalam hati kecilnya, "mungkinkah aku yang tidak cukup bagus mengajar mereka?"

Apakah perasaan seorang guru apabila dia mengajar di dalam Bahasa Inggeris bagi menghormati pelajar bangsa lain dan mereka hanya bergelak ketawa di belakang kerana merasakan pelik apabila seorang Pensyarah Melayu berbahasa Inggeris dengan pelajar Melayu. Dia berkata di dalam hati kecilnya, "Tidak apalah, asalkan aku menjalankan tanggungjawabku untuk menyampaikan ilmu itu dengan jelas dan nyata."

Apakah perasaan seorang guru apabila dia menyediakan nota dan membuat salinan untuk pelajar itu dan dia pada akhir kelasnya melihat kertas itu melayang di atas lantai dan dipijak2 oleh pelajar lain dan akhirnya dimasukkan di dalam tong sampah. Dia berkata di dalam hati kecilnya, "hmm, tidak apalah, mungkin tercicir agaknya.."

Apakah perasaan seorang guru apabila melihat anak muridnya dapat menjawab dengan betul soalan - soalan peperiksaan ? Dialah yang berasa paling gembira di hatinya.

Apakah perasaan seorang guru apabila anak muridnya masih mengingati padanya apabila terserempak di mana mana? Dialah yang berasa paling terharu.

Apakah perasaan seorang guru apabila anak muridnya naik di atas pentas dan mendapat sekeping ijazah dengan senyuman yang sangat gembira dan melambai - lambai pada ibu bapanya ? Dialah yang berasa paling gembira.

Terima kasih kepada semua guru - guru yang telah mendidik saya selama ini sehingga saya menjadi seorang pendidik kepada generasi baru ini.

Maafkan cikgu2 saya sekiranya ada yang saya lakukan di atas, kerana pada ketika itu, saya tidak matang dan kini, saya tahu apakah perasaannya guru..

all rights reserved.
-written by dora.j-

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Sayang kan ?

Starts : 1025 PM

Someone once said to me, "Live your life without any regrets".

When I was much younger (mcm dh lame jer hehe), biasalah, budak2 mmg nakal sikit. Sikit jer. I like to try new things (konon experiment) and just break the rules (abit) once in a while (biasalah kot). So, when my students do crazy stuff or just trying to be the young ones they are right now, I kinda know some of their tricks (been there, done that).

However, I do not regret how I lead my life. I am what I am today because of what I was yesterday. So, alhamdulillah. Whatever mistakes I have done before is a lesson for me to learn, probably some bad experiences, or unwise decisions, I have dealt with and learned to live with it. I have never blamed anyone for what had happened to me.

Why this sudden post? See, I am working as an academician. And as an academician, I deal with a lot of people. And most people might say that my work is easy because I just teach. See, that is where people who assume that are wrong. I do not JUST teach, I believe that my responsibility goes beyond that. I am responsible to shape a person, academically. and I believe that I take my job very seriously. I have been a lecturer for about a modest 1 year and 3 months to be precise. And as far as I can remember, I have never regretted venturing in this line.

I always tell my students. "Please, do as I tell you. Don't have any regrets when you see your marks. Don't blame others for what you are responsible for. You have a big responsibility, to learn. and my responsibility is to teach and to guide you. So I take this big task seriously. and I hope you do too." Some take it seriously. Some just don't bother. Some want to but just do not have the strong willpower to do so. Whatever it is, I hope that my students will not have any regrets.

"If only I studied harder"
"If only I submitted my assignments"
"If only I paid attention in class"
"If only.... "

I remind my students and myself as well and the fellow readers.. Please.. have no regrets.. just live your life.. or just.. embrace life.. and just live.. Cause your life is a too precious and a beautiful gift for you to waste..

Please throw away all your regrets.. your negative vibes.. your anger.. your hatred.. your jealousies.. your sadness..

Wouldn't it be a waste if one day you wake up and you realized that all your life has been filled with all those feelings.. and you are old and have lived your life but was never happy.. never vibrant and never lived? Sayang kan ?


Ends : 1045 pm

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Pain

I'm in pain.
Pain.
Pain.
Pain.

Why must I be in pain ?
Every time..
Every month..

I am not shy. It's a natural process. I am in pain.
Help me.. :(

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PAKU

I got this email from a friend and i thought it was very well said... Listen to the moral of the story.. maybe we could all learn from it...

Ada seorang pemuda yang sangat pemarah. Dia tidak dapat mengawal
kemarahannya walaupun ianya hanya satu masalah kecil sahaja. Pada suatu
hari, bapanya telah menghadiahkannya dengan seguni paku. "Untuk apakah
paku-paku ini ayah?" tanya pemuda tersebut. "Setiap kali kamu marah,
kamu pakulah tembok batu di hadapan rumah kita ini, bagi melepaskan
kemarahan mu" jawab ayahnya. Pada hari yang pertama sahaja, pemuda itu telah memaku sebanyak 37 batang paku pada tembok batu tersebut. Selepas beberapa
minggu, setelah dia dapat mengurangkan kemarahannya, jumlah paku yang digunakan
juga berkurangan. Dia mendapati, adalah lebih mudah mengawal kemarahannya
dari memukul paku menembusi tembok batu tersebut. Akhirnya tibalah pada
suatu hari, dimana pemuda tersebut tidak marah, walau sekali pun. Dia pun
memberitahu ayahnya mengenai perkara tersebut dengan gembira. Bapanya
mengucapkan tahniah dan menyuruh dia mencabut kembali paku itu satu
persatu, pada setiap hari yang ia lalui tanpa kemarahan. Hari berganti hari, dan
akhirnya dia berjaya mencabut kesemua paku-paku tersebut. Pemuda
tersebut lantas memberitahu perkara tersebut kepada bapanya dengan bangganya.
Bapanya lantas memimpin tangannya ke tembok tersebut dan berkata "Kau telah
melakukannya dengan baik, anakku, tetapi lihatlah kesan lubang-lubang
di tembok batu tersebut, tembok itu tidak akan kelihatan sama lagi seperti
sebelumnya. Bila kau menyatakan sesuatu atau melakukan sesuatu ketika
marah, ianya akan meninggalkan kesan parut dan luka, sama seperti ini. Kau
boleh menikam seseorang dengan pisau dan membunuhnya. Tetapi ingatlah, tak
kesah berapa kali kau memohon maaf dan menyesal atas perbuatam mu, namun
lukanya masih tetap ada. Luka di hati adalah lebih pedih dari luka fizikal.

Sahabat
adalah permata yang sukar dicari. Mereka membuatkan kamu ketawa dan
menggalakan mu ke arah kejayaan. Sahabat juga adalah seorang pendengar,
berkongsi suka dan duka dan sentiasa membuka hatinya kepada kita.


Maafkan saya sekiranya saya pernah meninggalkan kesan berlubang di dinding hati
anda....


It’s better to be silent & be thought a fool, than to speak & remove all doubt.. -Abraham Lincoln-

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